Sorry I'm Not Posting, Every Time I Go To Post Something I Delete It Instantly ;;

dawg what 😰

whY DOES IT SAY IT'S RECORDING MY VOICE OR THAT A MICROPHONE IS IN USE I CAN'T FIND ANY APP THAT COULD BE RECORDING HJEKLPP MEE D: this immensely distresses me i no longer want to use my tablet waauuhh

The reason that stigma against psychosis and sufferers of psychotic is such a nightmare because there is a basic and pervasive misunderstanding of the word itself. It's treated as a synonym for "bad" and "evil." It's been bastardized and misused so much that the actual medical meaning is never the first thing that comes to mind. That's why the use of the word is a hill I'm ready to die on. Using it wrong hurts people deeply and no amount of "I didn't mean it like that" will ever change the fact that people hear the word psychotic (a word that means the world to me) and immediately think danger and violence and cruelty. It's a condition, not an insult, and this kind of thing should not fly with anyone.

i just watched owl videos for like an hour. i friggin love owls. oh my zoodness they are so cool theyr like cats but they ,. can fly. they even sorta look like cats. i heard one guy in one of the videos say "cat software with bird hardware" i couldn't agree more

hey i tried doing a thing where i viewed what my tumblr page looked like to other people, and i can't see my ask box. idk if it just doesn't show up, but i do have it enabled. do i have an ask box?

i didn't lose my marbles i ATE THEM X3

guh okay i'm bored and i'm thinking bout existence so here's this. probably will delete later.

when i was younger, i would hate on any form of popular or mainstream artist/creator/whatever. it was because i didn't want to be all popular and trendy and preppy, and such. anything that gained any sort of popularity and wasn't really underated i would "hate" it bc of that reason. even if it wasn't "overrated" i would still hate it even if it was good. i would also be obsessed with the terms overrated and underrated for that reason.

i realize now that that is very bad and i'm starting to get into better habits with that. i want to expand what i engage in so i'm not straight up missing out on life. like yeah bro, breathing's pretty popular, but i aint gonna stop anytime soon. there is so many aspects of life that i didn't engage in because i thought it was "too popular" and "too mainstream". and the same goes for the other way i thought stuff was cringe as well. i missed out on so much of my childhood that way. also, no i'm not saying i'll engage in trends or mainstream stuff in my content. i still very much enjoy more 'original' ideas, so to speak.

i don't want to become repetitive, but i also don't want to be like "waahhh wahhh i'm quirky give me attention"

i basically just want to enjoy stuff i like, unrelated to it's popularity status.

okay done with the info dump i'm done now byyeee

this post contains a pretty sensitive topic so just be cautious . i will tag this accordingly . if you have any suggested tags please tell me so i don't miss anything!!

(i am not a medical professional, i am just deeply invested in researching psychology. i apologize if any of this is inaccurate, or missing information.)

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okay so i just went down a strange and disturbing tumblr rabbit hole of people like,,. encouraging starvation? and like? saying "you don't need to eat food it's a want not a need" and also just,, glorifying eating disorders? even sexualizing them,. ;w; the internet can be scary,,.

it's even more disturbing that this kind of content is mainly aimed towards kids/ teens /preteens ,, like,,. that's not okay to encourage

just remember that like. yes you do need to eat. if you don't you will quite literally die? it's essential to life,.

ALSO!! **it's okay to go on diets!! just remember to eat enough food an stay healthy :3***

but,. just doing it bc ur insecure or dysmorphic isn't good for you. it can be physically damaging and exhausting mentally too,.

i know i can't like,, magically stop people from having eating disorders. i am aware of the complexities.

if you're currently experiencing this i'm sure that you've probably heard people tell this to you and that you know this already,. but in case if you haven't, that's why i'm saying it. or, if you're planning on doing it or feeling pressured. it's not a good thing to get into,.,,,

and if ur struggling with this just know ur loved <3 yall r awesome ^^

based on how much people ask for fanart and requests on deviantart and bandlab, i'm surprised i don't get more commissions. any way to help this? i, ,. want money ;-;

I love colors!! X3

also what i did not mean to draw the collar that way but it looks cool so yah B)