:( RIP Vlad

Don’t read, just getting something off my chest

Sometimes, I just feel like screaming. Like, if can feel something sitting in the center of my chest, something heavy, but it never rises up of falls down.

Sometimes, I just feel like crying. I can feel the sob in my throat, and the tears starting to burn the back of my eyes. But I never do, because it always goes away.

I never tell anyone what I am thinking, what I am feeling, because it has become something that I see as whining in my eyes. These things that I feel come randomly and sporadically, so I don’t see it as something to fear.

But when I read these posts and stories, something that I bond myself with, and they talk about things that happen to be what I think/say/do, I find it harder and harder to keep these things in. There are barricades that are built in my head like the Great Wall, but they seem to be crumbling down one day at a time...and I’m scared about what will happen next.

I don’t know who to talk to; don’t know if anyone will even care, or say that I’m just being dramatic, or ‘It’s just a face because you’re young!’

Drawing has helped me, but not enough. Screwing over my sleep scedual to fall asleep at midnight is fucking with me, and school has started become just another burden, another weight on my back, and stress ha become something more than just something every once in a while. It’s alway with me, to the point where I am starting to get nervous tics every time I talk.

I don’t know... just gotta pull through I guess.

Day 4 of 6: Gus

I’m starting to get burnt out, and you can see it through the playback of the piece. Gus turned out so cute though! Cute and severely traumatized, poor kid. I really think things will turn out better for you in season 3.

In other news, Luz might be a day late, because I am going to be busy all day tomorrow, so I will have no time to do her until late at night. I am super excited for what the finished product will be, and to continue with my other projects!

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The bots are evolving!!

Now I’ve seen bots with firstname-lastname combo with numbers in the middle, but even more odd are the ones without numbers at all… Some jumbled up almost-words that at first glance could be actual tumblrs. But when you click through to see their blogs, they look just like the old bots.

Apparently at some point the bots starts to leave comments with malware links on your posts if left to their own devices. I saw that in the wild today on someone else’s post.

Remember to report as spam and block!

Am I crazy?

For the past few years the same movie ( I think) has been bobbling around in my mind. There is this dude, your stereotypical nerd that makes inventions. Nobody likes him. The movie starts with him running (I think on the side walk by his house (which is huge, but he’s like a teenager so his parents are making bank or something) or like, in his neighborhood, or something) when he locked himself on his room, and the people chasing him breaks his door down. Whelk instead of these people killing him, because you know, I was a kid when I watched this movie, the shower him in congratulations because he got into some school or something. The people congratulating him are his neighbors and classmates and teachers, because they have all been victims of his malfunctioning experiments and inventions, and they are happy to be rid of him.

Flash forward to him in this boarding school (I think it’s a high school, but I couldn’t tell you if you paid me) where his starts getting teased again despite the fact that this is some rich people school where all the students are smart for no reason. Mr. Main Character them meets the chick he is going to get with at the end of the movie ( yes it is one of those movies) and after getting ridiculed again, desired to change himself using an invention that he designs. This invention ( that is on the cover of this movie I think) is a giant heart shaped computer (I think) that will change Main Character in to the a cool guy that is basically the opposite of himself. His is fitter, cooler, actually smarter if I remember correctly, more laid back, and has a different accent then him ( I think) and goes about the movie trying to impress Love Interest while being cool him, and going on with his studies as regular him.

The conflict happens when the “cool” him starts to show up when Main Character does not want him too, or they start to switch at random. The scene I can remember the most is them at this dirt bike park place, and cool main character starts to drive on for the bikes, to impress Love Interest, when cool arms regular switch back mid jump on the bike. Nobody sees, but we get this slo-mo action shot of regular freaking out and letting go of the bike, and cool taking back over and doing some cool flip to get back on the bike and sticking the landing. ( note: I think this whole thing is flipped, but I may also be wrong, I have not seen this movie since I was like 4). So Main Character tries to get to the bottom of what happened, when it turns out that the Invention has a mind of it’s own, and is wanting to completely him permanently.

Anyway, blah blah blah, he gets turned , the power of love saves him, and they destroy the machine and they all live happily ever after. Okay, that is the movie for what I remember. Does anyone know what the hell I am talking about, or am I actually making if all of this up? Please tell me I am not crazy.

:)!

So I recently made two (long) posts about how to clear your Off-Meta Activity and how to toggle-off Meta Ads Data Permissions for those who are unable to leave Facebook for any reason. I decided it might be good to also post a short version of both together that might be easier to share. Let's just jump into it:

How to clear your Off-Meta Activity:

Profile icon ➡️ Settings and Privacy ➡️ Settings ➡️ See more in Accounts Center ➡️ Your Information and Permissions ➡️ Your activity off Meta technologies

Once in the Your activity off Meta technologies window you're going to want to clear your previous activity, then disconnect your future activity.

How to toggle off Meta Ads Data Permissions:

Profile icon ➡️ Settings and Privacy ➡️ Settings ➡️ See more in Accounts Center ➡️ Ad preferences ➡️ Manage info

Once in the Manage Info window you'll notice three categories: Information used to show you ads, Ads shown outside of Meta, and Other settings.

In the Information used to show you ads category:

Open Categories used to reach you, and disable all those options. Then, in the bottom of that same window, find Categories associated with you ➡️ View and manage, and remove them all

Disable Activity information from ad partners

Go through Audience-based advertising and remove permissions/lists there.

In the Ads shown outside of Meta category:

Disable Ads from ad partners in other apps

Disable Ads about Meta on other platforms

Then under the Other Settings category:

Click on Social interactions and disable Meta from including your social interactions alongside ads that your friends see.

* * *

And we're done!

If you'd like a more in-depth post with pictures to help you do this you can follow the links above to find those.

Also, even if you can't delete your Facebook account, I urge you to please delete/uninstall the app from your phone as that's the #1 best way to keep it from tracking you everywhere you go IRL and online.

(You may need to go into Settings ➡️ Apps to fully uninstall the FB app. I thought I deleted it years ago, but still found it in my list of apps just the other day. Turns out I only "disabled" it, and had to "uninstall" by going through settings (I assume uninstalling through app store should also work tho))

That said, if you delete no other Meta app from your phone- make sure to delete FB messenger- it's literally the worst one, but that's another post, which I'll hopefully get to later.

Stay safe out there, and remember- fuck Facebook.

as a librarian, i can't encourage you enough to check out stuff you don't think you'll get around to reading

like other institutions, at the end of the day we have to use numbers to justify our existence and inform our financial decisions

check out that novel by that author you like even if you know there's no time to finish it. check out a movie you like even if you can't watch it. check out a sewing machine even if you don't have time for a project. we don't check if you finish anything, and it all adds up

support your local library by checking out things you don't need

FOR UKRAINIANS WANTING TO GET TO POLAND

You can take your animals with you, they only need to be vaccinated against rabies and have a microchip. Know that there are vets on the border that are vaccinating animals.

Kids are able to enter without documents. They won't be separated from their parents.

You need any kind of identification to enter right now, doesn't have to be a passport.

Covid vaccines are available for people that are entering

There is also no quarantine after you enter

Please stay safe

Edit: people started to ask for sources so I'm happy to provide them

https://www.wetgiw.gov.pl/main/aktualnosci/Tymczasowa-procedura-przemieszczania-zwierzat-towarzyszacych-z-terytorium-Ukrainy-na-teren-Polski-przez-osoby-nie-posiadajace-kompletu-dokumentow-weterynaryjnych-dla-psow-kotow-i-fretek/idn:1999

https://www.strazgraniczna.pl/pl/aktualnosci/informacje-o-granicy-polsko-uk/9870,Zniesiona-kwarantanna-na-granicy-z-UA.html

https://www.gov.pl/web/udsc/ukraina-en

https://www.gov.pl/web/zdrowie/szczepienia-przeciw-covid-19-cudzoziemcow-narodowosci-ukrainskiej

All of them are official government or border guard website

Day 3 of 6: Hunter

How do people just bust out this bad-sad boy’s hair? I spent a good five minutes on his long strand in the front alone.

In other news, Hunter may look kind of funny with half of his arm missing, but it will look better when Gus is added, I promise! I also changed my style slightly between when I last posted, but I think the more simple style is nice, more cartoon-esk.

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It had been a week since Danny had run away. Jazz has been looking for him since the night that his powers short circuited in front of the entire town. Now, 7 and a half days later, Jazz found Danny on a floating island, with a dark castle with a night sky full of stars and a bright moon.

Danny changed a lot in the week that he was missing. A purple and black gale you replaced his hair, a slight wave to it. His usual t-shirt and jeans were missing, instead he had an almost royal appearance. Dark purple dress pants, a dark blue long sleeve button up shirt, and a pair of black vans. His complexion was brighter and the bags under his eyes were almost gone. His arms and stomach seemed fuller, like he was properly eating. All in all, he seemed almost like a different person.

“Danny?” Were the first words that were uttered from the mouth when her brother came into view. Shock passed through his face, and a shaky smile followed. “You look different. Healthy! And,” she took a slow spin around the castle they were in. “This is amazing.”

His smile softened, as he gently chuckled.

“Thanks. I guess this is sort of my layer, now. Everything just grew around me, anything I could imagine happen, right before my eyes.”

Jazz started to make her was up the stone steps, continue to talk to her brother.

“I’m sorry about what happened in Amity, Danny. You didn’t deserve what happened, if I would have stopped-”

Danny had raised his hands, almost to defend himself, and began to back away.

“No, it’s fine, really. It’s not your fault. You should start heading home. Really.” He had his hands awkwardly around in his pockets, an unsure look on his face. Jazz stopped walking, surprise in her voice.

“But I just found you.” Another step. Danny looked more nervous.

“But you don’t belong with ghosts. You belong with humans, in Amity.” Jazz's eyebrows furrowed. What did he mean by that.

“What are you talking about, so do you. You’re not-” She had stared up the steps again, set on getting to her brother.

“No, I belong here. In a place where I can live my life without endangering the people I love.” Danny looked directly into Jazz’s eyes at those words. A thought occurred to Jazz, something that she had been wondering about for a while.

“Danny,” another step forward, another step backward. “Danny, we were so close before everything. Why are we not anymore?” A frown rested on Danny’s lips, answer lost on him. Jazz crept talking. “We don’t have to be this was anymore. We can have the same relationship as when we were kids.”

Behind Danny’s eyes, scenes played like a projector. The moment where he almost killed his older sister. ‘Catch me!’ ‘Hold on!’ ‘JAZZ!’

“No.” Danny wrapped his arms around himself protectively. “We can’t. Goodbye Jasmine.” Danny began to walk upstairs. Jazz stood shocked for a moment. Danny never used her full name.

Jazz started up the, calling after him.

“Danny, wait!” Danny grabbed himself tighter.

“No, I’m just protecting you.” Jazz was running up the steps, Danny much faster.

[Jazz:]You don't have to protect me I'm not afraid

Please don't shut me out again,

Please don't slam the door

You don't have to keep your distance anymore

'Cause for the first time in forever

I finally understand

For the first time in forever

We can fix this hand in hand

We can head back to town together

You don't have to live in fear

'Cause for the first time in forever,

I will be right here

They were upstairs now, a large room with a balcony. It had a perfect view of all of the stars, and the bright moon. He turned around to meet Jazz’s gaze when she got up the steps.

[Danny:]Jazz,

Please go back home, your life awaits

Go enjoy the sun and pursue your fate

[Jazz:]Yeah, but -

Danny put his hands up in defense again, backing away to the door, turning around to open it.

[Danny:]I know

You mean well, but leave me be

Yes, I'm alone, but I'm alone and free

Just stay away and you'll be safe from me

Pale light hitting his face made Danny close his eyes. Jazz walked up behind him, as Danny continued. When she got to him, he backed away more and walked be into the room.

[Jazz:]Actually we're not

That got Danny’s attention. He turned around, eyebrows scrunched.

[Danny:]What do you mean you're not?

[Jazz:]I get the feeling you don't know

[Danny:]What do I not know?

Jazz wring her hands in each other, nervous of his reaction.

[Jazz:]Amity’s being invaded by… ghosts

[Danny:]What?

Shock was present on his face. He didn’t mean for that to happen. Danny didn’t even know he could do that.

[Jazz:]You've kind of created little void demons… everywhere.

[Danny:]Everywhere?

[Jazz:]It's okay, you can just stop them

[Danny:]No, I can't, I - I don't know how!

Danny was getting flustered, and every time that happened, something bad happened. Jazz needs to leave, it just get away from him. Why didn’t she understand, why does she keep following him?

[Jazz:]Sure you can! I know you can!'Cause for the first time in forever,

[Danny:]Oh I'm such a fool, I can't be free!

Darkness was starting to creep up on Danny, slowly suffocating him. Around the Fenton siblings, it was starting to get darker, harder to see and think. There was a mass of darkness starting to condense around Danny, almost like a twister of black.

[Jazz:]You don't have to be afraid

[Danny:]No escape from the storm inside of me!

He was looking down at his hands. It was there flat that he was in this position in the first place.

[Jazz:]We can work this out together

[Danny:]I can't control the curse!

Controls your emotions. Controls you powers. Don’t feel them. Don’t feel them.

[Jazz:]We'll reverse the storm you've made

[Danny:]Ohhhh, Jazz, please, you'll only make it worse!

He was rubbing on his sleeves, rubbing his hands together, and doing anything to keep calm. It was so hard, though. This was what he was afraid of.

[Jazz:]Don't panic

[Danny:]There's so much fear!

Tears were sliding down his face, but he didn’t feel then. He could only feel the pressure in his chest, in his core. She was never going to understand, why was she trying so hard to?

[Jazz:]We'll make the sun shine bright

[Danny:]You're not safe here!

Get away from her before you hurt her. Get away before she ends up like before.

[Jazz:]We can face this thing together

[Danny:]Oh!

[Jazz:]We can change this dark teather

[Danny:]AHHHHH…

The dark was getting to be too much on Danny. He was going to explode. He needed to do something, or it was going to start eating him from the inside.

[Jazz:]And everything will be alright...

[Danny:]I CAN'T!

A mass of black magic ricocheted from his body, hitting everything in the vicinity. Jazz was struck, and felt the immediate sensation of fear starting to grip at her heart, causing her to gasp out.

Danny had a small sigh of relief, a pressure lifted off of his core, ever so lightly. He heard Jazz gasp out behind him, and turned his head to see her gripping her chest, her heart, and curling in on herself.

“Jazz?”