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What happens once you kill yourself? Because I'm ready to go.

You wanna know what happens once you kill yourself? Your mother comes home from work and finds her baby dead and she screams and runs over to you and tries to get you to wake up but you won’t and she keeps screaming and shaking you and her tears are dripping onto your face and your dad hears all the screaming and runs into the room and he can’t even speak because the child that he loved and the child that he watched grow up is gone forever and finally your little sister runs into the room to see what all the fuss is about and she sees you dead. The person she looked up to and loved. The person she bragged about to  her friends, the person she wanted to be just like when she grew up, the person that made her feel safe. But she’s never really going to get to grow up and smile and laugh and love because she’ll always be consumed with this feeling of missing you. And now there’s something missing from your family and they can barely look at each other anymore because everything reminds them of you but you’re gone and hurts more than anything. and you think that your mom never cared because she was always busy and yelling at you to finish your homework and clean your room and forgot to say I love you sometimes but really, she loved you more than anything and she doesn’t leave the house anymore, she can’t even get out of bed and she’s getting thinner and thinner because it’s too hard to eat. Your father had to quit his job and he doesn’t sleep anymore, every time he closes his eyes he sees his baby dead, and the image never goes away no matter how much alcohol he drinks. And at school your best friend sees that your seat is empty and she gets this sick feeling in her stomach and that’s when she hears the announcement. You killed yourself. And suddenly she’s screaming and crying in the middle of class and no one even bothers comforting because they’re all  busy sitting there staring at your empty seat with tears dripping down their cheeks and all she wants is for you to hug her and tell her it’s gonna be okay like you always did, but this time, you’re not there to do it, everything is dark now that you’re gone and her grades are slipping, she barely goes to school anymore and she ended up in hospital after taking too many pills because she wanted to see you again. the girls who used to make fun of the way you dressed feel their throats get tight, they don’t talk to each other anymore, they don’t talk to anyone, they’re all in therapy trying so hard not to blame themselves but nothing works. and your teacher who always gave you a hard time stares blankly at the wall, she quits her job a few days later. And then your boyfriend hears the news and he can’t breathe, he still calls you a lot just to hear your voice and he talks to you on facebook but you never message him back, he can’t fall in love again because every girl he meets reminds him of you, he’s never going to get over you, he loved you and he cries himself to sleep every night, hating himself and slicing his skin because he couldn’t save you and he’s never going to hold you in his arms or hear you laugh again. Now everyone who knew you, whether they were a big part of your life or someone you passed in the hallway a few times a week, they carry this aching feeling around inside them because you’re gone, and they miss you, and they don’t know why you left but it must’ve been their fault and they should’ve stopped you and they should’ve told you they loved you more and that feeling is never going to go away. And so you killed yourself

but you killed everyone else around you too. 

:)!

Only on the inside.

Reblog if you’re dead

Wanna see how many people are dead

as a librarian, i can't encourage you enough to check out stuff you don't think you'll get around to reading

like other institutions, at the end of the day we have to use numbers to justify our existence and inform our financial decisions

check out that novel by that author you like even if you know there's no time to finish it. check out a movie you like even if you can't watch it. check out a sewing machine even if you don't have time for a project. we don't check if you finish anything, and it all adds up

support your local library by checking out things you don't need

So, I was rewatching Chicken Little recently, and I had a thought. “Hey, what if I made the characters of Chicken Little as humans?” Then I learned that Chicken Little was a teenager... and this was born!! #chickenlittle #pixar #sketch https://www.instagram.com/p/CCVAA6WBnjF/?igshid=u49jot52akk

In respect for prom season, two characters you have never learned about before, because I’m horrible about posting my pictures 😋 #digitalart #digitalartist #artistsoninstagram https://www.instagram.com/p/Cdnv5YQOVYc/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

This is a list of every thing that I have ever seen/read. Anything on this list I am willing to draw, but most of it I have never tried, so they will be a work in progress. This is also things I am willing to chat about through dm’s as well. This is updated every time I finish something.

Fandoms I will draw for:

Books

Harry Potter

Hunger Games

Virals (all except for Terminal)

Percy Jackson (Olympians & Heroes of Olympus)

Television Shows and Movies

Anime

Ouran High School Host Club

Soul Eater

My Hero Academia

Blue Exorcist

Yuri!! On Ice

The Promised Neverland (season 1)

Erased

Haikyuu

Cartoons

Voltron: Legendary Defenders

Danny Phantom

Gravity Falls

Epithet Erased (not a cartoon, but it falls under this catagory)

Amphibia

The Owl House

Other Shows & Movies

Umbrella Academy

Marvel

Star Wars

Stranger Things

Harry Potter

Hunger Games

Arcane

Musical

The Guy Who Didn’t Like Musicals

Hamilton

Be More Chill

22 Chump Street

Dear Evan Hansen

Come From Away

Six

Heathers

Games

Sally Face

Sims

Life is Strange (1 & 2, not Before The Storm)

Detroit Become Human

Minecraft

Doki Doki Literature Club

Among Us

Hey, you! Do you want a commission from an artist? Great!

Because my commissions are currently OPEN! There are currently 3 slots open (this number will be updated every time someone takes a slot.)

Available

Available

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If you wish to take out a commission by me, please proceed under the cut to get the rundown over my rules and what I work with. If you are not interested, you may continue on with your day!

Before you think about a commission, please keep in mine the things I am and am not willing to do. Here you can find fandoms I aware of, but if you want a different one than on that list, please be specific with the fandom and the character.

Ordering Your Commission-

Once you have an idea about what you want to order, you need to email me with the email attached below. Be sure to clearly state 1. The name of your character (including what media they come from and reference pictures if they are your own original characters) 2. The exact way you want the commission to look, including what ‘level’ you want it to be and 3) If there are any add-ons that you want to add.

Payment-

After emailing me about your request, I will send you an estimate about the final price. These commissions are payed by hour, so I will average my time on all pieces I have done to give you a price. THIS PRICE IS NOT FINAL. These prices change based on certain aspects, including the final time I have spent on the full piece.

For example, if a full body rendered piece is ordered, and I plan on spending 4 hours on the piece, I will tell you the piece will be around $80. If I then spend more hours than expected, the price will go up. Please do not fight me on the prices, because these are non-negotiable. If I do say there is a sale, then these will be applied once the piece is FINNISHED. Not before.

Extra Fees-

In addition to the piece itself, there may be extra fees that I will charge a client an additional fee for. The fees are as followed:

Complex Backgrounds: White, simple, or transparent backgrounds (your choice) comes free of charge with the work. Anything outside of that will be charged- $5

Additional Characters: Adding another character to a piece- $5

Post-approval Changes: I will contact you when I have concept sketches done, and you will have to approve them before I continue. If I get the approval, and contact you again when the inking or flats are done, and you change your mind or what it different (outside of minor details like eye color or freckles or something) I have to start again, which is more time that it takes for me to finish the piece- $5 to $15 depending on how far into the piece I am when you change your mind, and if the piece I am working on is complex.

Commission Sizes and Levels-

Level 1- Sketches

Bust Sketch- $1 Waist Sketch- $5 Full Body Sketch- $10

Level 2- Ink and Flats

Bust Ink and Flat- $5 Waist Ink and Flat- $10 Full Body Ink and Flat- $15

Level 3- Full Renders

Bust Full Rendered- $10 Waist Full Rendered- $15  Full Body Full Rendered- $20

If you have made it this far, congratulation, you are ready to purchase a commission. Please take a moment to assure that you have an email and a PayPal set up to completely make sure that you are able to pay for the commission. If that is set up, then you may proceed to absolueartattack@gmail.com, and set up your commission today.

DO NOT SEND ASKS OF THIS TO THE OP BECAUSE I WILL NOT DO THEM

SEND ME A CHARACTER + EMOTION/COLOR PALETTE (OR BOTH)

feel free to reblog and use them yourself :)

God, my brain is trying to kill me...

Today, my life has felt like shit, cause I can’t stop thinking about stuff that I should not have to worry about, so I am taking requests for anything to do. So please leave your requests, so that I can take my mind of my piece of crap life.