Acid13rain - Sillysillystupid

not me having a crisis over stupid countries

dont talk to me if you say 'i listen and love country' and then tell me all you listen to is like

morgan wallen or something

if thats the only guy you listen to oh buddy you dont know country listen to some george strait

hahahaha austria is so silly im gonna put him in a blender <3

its out of love :3

watch my dumbass forget i have a broken foot and i havent taken any pain medication in like

something something hours

and get slapped in the face with bitchass pain

me when i tried to play my story so i could hear how it sounds out loud and on the google doc i have warnings on it and a teacher walks by and basically hears some part of this

(Warning: This story depicts themes of child neglect, war, abuse, death, trauma, and injury. Viewer discretion is advised.)

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i hope they dont remember my face because yesterday i was listening to a serial killer podcast...

Chapter two for Walls of Gold is currently in construction and will hopefully upload today or tomorrow <3

i hate allergy shots it itchieeesss

i need someone to treat me like a puppy that got shots

went to bed at two something and woke up at five and absolutely ready for the day :D

Innocence.

Crayons scattered on the floor around a bright-eyed being 

who doesn’t seem to have a worry about where they place their feet.

Running up and down hallways giggling, attempting to escape being caught. 

Chasing butterflies through the grass, bare feet jumping over roots jutting out from the ground. 

You’re told the words ‘Savor your childhood’ without knowing what it means.

What does it mean?They never explained, they simply smiled and said, ‘You’ll see, everyone does’.

It never made sense when it mattered. Why didn’t it?Why couldn’t you have understood? 

Why did you wish so often, telling yourself you couldn’t wait to grow up. 

Everyone says that. 

Then suddenly everyone is scrambling to turn back the clock.

What happened? 

You tell your parents that you’re big and can be ‘like the grownups’ but then suddenly

You wish that they would hold you like a little kid again.

What happened to their gentle smiles as they kneeled down to tie your bright-colored shoes that flashed with light when you stepped so you’d spend your time stomping wherever you could just to see that flash of color.

They didn’t make them in your size anymore. 

What happened to free time after school? Now you’re chained to endless amounts of paper. 

Digital paper.

You’re constantly told ‘You spend too much time on your phone’. Too many screens. 

It’s not like no one tried to make that not happen. We spend our entire lives on a screen. 

Our education now depends on a screen.

Everything seems to depend on a screen no wonder we start to also. 

What happened to counting fake plastic pennies and the colorful cubes to use for math? Now it’s a page put up on a screen that you’re told to write down. Needing help seems like a chore. 

Why ask?Everyone will stare at you. Avoid attention. What happened? 

‘Never be afraid to ask questions.’

But what if those people made you afraid in the first place.

As a child you were convinced that you knew. You knew because you could ask. 

As a teenager.

You pretend to know because the only thing you do know is that you know nothing. 

Not knowing is weakness. 

It’s not endearing.

Innocence wasn’t explained as a child. 

Angels were innocent. 

Someone who didn’t do something bad was innocent.

But you never know the true meaning of innocence until it's ripped away from your hands and you watch life take it away from you when you aren’t ready to think about it being gone. 

That’s what growing up is. 

The loss of innocence.

~~~~~ i don't have a lot of experience with writing poems so apologies if it has poor quality. i'm open to constructive criticism but please do be nice i'm only 14 lol. writing is a passion of mine and i do plan to make more posts involving poetry or other.

i laugh at my own jokes im thinking about austria hungary and like if he gave headpats to someone and hes like wow you have a weird texture and the other one is like 'thats a fucking rock im over here'

idk

its not even funny but here i am almost laughing publicly at it