Almsworth-worm - Normal Person Do Not Read My Mind.

this is actually a clever nod to how char aznable invented yaoi in the real life 1970s

She wonders how she ended up like this.

There’s not exactly much else to do. Her limbs are cold and unmoving. Her eyes are held open, not by artifice or panic but by the very nature of the state she finds herself in. She tries to muster up some of her strange power, and finds that no matter how much her mind struggles, she can do nothing but wait.

So she waits.

She counts. She counts the marks and stains on the ceiling above her. She counts the number of days she’s spent trapped in this half-life. She counts every mote of dust that settles on her eyeballs.

She wishes she could blink or cry or do something - anything - to dispel the feeling of the dust in her eyes.

More than any of that, she starts to feel hungry. It starts at the tips of her toes and works its way up, consuming her until all she desires is the warm feeling of blood slipping out between her fangs and pouring down her throat.

She remembers the person who got her into this state. The way they approached her, all full of confidence and importance. She remembers the way they took a wooden stake from behind their back and plunged it into her chest. She remembers the way they took her body and dragged it back to their haven. She remembers them placing her on this table, open eyes towards the roof, limbs strewn out around her.

She wonders what they would taste like.

…

After who knows how long, she hears the door to the room swing open and collide with the wall.

If she could move, she would turn to face whoever or whatever just walked in. But she cannot.

They speak softly.

They talk of how they first saw her. They talk of how beautiful she is. They talk of how useful she would be.

To her, it is hollow and full of lies. She wishes to eviscerate them. To rip them in twain and drink their blood.

Nevertheless, they approach her. She hears the noise of their shoes against the concrete floor. She hears the creaking of the table on which she rests. She feels them move to straddle her.

She feels them move their fingers to cleanly wipe away the layer of dust that has accumulated on her frozen eyes. She feels their thumb caress her lips, her cheek, her eye.

‘I wouldn’t want you to miss out on seeing this, would I?’

They lean forwards, and their beautiful face appears in her vision.

It is a welcome sight.

She doesn’t mind this, she remembers now. They’ve done this before, she remembers now, and it is always oh so very fun. She allows the feeling of the life she once had to suffuse her. It is all she can do.

She notices their hands on her dress. She notices as they move the straps of her dress off of her shoulders. She notices as they reach around to undo the straps of her bra and pull it off of her. She notices as one of their hands cups one of her breasts. As their hand traces over one of her nipples. As they squeeze and pinch and stroke and so much more.

She is distracted. The face in front of her is so very lovely, and it pierces her mind as surely as the stake through her chest pierces her body.

Then, their face disappears from view.

For a short moment, she is disappointed.

Then she feels them lift up her skirt. Their hands are on her thighs, and they move slowly, torturously upwards.

She feels their lips on her. She feels their tongue on her. She ought to be writhing and bucking and making all manner of noises at the sensations they elicit.

She is still.

The sensations build. Time loses all meaning. Her mind is muddled and incoherent. She is filled with so much emotion and joy and pleasure.

She is still.

This could go on for minutes, or hours, or maybe even days. The sensations rise and rise and rise and do not stop. It is as though every one of her nerves is set ablaze.

She is still.

Something inside of her breaks and shatters. The sensations peak. Her mind cries out in ecstasy, then goes as still as her body. She feels nothing but an overwhelming and pervasive bliss.

Her captor’s face appears again. They praise her and tell her she did such a good job and made them so very proud. They thank her for letting them have this mutual indulgence. They remind her of how much more exciting it is made by what comes next.

They look deep into her glassy eyes, and tell her to listen, and she does so quite happily.

‘Forget this.’

And she descends into an entirely different sort of haze.

…

Soon, the haze wears off.

She is hungry again. This time is worse than before. She wants blood. She wants nothing more. She would tear this world asunder for a single drop of it.

A voice interrupts her crazed reverie. Her captor speaks.

‘If you’d just be a dear and promise not to hurt me, you can drink as much as you need.’

If her head could snap around to face them, it would. She cannot respond, but she promises in the depths of her heart and the depths of her mind that she will not hurt them. They have blood, and she desires it oh so much.

The stake is pulled out of her heart, leaving her chest with a wet pop.

She sits up and stares at her captor, cocking her head slightly as she watches them retreat across the room and sit on a worktop.

She watches them roll up their sleeve. They hold their wrist outwards towards her, and gesture for her to come.

She lunges across the room towards them, taking their wrist between her jaws. With their free hand, they push her down to the ground, until she is kneeling at their feet like a loyal hound.

If she had any higher reasoning at this moment, she would notice that the blood tasted strangely familiar.

She feels the hunger dissipate from her mind, and feelings of loyalty and infatuation rush in to fill the void.

She wants to please them. She wants to do the right thing for them, She wants them to be happy with her. She craves their adoration and attention.

They smile down at her as they extract their wrist from her mouth. They stand, and she remains kneeling. They walk out a bit, her head following their every movement.

They click their fingers.

‘Heel.’

She follows them out of the room.

i love when a tgirl is just so absolutely pathetic. like of course i want to yank you around on a leash babygirl look at you, you need this. i want to see your adorable little face when i smash my fist into your guts. i want to hear your whines and whimpers when i'm stepping on you while you're on the ground. I wouldn't want you getting up even though im pulling at your leash so insistently. soo pathetic

I'm going to make it so you can NEVER be forklift certified

She invited him in, of course. He asked for her help, and this is one indulgence her boss allows her. Where people are nice and polite - all too rarely she must admit - she can help them if he deems her methods fit. Sometimes they dine at the small table in the kitchen with her. Usually, they are unsettled enough by both the house and her way of acting that they make excuses, and borrow a room for a few nights while she helps in whatever way she can.

It rewards good manners, and the supply of unmissed blood and bodies it gives her boss is a bonus.

There’s a third kind of person, she thinks. Someone who can put up a facade well enough to appear polite, but not enough self control to keep acting in the proper manner.

This man, for she will not grant him the perceived innocence the word ‘boy’ would bring, talks to her. He tells her he needs their help to eradicate evil from this world. Surely the owner of such a large building could spare some funds to ensure that the deviants and monsters and unnatural abominations are kept far from polite society. Surely he, her boss, - for no woman could have a role in the ownership of this beautiful structure - is a man of god, and wishes to uphold his holy words. He recites some scripture, bits she recognises from her time as a mortal in the 80s.

For the first time in a while, she thinks back to those years. She remembers some of the boys and girls and in-betweens and boths and neithers and more she used to know and hang around with when off work. She remembers some of the posters and slogans and verses that said the same things as this man. She remembers seeing it on TV, hearing it yelled at her on the street, reading it on the front page of the papers.

There were people who taught her about herself, who made her realise the things she felt and the things she most definitely didn’t feel, then held her as she cried and made her see that none of this made her any less human, any less worthy of being alive.

She remembers how some of these people cracked under the near-constant pressure. Some of them moved across the country. Some of them found twisted ideals to believe in. A couple paid lump sums to a programme that promised to make them normal, to make them normal and banal and regular at the same time and as soon as possible.

She never saw any of those people again.

Now, stuck in this room with a man full of nothing but hate and false pretenses and bad manners, she feels lonely. If there is a god, he abandoned her at birth and at her rebirth in a basement in Bath. There are indeed monsters and abominations in this world and she is one of them, but this is not because of who she is, it is because of what she is - Kindred. She will never again have that community or that love.

Now she feels angry.

She asks if he will join her in her room. She knows how he will see this, and she knows he will take the bait, and she knows she can make a mess there with no repercussions.

She could never make him hurt enough. How much hurt was doled out on the people she loved by ignorant fools like him? How much hurt was doled out not just to them but to people like them and like her?

He has been a bad guest.

He has been so much else, but this is the very last straw.

The screams last for hours.

The pain lasts for days.

The stains last for weeks.

When she meets her boss downstairs the next evening, he seems proud of her.

A sharp crack rings out, echoing through the room.

She looks at her arm, wrenched out at an unnatural angle, hand limp, joints broken.

She looks at the person standing above her, a sadistic smile stretching across their face.

She looks at their hand. She sees the hammer they hold.

Three more cracks ring out.

She lies limply on the floor, limbs broken, helpless.

She smiles back.

The person above her moves, not with the sharp violence that broke her, but slowly, deliberately, with care.

They take a set of keys from their pocket. They flick through them to find the smallest of the keys. They lean down and kneel on the floor beside her. They reach out, hold her shoulder, move the key towards her.

And it falls into the keyhole right by her shoulder. It turns. A soft, gentle click is heard. Her arm falls out of the socket, landing amongst the shards of porcelain that surround her.

She sees the metal framework of her arm, warped and distended by the blunt force of the hammer. She sees her joints, shiny from wear and use. She sees the last remnants of the ceramic that serves as her skin, either affixed to the frame or driven into the material that forms a part of her.

Three more clicks ring out.

Her limbs are strewn about on the floor around her.

The person beside her leaves for a moment, and returns carrying a bag. They sit back beside her. Reach out yet again, but with neither the hammer nor the keys.

If her body could feel, she would feel the cold of the new metal, not yet worn or tarnished, as it works its way into the setting within her shoulder. She would feel it again, in her other arm. Again and again, in the attachment points just below her hips.

Her miss stands over her once more, looking proud of their work.

She raises her new arms, uses her new hands to push herself off the floor, stands on her new legs, walks forwards on her new feet.

She loves her maintenance.

i just want some friends who will be evil with my triggers. like yes put me into trance cause im beating you in mario kart. please that’s so hot pleasePLEASEPLEASE

huuuuge fan of little phrases you can add to the end of your sentences just for fun. "if you even care" and "btw" and "I fear" have done sooo much for my vocabulary. if you even care

Spent way too long on this (lies I love worldbuilding).

really enjoy when a figure in greek mythology just keeps showing up in all the stories because they were everyone's favorite. like this is jason and the argonauts. why heracles the bus driver