Finishing My Homework Feat Resident Evil 7 By Vegeta777, A Very Well Known YouTuber Here In Spain.

For one of my classes I'm having to do a replica of an object, and I'm doing a bell, which had to menguante due to technical problems, but no problem because it's still cute.

You can totally do it! Just remember to take breaks when your body ask for them, if not you are going to enter burn out, personal experience. Good luck this year!!

my academic journey (warning: i ranted) -

so ever since i started school till about the end of 8th grade i was always a 90%+/straight A student. the kind of child my classmates & cousins would be compared too. not trying to glamorize comparison btw, i personally think that's really toxic & pressurizing. so yeah, i was a "good" quiet kid. i listened attentively in class and submitted all my homework on time. the only complain teachers had about me was that i was "too quiet" but that wasn't a real issue. i was just shy but talkative with my few friends yano. i spent the entirety of 7th grade & most of 8th grade in online classes so my habits of studying went to shit. still somehow managed 91% in my 8th grade finals. and then 9th began and it all went downhill. teachers kept saying 'next year is ur board exams, u need to study a lot, etc, etc.' so if u're not from india we basically have these major 'board exams' at the end of 10th & 12th grade. but 10th boards don't really matter all that much, teachers just make a big fuss about it. 12th boards matter, but that's also the time we give college entrance exams and that sorta matters more according to most ppl. n yeah, idk what happened but i got overwhelmed. i could no longer just do well in class and study before exams and get good marks. i felt dumb. my grades didn't see a single improvement. i honestly gave up in the middle of it all and got sick of school. and at one point, it became less burn out & more clinging to the familiarity of not doing anything. i became lazy. and i became a hypocrite. i'd always tell myself, this time i'm gonna study, this time i'm gonna score well. well that 'this time' never came. 10th grade got even worse and i scored 73% in my board exams because i barely studied at all. at the same time, my relationship with my parents has constantly been unraveling. and i saw just how much of their 'pride' was dependent on me being the kid they could show off and smile widely when others replied 'wow she's going places'. my father can't hold a single conversation with me now that doesn't go back to me being a disappointment. and now i'm the kid who has to listen to her parents compare her to others. 'be like her, your friend', they say. halfway though 11th rn and i guess what?? still no fucking improvement. but the thing is i know this is the last straw. i can feel it. i got around 64% in my first tests (pa-1) of 11th. haven't gotten mid term results yet but i'm estimating just above 50%. and the thing is it's not that i can't score well. i know my potential all too well. i know i can score such high marks. but the problem is i don't study. if i just studied a couple hours every day, i can easily manage above 80%. with constant improvement i can manage above 90% again. but i don't. and that's ending right this instant. i'm not gonna turn into an academic weapon overnight or smth ik that. but i'm gonna start slowly but surely working hard. i have big dreams, i know i can achieve them if i just put in the effort. plans have been made, all i need to do is execute them. execute my laziness. i'm gonna get better. i'm gonna prove everyone who thinks i'm never gonna do it wrong, and i'm gonna prove myself right. this comeback will be for me, my inner child. the little kid in me deserves to not wind up a washed-out failure.

academic goals! -

pa-2 - 75-80%

11th finals - 80-85%

12th pa-1 - above 90%

uni - iiser (college for pure science research, bs + ms integrated)

Being in college is always either,

Oh boy I love learning! This class is so interesting!

Or

I can't wait for class to be over (it hasn't started yet)

Yes it is, I´m not going to wake up at 4:30 a.m to be at work at 5:45 am(my house and my work are quite far away) be there like ten/twelve hours, have to be there so early because I need to discharge trucks full of gasoline and clean the gasoline tanks, clean public bathrooms, the staff bathroom, do the money counting, attend clients, and not have anybreaks because i´m the only one at the gas station, for 400 hundred euros a month, like I work only twelve hours a week, but it´s a lot of responsability going from being a butcher, well not specifically, it was the charcutery section, but only doing half of that for six hours a day, and divided in sunday, saturday and when it was a week day with festivities i would work but if i did more hours i would either get the extra hours paid or in vacation days. Like no thanks.

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Ink floofers 👀 Prints

in roman osteria / carl bloch (1866) italian osteria scene / wilhelm marstrand (1847)

hey, don’t cry. one half flour one half yogurt knead into dough and fry for easy flatbread and dip in balsamic vinegar, okay?

Norman Rockwell (American, 1894 - 1978), Wet Paint, 1930, oil on canvas.

This is a Pantocrator, is a painting that shows god, it has a lot more of symbolism but since I'm simplifying it a lot I'm not going to go very in deep. It's done with pigments and egg yolk, I don't really know the name of this technique in English but in Spanish is "pintura al temple".

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