Latest Posts by blogofamessedupguy - Page 3

Eating after fasting<<<<<<<

if you eat, exercise. if you cant exercise, don't eat.

i've gotten to the point where it feels worse to eat than to starve

active 3d blogs plssss reblog and like i need moots!!!💜

Honestly, if the only other option is being fat, being a little hungry all the time doesn't sound bad at all

hunger is my drug

Fuck you calories, we don’t want you.

Guys im alive actually

hypothetically can i kill myself if im not at least at my gw by my birthday

everyday i contemplate cutting all the fat off my body

I know being an athlete you need to fuel your body, but it feels so good being hungry.

honestly love my therapist (well he's my nurse but closest thing I have to help atm)

"Well, even if you die from starvation, at least you'll have your teeth" all because I won't drink sugary squash as it hurts my teeth and drink sugar free squash

Could not stop laughing

i love the feeling of an empty stomach. i feel so light. 🤍

.𖥔 ݁ To be an angel, you have to let go of the world. Let go of everything. Even hunger. 𖥔 ݁ ˖๋ ࣭ ⭑

am i an ed blog or am i just a blog with an ed?

💗⋆˙⟡ Reblog if you’re an active blog in April.

'You barely e4t something these days.' God forbid a woman has goals.

. #retiredcrashoutbutcute

"why do you cut and starve yourself?" god forbid a boy has hobbies

Introduction (age 21)

Hi. You can call me Newt because ain't no way I'm sharing my real name on here in fear that someone I know finds me. I'm pretty fucked up in a lot of ways

I'm a survivor of child and adolescent torture after having been severely abused and also a victim of TMBC (trauma-based mind control) and RA (ritual abuse) throughout my childhood. I was abused for 13 and a half years before being removed by social services once I became confident enough to talk about what was happening.

I have Bipolar 1, Dissociative Identity Disorder, Some sorta restrictive ed (probs atypical ana), a psychotic disorder, Complex PTSD, and fibromyalgia. I also deal with sleep problems and a bunch of other physical health issues that are undiagnosed

I'm trans FTM and use he/him Pronouns. I started medication in 2021 after being sectioned to a child inpatient unit where I live and started antipsychotics which made me gain 25 odd kg. I'm now working to lose that weight now I'm feeling more "stable".

I was clinically anorexic before starting on antipsychotics and hoping to get back to that state.

I will mostly be posting about my ed.

If you don't like that, block, don't report.

You have your safe spaces, I have mine.

Nice to meet you all! :D

im gonna lose so much weight that i’ll be unrecognizable..

im gonna lose so much weight that people will ask me if im okay..

im gonna lose so much weight that the new clothes i bought are gonna be loose on me..

im gonna lose so much weight that people will truly have to love me for who i am n not for how i look because im gonna look so sick..

i said that i wanted to lose enough weight to be a “healthy” and “normal” weight, but now i want to be so skinny that i become sick..

Gay and anorexick call that faggasaurous rex

every time you think you’re hungry, take a good look at yourself in the mirror.

does that look like someone that needs to eat?

Did you eat today? Yea, I can tell.

this is the highest weight I'll ever be.

say it with me:

this is the highest weight I'll EVER be.

the only way the number can go is down.

꒰⁠⑅⁠ᵕ⁠༚⁠ᵕ⁠꒱⁠˖⁠♡

I will reach my gw by my birthday

I will reach my gw by my birthday

I will reach my gw by my birthday

this is the highest weight I'll ever be.

say it with me:

this is the highest weight I'll EVER be.

the only way the number can go is down.

꒰⁠⑅⁠ᵕ⁠༚⁠ᵕ⁠꒱⁠˖⁠♡

reminder:

a calorie limit is a LIMIT not a GOAL

In my ED relapse era

I had to try "recovery" for a while if I want top surgery but they're not sending the referral until I see a neurologist for physical health issues so I'm going to relapse to lose as much weight as possible so I can start T sooner.

Can't fucking deal with this

I'm so fat it's ridiculous. And I have to spend a lot of time around my family which means eating.

I wish I never started antipsychotics - weight gain is the worst thing to ever happen to me. +25kg and I didn't even overeat (verified by every person in my life). Fuck this shit man

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