∅ Hi, I'm Blue! ∅ I Put The Letters In Quadrants This Time. I'm So Smart!

∅ Bonus post! ∅ I decided to put this back up, with a slight modification. Isn't it interesting that the pentagram symbol means something different, depending on whether it points up or down? I should not censor myself. I am Blue, and my mind is free!

I have a song in mind. Three singers, bass, baritone, and tenor, playing a guitar, a tambourine, and tapping sticks. I have to sing all three parts myself. If I don't write it down now, I'm going to forget it. I have imposter syndrome so bad. Or maybe it's learned helplessness. But I'll just do my best and then the result will tell us whether I'm an imposter or not.

I slept all day today. I wish I didn't hate myself so much. I really have a lot of self-hate. Forgiving myself is something I'm working on. Being angry at myself for being disabled is so cruel and bigoted. I just want the mental screaming to stop, so I can rest.

∅ Hi, I'm Blue! ∅ I put the letters on the side this time. I'm so talented!

Okay, lyrics for the song are done, I think. The next step is writing out the sheet music. I have tried to keep the problem as simple as possible, But I am not recording any music today. That was silly. I have to rehearse the music first until performing it is automatic. I don't get to skip work just because I have talent.

My ability to draw is severely limited. I need to improve my skill in private to be able to continue with this art project. So there will be no more images for a while. Daily Affirmation: My name is Blue, and my existence has value.

I am addicted to the hatred of others in my community. Dear hometown, I drink your hatred of me like the finest craft root beer. I will never stop panhandling. I will never stop begging. Because your hatred makes me feel alive. All I am doing is asking for help. The more everyone in my community hates me, the more confident I am in my moral superiority. I don't care about your money, hometown. That is just a bonus. I want you to give me all of your disgusting, evil hatred for the poor, because I love it!

I have trouble making friends Maybe I will write a poem View the problem through a lens Welcome them into my home Daily Affirmation: My name is Blue, and I have the potential to do good things.

I lost my job. Affirmation of the Day: My name is Blue, and my existence has value.

Affirmation of the Day: My name is Blue, and I am a nice person.