I Dont Want This.

i dont want this.

why it is that i have the worst timing. im saying this because currently im falling for you and i don’t know what to do because i don’t want this. im not saying that i don’t want you of course i do it’s just that i know this isn’t gonna work. im sorry that im so negative it’s just that i always screw things up and these relationship stuff never works out with me. im too clingy, i need attention or else i overthink and think you don’t want me anymore, or that im just too emotional and that im a total mess. but i can’t help myself, im just constantly falling when i see you, when you talk to me, and when you show the slightest affection towards me. i never expected to fall for someone like this again. you’re there for me when i need it, you’re the one person right now that i truly trust and has been always there for me. and i don’t know what im gonna do when that time comes and you leave and i never see you again. i don’t want that time to come but it is and there’s no way of avoiding it because it’s gonna happen. maybe in months, weeks, or maybe in a few days but that day will come that we’ll be strangers again. unless you feel that this can work and that you’ll do everything you can to keep this relationship we have. that you won’t care that im an emotional mess, or that i overthink. you’re simply gonna fall for me as much as i fell for you.