I Need Help Finding This Fic I Read When Season 1 Cane Out 🙏🙏🙏🙏

I need help finding this fic I read when season 1 cane out 🙏🙏🙏🙏

so basically it was joel x reader and they had been together since before the outbreak and they had a kid together (not sarah but she was still there) that was a toddler and both of the kids died when sarah died. it then jumps to when ellie is with maria and both the kids names were written and ellie asks who they are and maria explains. thats all i remember BUT I HAVE BEEN SCOURING THIS APP FOR MONTHS TRYING TO FIND IT AND I HAVE HAD NO SUCCESS PLS HELP MEEEEE

it was also somewhat popular it had a decent amount of notes

THANKS A BUNCH 😛😛😛😛😛😛