I Only Hope That You Never Find Me.

i wasn't even aware of that and now I'm very terrified for my account lmao-

My ideal body is covered in scars but apparently that’s not an acceptable body goal

I need to stop going deep on my arm, its gonna bite me back in summer

im.fucked. I'm fucking fucked.

mom went through my room to look for something and found my box. of all my razors. AND FUCKING TOOK THEM.

she left a note of telling me to talk to her but how do I explain this shit!? how do I explain why I cut!? i don't even do it for normal reasons or depression at this point.

what do I say. oh yeah, I cut just for the hell of it? out of habit because I'm addicted? for the blood and scars? like yes, I do it when I'm upset and/or depression too, but not even I know why I do this anymore!?

I've been feeling like throwing up the last few days, maybe I should. maybe it'll be successful this time.

"But you were fine 2 seconds ago"

yeah and now im not

"But you said you were getting better"

yeah and now im getting worse

my head hurts (from being sick) and is also telling me to do certain things

i don't wanna speak, I don't wanna do any form of communication, I don't wanna type or write, I don't wanna talk. i don't wanna move. i don't wanna do anything.

again.

again.

again.

i just want to not exist, just wanna lay and rot, just wanna die.

yeah so, I got got. I knew it would happen eventually but still feels like being hit by a semi

gonna try to tag everyone I can remember

@love-stuck @sewerslidalfaggot @grimnmm @pinkbunnieskill @the-real-loser-otaku-girl @emandcries @gruesomeghost-boy @ima-end-itt @soontobe-onlyamemory @aloneshecries @thebpdcrybaby (i cant remember some properly, I'm sorry)