"One Day,

Hope builds slowly..

"When does the hurt end?" I think as I see his blue hat, I remember feeling blessed with his memory when he gave it.

Now it's a reminder of all that I've lost, all that he lost and doesn't care about.

But one day I search for a hat to wear and see I have more than just that one,

There's memories attached to the bucket hat, the banana hat and the one from the place I used to work.

Today I choose banana hat and remember my sisters laugh when she saw it. We were just starting out in the world, but we were building it slowly.

I put it own and it reminds me I'm more than others fingerprints.

I am my own, and I will find many more happy sunrises with other people.

It happens slowly, but if you just keep going it ends, I promise.

“FUCK YOU!!” I scream and throw your teddy bear across the room, something falls, something breaks. I don’t care, I love you. I can’t even say I loved you, I probably always will. I just left someone because I’m still too broken over you. My love life is ruined because nobody is going to be you. And I hate it, I hate you for it.

My Hearts Thoughts

I like the night. Without the dark, we’d never see the stars.

Stephenie Meyer (via lifeofquotations)

#nocturnallifestyle

I love you, I think to myself as I look at your picture for the millionth time. You don't know it, do you? Did you ever really understand how much I meant every 'I love you'?? You always said you loved me more but how could you know that if you didn't understand how much I love you? I don't know, sometimes I hope you didn't get how much I love you, cuz then I could make that the reason you took me for granted. Yet, deep inside I wonder if you knew and understood, but just didn’t care...

-my hearts thoughts

When I was 5 years old, my mother always told me that happiness was the key to life. When I went to school, they asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up. I wrote down ‘happy’. They told me I didn’t understand the assignment, and I told them they didn’t understand life.

John Lennon (via lifeofquotations)

I wanna be happy, who else?

HAPPY NEIL BANGING OUT THE TUNES DAY EVERYONE!!!! 🎹🐀🌈🎶

It’s been a while, but I still think of you. I remember the way you held me that last day. I slipped into your arms the way I always had & kissed you with the confidence you gave me, neither one of us knew it was our last kiss. You picked me up & held me tight, super tight against you, I felt as though I could never be separated from you. I still torture myself thinking about how we said goodbye, without knowing it was actually our goodbye. How foolish & wrong was I to think we could make it.

My Hearts Thoughts

We could have been a year today, if you had done your part. Don’t tell me it was both of us. You didn’t make me feel loved. I loved you the way the ocean loves the sand, for it always returns to the sand, despite there being beauty far out where only the ocean can reach.

My Hearts Thoughts

"He was like a fleeting kiss.

Perfect, then gone."

- My Hearts Thoughts

Sometimes I think ‘when was the last time you kissed & felt alive' I always think of you. I haven’t felt alive since we kissed last, & it breaks me so much

My Hearts Thoughts