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˗ˏˋ playlists to study/vibe to ˎˊ˗

dark academia - acoustics n lots of hozier for that classical literature aesthetic 

cowboy music - western-sounding indie music for ppl who don’t like country music lmao

8tracks indie - if you’re one of the OGs who used 8tracks, these are the songs that were in like every single playlist

rainy - lots of oldies! i kinda imagined it as cafe music during the post apocalypse hehe 

soleil - warm-sounding songs!

surf rock - the sort of music that’d be in a summer indie film soundtrack

moomin! - it’s cottagecore, babey!

oranges and honey - lo-fi

she hasn’t met him yet - if you like boy pablo and happy indie this is 4 u

am in such a bad mood i just told my mood tracker notification to fuck off

not so fuCKinG LOUD BITCH

Stephen Hawking is one of my heroes, and I don’t use that word lightly. He and I are both disabled scientists. He’s been my inspiration to work hard to try and get to the point where I can be remembered for my contributions to knowledge and not my disabilities. Sadly, my academic life collapsed around me because of horrific people who decided I didn’t deserve a shot specifically because I’m disabled.

I have trouble with words when it comes to things like this. I found a post on Facebook by someone named Celeste Adams and I wanted to share their words here. I think they sum it all up so nicely. The only part I feel needs clarity is that Hawking was British and got healthcare through the NIH, not insurance. He actually published many articles praising universal health care and arguing its importance.

Anyway, here’s Celeste’s comments:

“In light of the death of Stephen Hawking I, as a disabled person, would like to say a few words regarding this event, disability, and the way non-disabled people are reacting to this news:

Professor Stephen Hawking was an upper class physically disabled white male who was one of the most important and renowned scientists of our time. His work changed the way everyone thought about the world and what is beyond and the legacy he left behind will probably go unmatched. Since his passing last night I’ve seen a lot of headlines regarding his death that have gone something like, “Despite his disability, Stephen Hawking accomplished…” or posts where people have said things such as “If Stephen Hawking was able to do it, then you have no excuse to not try!”. There has even been “artwork” circulating of a drawing of his wheelchair in the foreground and, in the background, imagery of the cosmos with a standing, upright, abled version of Hawking’s silhouette in its midst. Now while the respect for Hawking’s work seems to be universal, the respect the majority of you have for him as a disabled person is nonexistent, and headlines and posts like these prove it. As the late disability rights activist Stella Young talked about in her TED Talk “I’m Not Your Inspiration, Thank You Very Much”, the world has been sold a lie that for disabled people the barrier in our lives, the tragedy of being disabled, is our disabilities themselves, and as a result we get praised and rewarded by non-disabled people simply for existing and waking up each morning. This is what she refers to as “Inspiration Porn”, where disabled people are objectified and used as tools so non-disabled people can think to themselves, “Well, at least I don’t have it that bad,” and, “If that person can do it, then maybe I should try a little harder” and as a result feel better about themselves. But the rhetoric that our lives are tragedies and barriers that we have to overcome really is nothing but a dangerous ableist lie. The only “barriers” we face are the social and economic ones that are created, enforced, and preserved, by non-disabled people like YOU. This includes hate crimes, denying us access to healthcare, putting us into poverty when we actually can access healthcare, denying us our right to education, denying us jobs that we are fully qualified for, *legally* paying us less than the minimum wage when we do get a job, designing environments that are inaccessible so we can’t leave our homes or even find a home to begin with, taking our children away from us, killing us off or sterilizing us when we are children, incarcerating and institutionalizing us, and CHOOSING to not report any of this in the media or teach our histories in schools. There’s so much more than what’s in that list that each and every one of us has to deal with, but one of the most harmful things of all is this lie that WE are the problem. That our IDENTITIES as disabled people is the real barrier we have to face. Not ableism. Not your willful ignorance. Not your hate or your biases or judgements or constant global debates on whether people like me should be allowed to live or die. But it’s always easier to blame the disabled person, right?

So what does this have to do with Hawking? A few things. First of all, recognize what you are doing when you separate Hawking and his work from his disability. He actually said once that he probably wouldn’t have been able to do the work he had done if it *wasn’t* for being disabled. Whether you like it or not, Hawking changed the world and he changed the world while being disabled. Recognize the ableism and the objectification you enforce when you say and post things about all the he accomplished “despite” being disabled. None of his work was done in spite of his disability, it was WITH his disability, and no matter how hard you all try you can’t change that, and you shouldn’t want to. Which brings me to my next point… I started this bit of writing off by describing Hawking as an “upper class physically disabled white male” and I did this very intentionally. Because of his class status Hawking was able to get access to and afford the proper medical treatment he needed. He was able to have in-home care, skilled doctors, and all the technological and assistive devices he needed such as a wheelchair and speech synthesizer. Now if he had been poor or even middle class, not even half of his care would’ve been possible. (For context, the market price of my own personal wheelchair is $50,000. Yes that’s four zeros. And mine is pretty standard. This is why insurance is so important.) Additionally, no matter what you class status is, when you bring intersections such as race and gender identity into the equation, life as a disabled person becomes even more difficult because you have a whole other set of biases and forms of discrimination set up against you. There’s a reason that the only famous disabled person most people can name is Stephen Hawking, and that’s almost entirely because he was a rich white man. Now this isn’t me entirely trying to argue that Hawking is only famous because he could afford to be and didn’t have to deal with any other type of discrimination aside from ableism. He was a true genius and that is undeniable. My point here is rather that look at what happens when disabled people have access to basic resources. Look at what happens when we’re not killed off or sterilized as kids. Look at what happens when we have access to healthcare and we can afford it. Look at what happens when we’re allowed to get an eduction. Look at what happens when we can get a job. Look at what happens when our books are published and people listen to us. Look at what happens when we are supported and valued by society. Look at what happens when we’re given the tools and the opportunities to be able to reach for the god dammed stars and people pay attention. If the disabled community can give you Stephen Hawking, one of the most important people to ever live, who else is out there? What other geniuses and incredible talents can we offer if given the chance? And what if those chances extended beyond disabled white men? What if we made sure that disabled people of color, and women, and queer, and trans, and poor folks could get the same opportunities and care and tools and resources as well? What if instead of shaming disability and intersectionality we embraced and supported it? And all you have to do is accept us. All you have to do is be an ally, educate yourselves on disability history and culture and rights, fight with us, help us, listen to us, and support us. All you have to do is stop blaming us for who we are and start embracing who we are.

So I leave you with this photo of Stephen Hawking taken by Annie Leibovitz. Leibovitz noticed that in many photos of Hawking the photographers had tried to keep as much of his wheelchair out of the photo as possible. Thankfully she recognized the harm in this and the importance of embracing his disability, so here he is, wheelchair and all.

Rest in peace Professor Hawking. May you be the first of many crips we get to celebrate in our lifetimes.”

MENTAL ILLNESS APPS. ONE REBLOG COULD HELP OR EVEN SAVE SOMEONE.

These are all iPhone apps. I have no idea which are available on other phones.

Give some comfort and get some comfort..

comfort spot 

Meditation is so healthy for you. No matter who you are. I can’t sleep unless there’s a guided meditation playing.

GPS4Soul

Headspace

Calm

Relax & Rest

Take a Break

Anxiety Free

Breathe2Relax

Relax Lite

Smiling Mind

The Quiet Place

Noise machines for those nights that you can’t hear anything but your mind..

Sleep Pillow

Relax Melodies

Journaling apps for on the go feelings that won’t leave you alone

Mood Journal

GratitudeDiary

TherapyBuddy

Everyday

PTSD patients

Reach Out

PTSD Coach

Mood Trackers that actually work and don’t suck like most

Optimism

Rise Up

For when you’re so anxious you can’t make eye contact with anyone. (trust me I get it.)

MindShift

Thisissand

When suicidal thoughts are strong, but you can’t seem to tell anyone for find any help.

ReliefLink

Hello Cruel World

Ask

Positive affirmations/reminders you’re amazing

Daily Recovery

Inspirations

Today’s Step

Affirmations

Flatter Me!

I hope this helps at least one person.. I know it sure as hell helps me. I’m sorry you’re struggling. I love you.

you are worth the fight.

you are worth the time.

you are worth hard conversations and tears after therapy sessions and late night realizations -

you are worth all of it.

you deserve happiness, and healing, and recovery, whatever that looks like for you.

⚠️DISCLAIMER - This comic is dedicated to my fellow Indians ⚠️ It's inspiring to see the fight against racism happening in the US right now. Hopefully we can be inspired by it and look into the deep problems of discrimination we have in our society.

All views expressed in this comic is my opinion. Peace ✌️🕊️

Even if you can't see it yet, you add something important to this world. Every time you smile at someone, you make a difference. Every time you create something, whether it's fanfic or vent art, you make a difference. Every time you listen to someone, you make a difference. Every time you make someone laugh, you make a difference. Every time you do someone a favor, you make a difference. Every time you help someone out, you make a difference. Every time you speak up, you make a difference. Every time you express yourself and let others express themselves, you make a difference. Every time you take care of your pet or your loved ones, you make a difference. It may just be little things - but little things add up in the long run and it's good that you're here!

Keep your eyes open. This fight isn't over. We will get real peace.

Ok so this post is extremely long and I put it all together for my blogs Feeling sad page but as I don’t have a huge amount of followers I realize so many people are not seeing this information so I’m posting it here too!

alternatives without harming yourself:

holding/squeezing ice.

splashing your face with water.

getting a rubber band and snapping it against your skin (this could hurt, though it’s better than other ways that people usually choose to self-harm).

take a hot shower or bath.

eat something sour. it will take your mind of the urge. (lemon, sour lollies)

massage where you want to self-harm.

get a red pen or red paint and draw/paint over where you usually self-harm.

remind yourself as to why you shouldn’t do it. (scars, harms organs, leave memories etc…)

describe what you are feeling. (is the urge/pain in your chest, fists, legs, arms, head).

killing yourself will not help. it is not a solution.

you have your whole life ahead of you. you have so many more years that you can accomplish things in. for example;

having a family.

getting married.

to watch the sun rise.

to watch the sun set.

to save someone else’s life.

finish school.

get your dream job.

to laugh.

to smile.

to go camping.

travel to new places.

to wake up every morning to the person you love.

friends.

family.

to keep that promise you made.

to accomplish a goal.

to meet your idol.

to listen to new music.

theme parks.

video games.

chocolate.

to be able to look back and say “i made it”.

what you’re going through is temporary.

in case you need to hear this:

you are loved.

you are wanted.

you are needed.

you are beautiful.

you are handsome.

you are important.

you are not alone.

you are okay.

you are strong.

you are worth it.

you are smart.

you are not a failure.

you are useful.

you are going to be okay.

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abuse

coping

caring for yourself

domestic abuse

chat rooms

survivors chat

fort refuge

pandy’s

add/adhd

coping

coping tips for attention deficit disorder

12 best tips for coping with adhd

50 tips on the management of adult attention deficit

medication

adhd medication chart: compare drugs for add and adhd

drugs used to treat adhd/add

add/adhd medications: are adhd drugs right for you

adhd medication side effects, drug types, precautions

addiction

coping and recovery

tools of recovery: addiction coping skills

5 ways to deal with urges and cravings

after rehab: 5 ways for addicts to cope

addiction recovery

coping with urges

dealing with cravings

anger

coping

strategies to keep anger at bay

anger management: 10 tips to tame your temper

anger management: tips and techniques

feeling angry

controlling anger — before it controls you

dealing with anger

how to cope with anger

anger management: what works and what doesn’t

ten commandments of anger regulation

anxiety

coping

a list of stress relievers

identifying and managing anxiety

11 assorted anxiety tips for anxiety sufferers

how to work through feelings of isolation

tips and tricks for dealing with anxiety

anti-stress breathing tips

how to stay under control with severe social anxiety

coping with social anxiety

managing stress

how to help a friend with anxiety

help guide (therapy)

half of us

job interviews and social anxiety

dealing with anxiety

coping with test anxiety

tips for flying anxiety

grounding techniques

more grounding techniques

even more grounding techniques

mindfulness

belly breathing

living with anxiety

social anxiety disorder self help tips.

coping with flashbacks

what anxious racing thoughts are like for me

using a thought diary

panic attacks

how to handle panic attacks

exploring and coping with panic attacks

10 rules for coping with anxiety and panic

tips to cope with panic attacks

rules for coping with anxiety and panic

understanding and coping with panic attacks

understanding and helping panic attacks and panic disorders

help guide (panic attacks & panic disorder)

coping with panic attacks workbook

rules for coping with panic

panic attack workbook 2

medication

help guide (anxiety medicine)

common medications for anxiety disorders

guidelines for medication use

bipolar disorder

coping

bipolar disorder and self-help

living with bipolar disorder

how to deal with bipolar disorder without medication

10 ways to cope with bipolar disorder

coping skills

help guide (self help)

bipolar support tumblr

medication

help guide (bipolar disorder medication guide)

help guide (treatment)

chat rooms

healthfulchat

bipolar world

healing well

depression

coping

how to cope with depression

how to cope with depression 1

natural depression treatments

ways to deal with depression/stress

tips to help overcome loneliness

10 tips on how to work through feelings of social isolation

8 tips to overcome loneliness

ways to deal with depression/stress

having a bad day?

make a comfort box

10 things to do when you feel like crap

how to find a new normal in the middle of depression

you are not alone in the way you think you are

reasons to stay alive

how to stop trying to think yourself into happiness and actually arrive there

cheer me up

help guide (dealing with depression)

help guide (helping someone with depression)

medication

what to expect with antidepressants

finding the right anti-depressant

chat room

healthfulchat

healing well

eating disorders

recovery

281 reasons to recover

eating disorders and emotional eating test

relapse prevention

bloating, indigestion, & feeling too full

why you must eat

learning to love your body

tips to stop restricting

dealing with weight gain

10 steps to bulimia recovery workbook

coping with exercise addiction

tips to help with bulimia recovery

help guide (emotional eating)

help guide (binge eating)

help guide (bulimia)

help guide (helping someone with an eating disorder)

help guide (treatment and recovery)

stop hating your body

body positive zone

self care 101

self esteem

30 day self esteem challenge

developing positive self esteem

learning-to-love-yourself

something fishy

ways of coping with eating disordered behaviors

the addiction help center

friends with illness

how to deal/talk with bipolar and depressed people

what to do when your friend is talking about suicide

what to do if someone you know is overdosing

what to do if your friend is hurting themselves

how to help someone who is suicidal

here’s what you tell someone who wants to commit suicide

tips for looking after someone with depression

friends with metal illness?

what to do when someone is suicidal

help guide (helping someone with depression)

grief and loss

help guide (coping with a breakup or divorce)

help guide (coping with grief & loss)

help guide (coping with pet loss)

help guide (supporting a grieving person)

help guide (the five stages of grief)

ocd

coping and treatment

natural treatment options

treatments for obsessive-compulsive disorder (ocd)

additional treatment options for ocd

residential treatment for ocd

medications for obsessive-compulsive disorder (ocd)

a new relationship to your obsessions

how to find help for ocd

ocd: exposure therapy versus medication

cognitive therapy for ocd

chat rooms

healthfulchat

ocd-uk

perfectionism

coping

how to overcome perfectionism

learn to manage perfectionism

how to overcome perfectionism & procrastination

perfectionism - stress management

10 steps to conquer perfectionism

perfectionists coping with failure

ptsd

coping

coping with flashbacks

self help strategies for ptsd

coping with traumatic stress reactions

post-traumatic stress - self-help guide

understanding and coping with ptsd

coping with ptsd

schizophrenia

coping

living with schizophrenia

coping with schizophrenia

schizophrenia coping and recovery

schizophrenia: coping with delusions and hallucinations

paranoid schizophrenia coping and support

treatment

an introduction to the treatment of schizophrenia

treatment of schizophrenia

drugs to treat schizophrenia

common drugs and medications to treat schizophrenia

treating schizophrenia successfully

self-harm

cut something that’s not real skin

half of us

help guide

recover your life

self-injury outreach & support

how to care for cuts

resisting cutting

25 ways to avoid self injury and prevent self harm

tips to help stop cutting

99 coping skills: things to do instead of cutting

what to do when someone sees

how to fade/cover scars

alternatives for cutting 1

alternatives for cutting 2

alternatives for cutting 3

alternatives for cutting 4

alternatives for cutting 5

self-love

how to stop putting yourself down

self confidence

how to improve your self-esteem

how to be ok with yourself

tips on self-love

confidence

learn to love yourself

when told you are not pretty

emergency compliment

lessons for self-love

suicide

coping with suicidal thought

what to do when someone is suicidal

how to help someone who is suicidal

here’s what you tell someone who wants to commit suicide

help guide (suicide prevention)

help guide (dealing with suicidal thoughts & feelings)

therapy

how to get free therapy

getting a therapist - a brief step-by-step

psychiatrist, psychologist, therapist or counsellor?

50 signs of good therapy

50 warning signs of questionable therapy

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the quiet place

things to do when you feel bad

when you’re not having a good day

reminders

self care suggestions

take a break

the thoughts room

90 second relaxation

the dawn room

the comfort spot

control a rainstorm

calm

how to make changes in your life

imalive

crisischat

7 cups of tea

kids help phone

positive love network

trans lifeline: 877-565-8860

depression hotline: 1-630-482-9696

suicide hotline: 1-800-784-8433

lifeline: 1-800-273-8255

trevor project: 1-866-488-7386

sexuality support: 1-800-246-7743

eating disorders hotline: 1-847-831-3438

rape and sexual assault: 1-800-656-4673

grief support: 1-650-321-5272

runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000

exhale: after abortion hotline/pro-voice: 1-866-439-4253

nervous

When you begin to reduce your Antidepressant (according to your Psychiatrist instructions of course.)

-Rediscover creativity

-Sleep ? what is that.

-Discover a new kind of H.O.R.N.Y

-Feeling good because therapy worked <3

20 things I learned at 20

1. You can have only one best friend and that best friend can only be you. Because you may come across a dozen lovely people but the only one who can keep the ‘forever’ promise is you. 2. Family is the most important. This is the only love that is truly unconditional and absolutely pure. They love you when you’re 5 and when you’re 18. They love you in your failure and your success. Their love doesn’t increase because it’s already at its maximum right from the beginning, it’s already infinite. 3. Cocktails and aerated drinks may soothe your taste buds but tea soothes your entire body. It’s warm and calming and well, healthy. 4. Your first kiss means nothing if it’s not with the right person. And the right person doesn’t mean your soulmate or someone who will never break your heart but someone who in that moment loves you as much as you love them. 5. You’ve written over 350 exams and you’ve got a perfect score in some and scored miserably in others but do you remember your 9th grade math score? Do you even remember 9th grade math? Education is so important but not the stress and competitive grading that comes along with it. If you get a low score or even fail, not much will happen – you will get a retest. But if you get ill – mentally or physically, it will have undesired long term effects.

6. In 8th grade your school psychologist told you that you’re one of the few people who walk in life with open arms loving and helping everyone, not because you haven’t bled but because you know you will heal and have the strength to do so. At that point you laughed at her but now, years later you’re loving, accepting and helping in spite of having both, actual and metaphorical scars. You’re kind and admitting that doesn’t make you conceited. 7. Goodbyes don’t always have to be dramatic. Writing an 800 words message won’t make it hurt any less than an 8 words one. Closure usually has not much to do with the ones who wronged you but with taking your time in dealing with all the stages of grief. Some stage like anger may take only a month but acceptance may take years and that’s okay. 8. Jealousy is a basic human trait. They can be the closest to you and yet envy your happiness and life. Envy is something you too experience and you can be happy for them and be sad for yourself at the same time because so bitter it is to view happiness from someone else’s eyes. You aren’t a horrible human being if you feel like there are better shades of green your grass could be. 9. Read at your own desire and pace. You don’t have to read particular books to qualify as a bibliophile or read a specific number of books to be a bookworm either. Read what truly interests you and take your time because reading was never a task, don’t make it one now. 10. Money is important. Money can’t buy love but it can buy happiness. But not blood money. Money honestly earned through hard work. That kind of money is good, that kind of money is required. You have a certain standard of living and if you want to maintain that after your parents stop financing you, you must make sure to earn the same. It doesn’t make you a snob or a spoiled brat, it only makes you a human aware of your wants, many of which have turned into needs by now. 11. There are somethings you just never grow out of like bubbles and glitter and your mother’s hot chocolate and hugs. Those are the kind of things that make life bearable when adulting gets too hard. Those are the little things that matter the most. 12. You cry. A lot. But you don’t cry in front of people for their pity. You don’t cry to manipulate situations. You cry because you accept the pain. You cry because you don’t reject or lock away your emotions. You cry because your mental, emotional and physical self are in sync and that’s healthy. That’s so lovely. 13. Bake cakes. They don’t have to look pretty as long as they taste delicious. Paint canvases. They don’t have to be a master piece as long as all the paint in your hands and face and jeans makes you feel complete. Write more. It doesn’t have to a novel or even be posted online as long as it lets you breathe a little lighter and smile wider. 14. Go for walks alone, sit on the beach without your headphones, look up at the sky without a lover, buy flowers for yourself. Nature is legit free (for the most part). And it’s the richest thing that the world has. Le it bring you peace, let it help you survive. 15. Make home feel home. Sometimes you won’t have your family to make it home. Sometimes you will have to make it home by putting a part of yourself and that means investing the time, energy and money in making it feel yours, in making it feel right. It may not be your ‘dream house’, it may just be a tiny room but it’s yours. Your surroundings play a major role in affecting your mood and vibe. 16. Energy is real. You may not know much about Science beyond 10th grade but you do know this, e=mc ²  which means everything is energy, you are energy and there is positive and negative energy and you can feel it and you experience it in every person you meet, every place you visit, every room you step inside. You can and you must choose to surround yourself with positive energy. What you attract, you do get; what you attract you become. 17. Spend time with yourself. It’s some of the best time you will have. You need to unwind, you need it to re-energize, you need it to focus and you need it for peace. You can go to a cafe by yourself, write, read, meditate, talk to yourself out loud, dance in your underwear, cook and just be. 18.  Take care of yourself- no one else can, no one else will. Drink loads of water, there’s a reason why more than half your body is made up of water. Sleep well because staying up all night isn’t something to be proud of, it’s stupid. Don’t skip breakfast because skipping breakfast makes you crave fatty foods for the rest of the day. Stay healthy not because you want to look a certain way but because you want to feel strong and energetic and have an active mind, body and heart. Staying healthy emotionally and mentally is just as important. So let those who want to go, go and never say yes to something your gut wants to scream ‘NO’ to.

19. Love yourself. If you don’t love yourself you will look for other people to love you. If you don’t accept yourself, you will keep seeking other people’s validation and the moment they withdraw it or walk away, you will crumble. And you don’t want to crumble. You want to enjoy the one person’s company you have to live with forever – yourself. Work on being a person you’d love to spend your life with because let’s face it, you don’t have a choice. It’s a long term investment and the only one that will never fail you. 20. In Shakespeare’s words, “To thine own self be true”. In order to love yourself, knowing yourself is very important.  And knowing yourself doesn’t mean the adjectives that people use for you or what your zodiac sign says about you. It means what you know in your heart to be your truth. One more for good luck? 21. You laughed and thought it was very witty when you came across the quote, ‘Don’t take life too seriously. Nobody gets out alive anyway.’ but god. Can it be any truer? Most things you’re stressing over now won’t even matter 3 years from now. But good days will turn into heart-warming memories that will stay with you even 2 decades later. Happiness and success are two different things but remember, they aren’t mutually exclusive. At least they don’t have to be.

How to Tell Someone That You’re Suicidal

Everyone gives the same advice: talk to someone. Tell them how you’re feeling. But no one ever tells you how to start that conversation with someone - and it’ll probably be one of the hardest conversations you’ll ever start. But it’s worth it. For starters, it doesn’t matter how you choose to tell someone. In person is fine. Text is fine. Facebook messenger, email, Twitter DM, Facetime, Skype - they’re all fine. There’s no rules of social etiquette here. It doesn’t matter how you tell someone. It matters that you tell them. Secondly, be direct. Saying the words “I am suicidal” is difficult, but they have to be said. Dropping hints won’t always get people to clue in. Most people don’t want to assume that their loved ones are suicidal, or people might be too shy to ask if you want to die. If you can’t bring yourself to say anything else, just say that - I am suicidal. Help me.  If you are struggling to find the words to tell your loved ones what is going on, here are some templates you can use to get started. Feel free to copy them exactly.  Hi. I really don’t want to freak you out, but I’ve got something important to tell you. I have been feeling suicidal lately, and I can’t handle this by myself. I need your help.  I just want to warn you, I have something really upsetting that I need to tell you, and I really need you to stay calm. I’ve been thinking about killing myself, and I don’t know what to do. I need you to help me.  I have a huge favor to ask you, but I have to warn you, it might upset you a little bit. I am suicidal, and I can’t work up the courage to tell my parents. Would you be able to talk to them for me? You might have noticed that I’ve been acting different lately, and I need to tell you what’s going on. I am depressed, and it’s gotten so bad lately that I’ve been thinking about suicide. I know that I need to get help, but I don’t know how. You are the person I trust the most, and I really need your help here.  I know you’ve been worried about me lately, and there’s something I want to confess to you. I’ve been thinking about killing myself lately by [method of suicide]. I really need you to come over and take away [means of suicide]. 

I want you to know that I love you, and what I’m about to tell you is not your fault. I don’t want to live anymore, and I need some help right now to keep me safe.  You might not know this, but I’ve been struggling with depression, and to be honest, I’ve started thinking about suicide. I really need someone to talk to about it. You don’t have to give me advice, I just need someone to listen to me right now.  I’m sorry, but I think I’m in real danger of hurting myself. I am at [address] right now, and I need you to come over here, or phone 911 and tell them to come get me.  If you are feeling suicidal, you need to tell someone. There are people in your life who love you, and they probably don’t realize how much pain you’re in. You just have to tell them that you need help. You don’t even have to type the words - just copy and paste one of those passages to someone you trust, and hit ‘enter’. It’s that easy. You deserve help.  You deserve to live.  Life gets better. It does. Give yourself a chance to see that. 

things to do instead of self-harming

wax your legs and/or armpits

paint your nails

draw where you want to hurt yourself

put moisturizer all over your body

ask someone to distract you

put makeup on 

pluck your eyebrows

run until you’re extremely out of breath

take a very hot or cold shower

go for a bike ride

hold ice 

break something

listen to some really loud music

things to pay attention to

cinematography

how people dress

the different colors around you

if people look you in the eyes when they talk to you

how someone’s room looks and what’s in it

all the different plants

the air

energy/vibe when you enter a room

nails and cuticles

pins, patches, stickers and other accessories people decorate their items with

lighting

Tired fennec foxes

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Awkward Sibling Hug

“Look, I’ve been thinking about it. I won’t be gone forever, okay? I’ll still visit you at home, and we’ll chat online. We’ll make it work.”

“I don’t want it to work… I just wish summer could last forever.”

“But it can’t, Mabel. Look, things aren’t gonna stay frozen this way. It’s part of growing up. Things change. Summer ends.”

Awkward Sibling Hug

“Look, I’ve been thinking about it. I won’t be gone forever, okay? I’ll still visit you at home, and we’ll chat online. We’ll make it work.”

“I don’t want it to work… I just wish summer could last forever.”

“But it can’t, Mabel. Look, things aren’t gonna stay frozen this way. It’s part of growing up. Things change. Summer ends.”

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- Ghost by Sir Sly

“And then you haunted me … You’re a ghost.”

- Heavy Metal Detox by Wavves

“I believe /  We’re not alone.”

- Two Coffins by Against Me!

“How lucky I ever was to see / The way that you smiled at me / Your little moon shining bright at me.”

- Cold Cold Cold by Cage the Elephant

“Well, it’s cold, cold, cold, cold inside / Darker in the day than the dead of night.”

- The Moss by Cosmo Sheldrake

“But have you heard the story of the rabbits in the moon?”

- The Ghosts of Beverly Drive by Death Cab for Cutie

“I don’t know why, I don’t know why I return to the scenes of these crimes.”

- Oh Devil by Electric Guest

“Oh Devil, I know you’re afraid.”

- Walking With a Ghost by Tegan and Sara

“You’re out of my mind, out of my mind.”

- Guillotine by Jon Bellion

“And if you have nightmares, we’ll dance on the bed.”

- Black Magic by Jaymes Young

“I let you in my brain / I used to doubt, now I believe.”

- Spirits by Strumbellas

“Got spirits in my head, and they won’t go.”

- Bloody Shirt by To Kill A King

“Oh, you lie next to me / Heart is beating heavily.”

- Tradition by The Belle Game

“Pull him through the dirty cold / He was made of your brittle bone.”

- Lights Out by Royal Blood

“My eyes are still burning red / So turn the lights out.”

- Love Like Ghosts by Lord Huron

“Yes, I know that love is like ghosts / Few have seen it, but everybody talks.”

- Abandoned Mansion by Dr. Dog

“You did it to yourself, but you did it to me, too.”

- Meet Me in the Woods by Lord Huron

“I’ve fucked with the forces that our eyes can’t see / Now the darkness got a hold on me.”

-  Witches by Sir Sly

“Hunting for the witches / And I think I found one.”

“I’ll be a dreamer ‘til the day I die”

— Spirits- The strumbellas

study playlist

calming musicians to listen to while studying:

- cavetown

-troye sivan 

- the 1975

- the neighborhood 

- declan McKenna 

- arctic monkeys

 - lorde 

bedroom cool: relax & kick back

Milk - Samia

Call - WENS

HEAVEN - Troye Sivan ft. Betty Who

Ghost of Mine - Kailee Morgue

Chasers - Bahari

Party - Audrey

Feels - Anna Of The North

Rebels - Royal Cinema

Sick of Losing Soulmates - dodie

Cherry Lambo (Stripped) - Evalyn

Idle Town - Conan Gray

please don’t - mxmtoon

Spacing Out - beabadoobee

2 Hold U - Clairo

Locket - Crumb

Just Add Water - Cavetown

Make My Bed - King Princess

Would You Be So Kind - Dodie

Faking Bright - Saski

If - WENS

say anything - girl in red

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