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Opinions wanted Hi everyone, I know it’s late to be discussing this but I’d really like some opinions. I was having a “disagreement” with another Grey’s fan about what Jackson’s silence meant during Japril The Movie, when they were signing the divorce papers, after April asked him whether he really wanted it. From my perspective, he didn’t answer because he couldn’t. There was no right or simple and truthful answer for him. I feel like the truth is that he was torn between WANTING to say he didn’t want the divorce because he still really loved her. While on the other hand NEEDING to say yes and proceed with it because he couldn’t accept and let go of her abandonment of him when he needed her most. He’s said in the past (to Lexie, I know, but it still applies as his lean towards self preservation at the cost of a relationship) that he had to walk away from her for him. When he spoke about the divorce to April, he said that he knew what he had to do, no matter how hard, that it was “best for him” moving forward and that his mind was made up. And at the same time acknowledging that when he just stopped thinking and let himself be with her, he wanted her. Those are obvious indications that he had strong conflicting feelings between his head and his heart… what was rational/“necessary” and what was emotional/desired. I can see sensing some spite or defiance in his facial expression but I think that’s only because he was still so hurt by the situation. Some people believe that his silence meant that he was sure he wanted a divorce and that his facial expression was saying “really?!?? Of course I want this” But that doesn’t make sense to me after all of his previous actions that he would be 100% certain that he wanted this. It was also suggested that he didn’t say anything because he was prideful and didn’t want to say anything in front of the lawyers. This idea is not in line with his character. It’s true that he has a hard time communicating his feelings but when pushed, he does it. He stood up at April’s wedding in front of all their coworkers and friends, risked his pride and dignity to express his love for her. This is not a man who would go through with a divorce simply out of fear of speaking up. Sorry for the long rant and overanalyzing. I feel very strongly that his silence and facial reaction were complex and profound. It was the climax of all of the intense and painful things they went through and that can’t be dumbed down and simply explained. Am I alone in seeing his reaction in this way? What do you guys think his silence meant?

And I’m done with grey’s. Series finale was 13x16. Bey. I’m not watching this shit ever again. Ever.

Did anyone else try to imagine that the flirty scene between Minnick and Arizona in the elevator last night was instead Jackson and April? 👇 this Japril: Come back to us! Please?

“The easiest lies to tell are the ones you want to be true.”

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Holly Black

PP 5x22 // GA 11x09  [insp.]

Just want to put this out here before they kill April off - Jackson Avery will not love another woman they way he loved(s) April Kepner. She is, and always will be, the mother of his children, his best friend, his soulmate, his favourite person. She is his great love. And no matter what the writers try to say, no one will ever be able to change that.

GIVEAWAY TIME!

Original art by the wonderful @steorie. You can find it here!

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You think Lip sometimes looks at Ian and Mickey and just smiles a little to himself because who would’ve seen that coming?

Like, Lip’s always been good with odds and numbers and back in the day, back when they started out a fucking lifetime ago, absolutely nobody would have bet on those two making it in the end.

He had been around back then, on the side lines catching glimpses from time to time. From ‘Mickey’s gay and we’re doing it’ and ‘i know what he felt with me’ to 'you think i should’ve?’ and 'because i love him’.

And Lip hesitates in the doorway when he enters the living room for a moment and watches them lie on the couch in front of the TV, wrapped up in each other’s arms, sleepy and content, for once neither bickering nor on the verge of fucking and he thinks that he’s never seen Ian so happy and being himself this much at the same time before.

And maybe he shakes his head when he looks at the man in his brother’s arms because holy fucking shit that’s Mickey Milkovich right there.

That’s 'someone’s gotta get a beat down’, it’s 'oh shit is right’, it’s anger issues and russian prostitutes and attempted murder and escaping prison to fucking mexico.

But it’s also the guy who pours Ian his coffee in the morning and makes sure he doesn’t drink it before he’s had something to eat, who used to count his fucking pills, who once bought a bag full of B vitamins as if they could fix it all somehow.

It’s who Ian lost sleep over, it’s who he made his best bad decisions for.

It’s Franny’s Uncle Mickey, it’s Mandy’s older brother and holy shit, it’s Ian’s fucking husband.

And isn’t that so beautifully Ian, that he saw something in that dirty faced thug from ten years ago that no one else ever bothered to look for? that he found a love that proved itself to be stronger than whatever life or fate or Terry fucking Milkovich threw at them, that pulled them back to each other every time they fell apart?

Mickey has been a constant presence in Ian’s life in a way that nothing else but Lip himself ever had. Has been a witness, a catalyst, a victim of Ian’s epic highs and lows, has done insane things to and for and because of him. As fucked up as they always were, they seem to hold the balance, they somehow make it work.

Lip loves his brother with all his heart, has done so his entire life, he knows all the best and a lot of the worst of Ian and he knows that Mickey knows it too. Loves him, too. Signed up for it all, the whole package, good times and bad, sickness and health, Monica and Gay Jesus, mania and depression. Had probably signed up for it long before they stood in front of witnesses at the Polish Doll.

So Lip smiles sometimes when they bicker over breakfast cereal or when Ian can’t keep his hands to himself even when the rest of them is right there or when Mickey talks shit like he’s still big bad Milkovich, south side thug extraordinaire and not the boy who has been in love with Lip’s little brother for the last decade.

Because it’s nice to see they made it. Because if anyone deserves a happy ending and a gentle future, it’s them.

happy valentine’s day guys, and congrats on 15 million!!

for @egocentrifuge, with all my love ♥️