Leviiii How I Love Youuuuu

ugh i had to record a video of me giving an introductory speech, and holy shit my teeth are so fucking yellow lmao

like we're talking alastor levels of yellow

it also doesn't help that i'm feeling super dysphoric from having to actually talk on camera and show my face, without being on testosterone yet.

i hate everything

decided to do smth a little diff

hi hi i really enjoyed your oneshot "Amber Waves," and it's inspired me to write my own stan x reader fic :)

if it's alright, i'd like to credit you for the idea (if i ever end up publishing it lol)

This literally warms my heart to bits. Of course you can! 💜

rb to explode a terf ^_^ nonrefundable ^_^

the. what.

Hey has tumblr heard about the Chase “Infinite Money glitch” debacle from tiktok yet because

morning with Chris 🌤

i'm genuinely considering switching to linux

i'm still using windows 10 rn, and i don't think i can upgrade to 11 because i need to enable tpm 2.0. i don't even fucking know what that is lol

on a more serious note, i genuinely want to learn everything that i can about linux, and computers in general before i ditch windows 10 (whether it'll be for linux or windows 11, only time will tell)

I really don't want that goddamn spyware that windows 11 has, and ik you have to go thru powershell to disable it. i'm good enough with computer stuff for that yet.

my dad works in IT, and he could probably do all of the important stuff, buuuuuuuuuut i don't want him touching my pc because i've got stuff on here that would make my parents very disappointed in me (just nsfw drawings that i keep on here as a backup in case my ipad dies)

even if i somehow have to lose everything on this pc when i switch, it doesn't bother me too bad, since all that i have that's worth saving is some pictures i took with my canon, and didn't save anywhere else, and those can easily be saved to a thumb drive. I've got some shows n stuff that i need to save to an external device anyways lol

most of what i do is online, and can be accessed through various accounts. i have some indie games that i've downloaded, but those can probably be transferred to thumb drive as well, since they're not very big. as much as i love video games, i don't play very many on my pc.

anyways there's my long-ass ramble about pc stuff that i don't know jack shit about lmao

Tw: mentions of suicidal thoughts

Last night I called a suicide hotline for the first time. I haven't been this suicidal in almost 3 years, but everything is starting to get to me. I'm in my 5th semester of college (i'm only in my second official year, because i dual-enrolled two semesters my senior year of high school), and it's supposed to get easier with each semester, but it isn't.

I only have 4 classes instead of 5, but it's still too much, and I'm still getting overwhelmed. The amount of time that I have in-between semesters isn't enough, I'm still too exhausted and worn out.

AND I STILL HAVE 2 MORE YEARS LEFT (4 if i go through with my master's)

When I transfer to a 4-year college to finish my degree, I know it's going to be even harder.

While I haven't been able to get an official diagnosis, I'm pretty sure I have ADHD. And it's destroying me. I can't focus for shit, and procrastination seems to be the only word in my vocabulary.

I need medication, and unfortunately for me, my mom is against it.

I'm an adult, but everything is through my mom's insurance, plus she has full access to my medical records and would be able to see if I was prescribed anything.

Besides, I don't even have a way to get it. I still don't have my driver's license.

I don't know what to do anymore.

noo now im ugly crying

*ugly crying*