AO3 Has Been Scraped, Once Again.

my notes app is a wonderful place with lots of little forgotten treasures for me to find later and appreciate my poetic brilliance 😌

Tw: mentions of suicidal thoughts

Last night I called a suicide hotline for the first time. I haven't been this suicidal in almost 3 years, but everything is starting to get to me. I'm in my 5th semester of college (i'm only in my second official year, because i dual-enrolled two semesters my senior year of high school), and it's supposed to get easier with each semester, but it isn't.

I only have 4 classes instead of 5, but it's still too much, and I'm still getting overwhelmed. The amount of time that I have in-between semesters isn't enough, I'm still too exhausted and worn out.

AND I STILL HAVE 2 MORE YEARS LEFT (4 if i go through with my master's)

When I transfer to a 4-year college to finish my degree, I know it's going to be even harder.

While I haven't been able to get an official diagnosis, I'm pretty sure I have ADHD. And it's destroying me. I can't focus for shit, and procrastination seems to be the only word in my vocabulary.

I need medication, and unfortunately for me, my mom is against it.

I'm an adult, but everything is through my mom's insurance, plus she has full access to my medical records and would be able to see if I was prescribed anything.

Besides, I don't even have a way to get it. I still don't have my driver's license.

I don't know what to do anymore.

ok wait, reblog if you’ve cried at least once because of math, doesn’t matter which grade i’m trying to prove something 

Hello dear friends! ❤🤍🖤💚

🍉I am Mahmoud Ayyad, a Palestinian from the besieged and destroyed Gaza 😭😭, coming from an extended family of young children, women and elderly people ❤❤ who have been suffering😭😭 for 300 difficult days from an aggressive war.

Our lives are harsh because we lack all the basic necessities of life. Everything has become scarce and unattainable. There is no food, no water, no medicine.

So, I ask you to help me keep my family safe and alive, especially after we had lost all our sources of livelihood.Please do not leave my family to struggle and suffer these difficult days alone. You can support my campaign by donating whatever you can or by sharing my posts to reach others who can help us survive the war to safety and peace. You are helping the lives of many people with your small contribution. Every donation makes a difference in our very difficult lives. But this is a legitimate campaign and has been checked by 90-ghost.

https://gofund.me/31c5cbe3

https://gofund.me/31c5cbe3

I may not be able to currently donate myself, but I need to do something to bring awareness. For anyone who sees this, please share and/or donate.

I genuinely want to drop out of college so bad

I hate feeling stuck in classes that I don't like, pursuing a career field THAT I DIDNT EVEN FUCKING CHOOSE

I want to become an artist

I don't want to keep doing this

"How do you write such realistic dialogue-" I TALK TO MYSELF. I TALK TO MYSELF AND I PRETEND I AM THE ONE SAYING THE LINE. LIKE SANITY IS SLOWLY SLIPPING FROM BETWEEN MY FINGERS WITH EVERY MEASLY WORD THEY TYPE OUT. THAT IS HOW.

seeing all the shit happening in my country is making me consider changing my name to luigi

here is a handful of palestinian family fundraisers id like to boost. (these are all verified fundraisers & ones i have supported in the past.)

Low on Funds:

Mohammed Family - Farhat Family - Yasin Family Albaz Family - Ayyad Family - Hussein Family - Tashmali Family - Abumousa Family - Mekawi Family - Dawoud Family - Almoghrabi family - Yousef family

Halfway to Goal:

Al-Deeb Family - Balousha Family - Mahmoud Family - Alanqar Family

Close to Goal:

Ayyad Family - Aldeeb Family - Saftawi Family - Shahwan Family - Shaqqoura Family - Ahel Family - Alhajjar Family - Shehab family - Al-Sharif Family - Ahmed Family - Jamous Family - Al-Talouli Family - Maliha Family

ughh this is so beautiful i gotta draw it laterr

Thierry Mugler Fall/Wint 1989