That Just Some Great Colorwork And Detail And Texture

Call me a whiny ass bitch button god do I have to force myself to read bsd.

I enjoy people analyzing these characters!! I think there is a lot of moments with Characters and their Relationship that are can be so interesting!! And Fun!!

Then I go to read it and it's Another fake death, another kind of Deus Ex Machina moment of "They, This random thing? Yeah, it happened and it saved everyone when you thought there was no hope!"

It feels like the rug is pulled from under me, you know? There is no tension for me, although it feels like there should be? I know the characters will get out and I'm not interested How because I know that whatever Idea I have will be like "Haha! Lied to again! This thing that you expected to happen? Nope! This COMPLETELY DIFFERENT THING HAPPENS"

And there is a little bit of that casino mindset of "well I already put so many hours and emotions in, how can I not finish?"

I want to know but I hate the suffering

I want something to tell me, with profound awe, the meaning of it all

There are things that are frustrating make me angry

But Nothing will be more Infuriating than a "therapist" saying "You'll understand when you're older" at my like 16-17 year old ass when I said I do not believe in any higher power, in any "cosmic importance".

ITS BEEN LIKE 4 YEARS MY DUDE

STILL DON'T

YOU DID NOTHING BUT SEED CONTEMPT INTO ME

2025 HAPPY BIRTHDAY 4/1

One of my favorite moments in all of exu, goddamn.

I still don't know how they got away with it

mother

Just a simple lil drawing :D

Not me excitedly waiting for my email to blow up from kudoes——

Not me re-reading comments on my fics just to feel joy—

me: I write for myself, not validation

also me after posting a fic *refreshes ao3 every five minutes*

(two things can be true)

Yes, there are favorite OCs, the momentary ones that just Strangle your brainwaves for several months at a time.

Then, I feel like, there is my Blorbo. My Idiot who gets all the character development (and traumatic storyline). They are the ones in my Midnight thoughts. Blorbo stays FOR YEARS AND YEARS.

If my artist friend wants to draw me something for my birthday? Blorbo is The Safest Choice. I will take Blorbo every day.

Favorite OCs are temporary. Blorbo Stays.

I have deep love for the cat.

Hi ☺️👋