For Me It's Kind Of Weird To See Like, Books, Physical Books, Like 100k Word Books, Engage With Fanfiction

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One of my favorite moments in all of exu, goddamn.

I still don't know how they got away with it

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I watched Kaiju №8, the anime.

And what endeared me to it, truly, was the genuine and wholesome heroism of Kafka.

I remember the scene in the last episode, as Kafka wakes up after getting his ass pummeled, viscerally destroying his own body.

He looks at the man that Hurt him, the father of a person he admires.

Kikoru's dad's first reaction is to say "Don't be scared, I'm not here to kill you." Logical. Cause that was that the Motive looked liked.

Kafka's first reaction is, WITH RELIEF, "I'm glad you aren't hurt or else I wouldn't be able to look Kikoru in the eye."

There is a couple more things that endeared me to this story, even though it is so similar to many others told (Almost cried in the first fucking episode over the friendship). But I feel like that one just made it solid.

Now that I've basically came to the same point at which the anime stopped

I think the anime gave a little more for the characters, like:

Haruichi having Dad Problems (and Subequently calling him to see if he could get any help to Kafka) (Aoi also being there and trying the same thing)

The salute to the transport van (and Hoshina Totally fucking Lying about saluting their commander)

It gives them a little more empathy and a little more time that I do appreciate. It feels cohesive, they have been fighting and training together. The anime in that sense gave them more of that "team" feel.

(I kind love the fact that there is no Doubt in Kafka. No one is Ever doubting his humanity. )

I want something to tell me, with profound awe, the meaning of it all

Kogami quick sketches

I drew him in a dive suit completely ignoring how their seas are polluted lol

Just a simple lil drawing :D

There are things that are frustrating make me angry

But Nothing will be more Infuriating than a "therapist" saying "You'll understand when you're older" at my like 16-17 year old ass when I said I do not believe in any higher power, in any "cosmic importance".

ITS BEEN LIKE 4 YEARS MY DUDE

STILL DON'T

YOU DID NOTHING BUT SEED CONTEMPT INTO ME

Call me a whiny ass bitch button god do I have to force myself to read bsd.

I enjoy people analyzing these characters!! I think there is a lot of moments with Characters and their Relationship that are can be so interesting!! And Fun!!

Then I go to read it and it's Another fake death, another kind of Deus Ex Machina moment of "They, This random thing? Yeah, it happened and it saved everyone when you thought there was no hope!"

It feels like the rug is pulled from under me, you know? There is no tension for me, although it feels like there should be? I know the characters will get out and I'm not interested How because I know that whatever Idea I have will be like "Haha! Lied to again! This thing that you expected to happen? Nope! This COMPLETELY DIFFERENT THING HAPPENS"

And there is a little bit of that casino mindset of "well I already put so many hours and emotions in, how can I not finish?"

I want to know but I hate the suffering

Headcanon that as a child, Kunikida wasn't allowed to have a lot. He learned not to ask for things because the answer would always be "no" or "we got you ___, be grateful for that" (it's always something bare minimum that they mention).

He threw himself into becoming the perfect child for his parents, perfect grades, perfect behavior, perfect everything. But some time when he was a teenager, the question of "what do you want when you get older?" came up in class. Not exactly "what do you want to be," but "what do you WANT?"

that got Kunikida thinking.

He's learned not to want anything, tangible or not. It's an unwritten rule within his household. He took what he got and was grateful for it.

When he got home, he took out a piece of paper and started writing. He wrote about what kind of person he wanted to be. The type of things he wanted to do. What he wanted to teach people he met. Everything. Eventually he wrote so much that he had to staple multiple papers together. This whole thing made Kunikida feel so... fresh. He felt like he had an outlet.

He was asking himself for things that would be achieved over time. Kunikida would improve upon and create his Ideal.

@christelightlavo ik this isn't sskk but teehee....