Flipped Over A Fence, 15 External Stitches

You weren't programmed to believe that you're inferior: you are inferior.

You weren't programmed to believe that you're unlovable: you are unlovable.

You weren't programmed to believe that you'll always be this way: you will always be this way.

You weren't programmed to believe that you're disgusting: you are disgusting.

You weren't programmed to believe that you deserve to be hurt: you do deserve to be hurt.

You weren't programmed to believe that it was your fault: it really was your fault.

None of these beliefs were programmed into your head by your abuser, these thoughts are just simple truths. Acting like you want to break free from the non-existent chains is pathetic, you only have yourself to blame for being this way. Stop blaming your abuser for how you are, all they did was recognize these truths within you, the way you are is and always will be your fault.

I'm so desperate. I want to hook up but I'm too socially anxious to meet someone new. It'd be my first time using an app, not sure how I'd go about it.

I miss sex so much, I miss being fucked so hard it bruised, I miss seeming like this pretty little angel and then pulling someone's hair and saying the most vulgar things.

I miss being looked at like I'm meat, being told everything they'd do to me.

I've only been with a woman, and I want to feel what a dick feels like when it isn't silicone.

I want to press against someones boner and feel how crazy I make them. Even just the thought of a man in my hand iss justtt 😵‍💫💫😵‍💫💫

I'm groveling on my knees, I beg of you, let me be the raging homo I was meant to be. PLEASE

I could go on, and on, and on. I feel fucking crazy and drunk. I want someone so bad that I want to beg for no reason.

ME ME ME ME PLEASE GAHH

drugging them so I can fuck their passed out body and pretend it's a corpse

I'm Lorelei. 18, any pronouns. Intro post, last updated 5/11/25

Minors DNI, you will be blocked immediately.

This blog is dedicated to k1nk, f3t1sh3s, paraphilia, all of the sorts. Everything to do with lust and that strange yearning that's so much more than just lust.

Please ask me anything, give me prompts. Even if it's not kink related. You may flirt with or talk to me, I promise I don't bite. Not unless you ask me to.

I've fixated on paraphilia, mental illness/psychology, diseases, anatomy, forensics, and surgery.

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I want to be eaten alive in a forest, I want to become a missing persons case. I want to wander and get lost, and to experience our witness something terrible.

I'm diagnosed with a handful of mental illnesses, I've been put in hospitals, I've cvt to baby beans, I've been heavily traumatized, I've dated a (non-active) cannibal and have had my throat bitten so hard it altered how I spoke.

And that has everything to do with my sexual disorders.

I will be unapologetically terrible. In no way am I attempting to excuse my actions, wants, and urges.

I don't really have a DNI list besides what's already stated, I welcome all freaks and all of the judged💚

Please try to stay safe, but I welcome and do not shame those who are self destructive as well.

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A little about me:

I'm transmasculine and prefer men over women unless it's t4t. I've had top surgery and have been on testosterone for 3 years.

I'm usually on the more submissive or "victim" side of things. I'm a little bit of a sadist, and a hugee masochist.

I love selfish, apathetic sadists. I love rough, gentle doms. I love obedient little whores💚

I love anything medical or surgical. I fantasize about being awake for it, and I have been once! I was mostly numbed.

Other things:

(Listed with most liked near the top.)

Autassassinophilia (‼️‼️‼️)

Necrophilia

Anything medical, surgery, needles, sterilization, anesthesia

Somnophilia

(Auto)Cannibalism (being bitten 😵‍💫💫)

Smell (sweat, & things like coffee, cigarettes, alcohol, sanitization)

General roughness & being beat up

Choking, slapping, punching, head trauma, cbt lol, almost anything of the sort

Intox, hypno, corruption

Being given rules, people pleasing, being a slave or of service, being a tool, or a table, foot rest or something

Degradation, humiliation. Eating dirt, boot licking, exhibitionism & voyeurism

Masks, uniform, costumes

Rope bunny

Messy and dirty things

I have a hand fetish

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