If I Were Her I Would Prolly Do That Too Tbh😭

Anyways I'm talking about Anya again.

She's allowed to be terrible. She's also actually a good nurse. Someone not being able to complete that doesn't mean they don't know how to do their job. It could have been many reasons and based on what we know, mental health very likely played a part of it. She kept Curly alive for months and the condition he was in, that would not have been possible if she didn't know her shit.

If she had been alive, it's likely she would have been able to save Daisuke too. But I feel like it's also important to point out that most of the guys on the ship didn't seem to believe in her, one way or the other. And how that takes a toll when you are in a medical position especially, it's not a great mix. Anya had self esteem issues, for very valid reasons might I add, and yet no one once again advocated for her. As much as I like some of the others, they are responsible for her death. Every single one of them. Even Daisuke. He has less responsibility compared to the other three, and he still counts.

All of them to some degree didn't do what they could have. Swansea seemed to come around at least a little, I still believe he was angry for her. But what he said to her first, was an issue. He did belittle her some, he does that with everyone sure. And he still did it.

Curly is self explanatory, he didn't do what he should have the second he knew. He didn't do his job as a captain and as someone who knew her personally either.

Jimmy. I mean. A fork is in the kitchen here.

Daisuke didn't say anything. It was his lack of words that makes some of it his responsibility. I understand he is the role of the younger guy learning what to do from the older ones, so he just goes along with it. And he still could have tried something. Even talked to her and said he believed her and would try to help. He didn't.

Anya is a victim, all of them are, and she takes the cake. She's allowed to snap. She's allowed to be terrible. She's allowed to lash out. It doesn't make things right, but what are you gonna do when nothing is right? Her worst moment happened, it happened and no one addressed it. It happened and she has to live with it. It happened and where she would be standing, no one cared. And I fully believe Jimmy did it more than once.

Anya shouldn't be glorified or put on a pedestal of victimhood. She's one of the rawest forms of a victim of SA and potentially abusive relationship I've seen so far. She does deserve a fucking vaction, and one can dream. The take away I'd also like to see from this game is why that couldn't happen. Because understanding that can help you understand people who do experience that, who have had that happen. She couldn't get a happy ending in game because no one was willing to help her get there. This was the only end.

my boy..... he is lost

chesecak 🤤

chesecak 🤤🤤

end of the year ELAR paper abt this book finna go CRAZY with this 😈🙏

Details from The Outsiders you may have forgotten or missed

-Cherry doesn't appear after the hearing (her not waving Ponyboy is just a movie thing)

-Ponyboy fucking hates people with green eyes so bad and gets pissed when someone points out he also has green eyes

-Steve always combs his hair into complicated swirls

-The Greasers always play football together

-Soda is one of the only Greasers who never gets drunk

-He also doesn't smoke unless something is bothering him or he wants to look tuff

-Darry, on the other hand, never smokes because it would affect his perfect body which he is very proud of

-Darry is also proud of being smart and sensible

-Ponyboy is the heaviest smoker out of the Curtis family

-Johnny started smoking at 9 and Steve at 11

-Johnny would've run away from Tulsa if it weren't for the gang

-Soda gives killer massages

-Ponyboy's razor wasn't working while he had to dissect a frog so he just took out his knife

-Darry goes skiing with some of his old friends sometimes

-Cherry and Marcia barrel race often and are pretty good at it

-Soda used to ride in rodeos but after breaking a ligament, his dad made him quit

-Sometimes Soda and Steve let Ponyboy help them fix the cars at the DX

-Johnny is the most law-abiding of the gang, and didn't even carry a knife until the Socs jumped him

-Cherry has an older brother

-Ponyboy used to have a yeller cur dog

-Johnny's scar his from his temple to his cheekbone (it's huge and also hard to look at)

-Two-Bit is great at doing impressions

-Two-Bit often raises one eyebrow, and the gang associate the gesture with him

-Dally and the Curtis mother got along well before she died

-Ponyboy is a scarily good liar

-Ponyboy notes that while he sees Johnny as a scared puppy, he actually looks rather hardened and cold to a stranger

-Johnny's skin is lighter under his bangs

-When at the church, Johnny puts his jean jacket over Ponyboy while he went out to get groceries

-Steve, Dally and Two-Bit wouldn't have thought of buying soap at a grocery store

-Ponyboy calls himself a Pepsi addict

-Dally hardly ever cuts his hair

-Johnny loves drag races

-The Curtis Dad took the brothers out hunting often in the country

-Ponyboy has the best aim but hates shooting

-Dally heard of the old church from a cousin

-Ponyboy is the youngest person on the track team but still one of the fastest

-Darry was the closest to their dad

-Steve once called Darry 'all brawn ans no brains' which made Darry made because it reminded him of the fact he didn't go to college

-Darry will suddenly pick up a random Greasers and swings them around

-The Curtis Dad used to call Soda 'Pepsi-Cola'

-The Shepard gang and the Curtis gang have fought seriously on at least on occasion (but it's nothing compared to the rumble)

-The Curtis brothers stayed at the hospital all night for Johnny and Dally until a doctor forced them to leave

-Johnny has a clean police record

-Ponyboy chews his fingernails when nervous

-Johnny often sleeps at Two-Bit's house

-The Curtis brothers all have huge appetites

-Darry always checks Ponyboy's Math homework for mistakes

-Johnny looks like his mother; having the same black hair, dark eyes and tiny built/height

-Soda did actually try really hard to stay in school but he kept failing

-Darry and Ponyboy both enjoyed school and athletics while Soda isn't into either

-The only thing Dally did honestly was jockeying

-Johnny really good at poker (or Ponyboy is really bad)

-The only time Johnny has been confident and not scared in his life, was when rescuing the kids in the church

-Johnny actually gets hurt because he pushed Ponyboy out first of the church

-Sodapop loves attention and was good with the reporters

-Sodapop has a crazy sweet tooth

-The Curtis brothers all love chocolate

-Darry never locks the front door in case one of the gang need a place to stay

-Ponyboy once found Tim Shepard sitting on their couch reading the newspaper

-Ponyboy thinks that Two-Bit wouldn't have gone inside the church if he was there

-Two Bit wished that the one hurt was anybody but Johnny and that the gang would have still been able to get along had it been anyone else

-Darry once took an aerobatics course and taught all the Greasers everything he knew

-Soda and Two-Bit were doing aerobatics and then got arrested for disturbing the peace

-The Curtis gang are noted to be better at fighting than the Shepard gang

-Tim Shepard looked like a model from the magazines Ponyboy reads

-Ponyboy notes that sweat ran down Dally's face when Johnny died, but it was probably tears

-Cherry drives a Sting Ray

-Curly once slipped off a telephone poll and broke his arm

-Johny's a good listener and all the members of the gang often go to tell him about their day or their problems

-Johnny says in his letter that the lives of kids were worth more than his

just art? idk man

i was just doodling in my notebook and wanted to post it somewhere idk why. if you have any tips pls share I'm trying to get better at art lmao

i feel like I made nice progress, I'm very proud of mysef

Watching Hannibal for the first time Ep 8-11

Episode 8. I need MatPat to figure out if you could turn a person into a cello. THAT IS THE FILM THEORY I WANT! Anyway, Franklin comes back in this episode. Another fun fact, I work in dentistry, and I did not know Catgut was real animal innards. My instructors left that little tidbit out. I love that Hannibal is offered friendship by Franklin, his little fanboy patient. Lecter is so annoyed by it, he just could not care less. Then Tobias, who is also a deadly psychopath, Hannibal seems just as bothered. It's great. Tobias swinging around that wire tool thing, looked a little silly. It was giving weeb kid busting out their special attack. I did appreciate men in suits beating the Hell out of each other. Also Will and Alana kiss, it's whatever, I feel no chemistry between them.

Episode 9

Abigail finally comes back, she's haunted by the man she killed and is going to write a book about the murders with Freddie. We learn that Freddie is a smug vegetarian. I just know this woman fat-shames people. She eats half a cutie orange and just gushes about how full she is. I'll fight this woman in a parking lot. Also, Abigail did help father capture girls for him to kill. I won't lie I lost a lot of sympathy for Abigail. However, It makes sense that Hannibal would be so interested in her. I think he sees Abigail and Will as kindred spirits, in his own way. Yet, he still views them as things to be played with.

Human totem poll. It was such a good design. The skulls are the corners.

Episode 10

Skin just slipping off the body. It got me. It's the little things that get me. Just slid off her like a rubber glove.

Hannibal has an interesting way of treating his friends. I think lying to Will about his encephalitis, is an attempt on his part to keep him close. He wants will, but I don't think Hannibal is capable of seeing other humans as, well people. I think he views them more like animals, something he can control.

Every time Will has an episode he runs to Hannibal. So it is working, if Will was well, he might spend less time with him. Hannibal's own psychiatrist mentions that he needs someone who deserves his friendship. I think this may be a way for him to test Will.

Bisected head. I cannot praise the SFX makeup enough.

Episode 10

This might be my favorite episode of the season. Being awake during your own dissection, grizzly. The tongues pulled through the slit necks. Simple, and very effective. I like seeing Freddie have that smug grin wiped off her face. I was bothered that Alana was put into protective custody, but Chilton was not. Like, he was the guy who messed with the serial killer, of course, he was going to get got.

They seemed so surprised, y'all are FBI agents pull it together.

Hugh Darcy does a great job, acting like someone on the brink. Another fun fact, they often use baby oil to make actors look sweaty. Hugh was probably swimming in the stuff.

Three more episodes. That I will post about later, and give my feelings on the first season as a whole.

just some art i guess???

it's not that good and the camera quality SUCKS, but you can't always get what you want and that's ok lmao. obvi inspired by gyaru fashion bc I just think they're cool

i wanted to draw a hand doing something too but I got too lazy😍

not the best photos but these are the best I could get!!!

real😔

Hannibal would 100% go feral when Will wears his stuff and smells like him and you can’t tell me otherwise

I love this because I think that after the first time they sleep together Will borrows clean clothes from Hannibal and he realizes he doesn’t have many shirts or looser pants that aren’t pjs, so he buys “himself” more clothes conveniently in Will’s style and size, somehow his washing machine is always malfunctioning so Will has to wear his clothes to work where Beverly absolutely teases him about why he owns $5,000 flannel shirts from Bottega Veneta.