moodboard by the amazing @mcuspidey
Summary: Thou mayest, or thou mayest not.
Clint Barton’s encounter with a young assassin and Tony Stark’s notes about nanotech he sold to a Russian woman, Nadia Morozov, led the new team of Avengers to Moscow, Russia a month after Tony’s sacrifice brought everyone back. Their plan was to rescue the girls from their captors, to bring them to safety. They make it away with just one. Black Widow 147. You don’t have a name. You don’t even recognize that what you’ve been doing is wrong. Can you be reintegrated into society? A 17-year-old girl who hasn’t as much as seen the outdoors before attempts to navigate her life with abilities that only one other person can really understand, Peter Parker.
“If you do what is right, will you not be accepted? But if you do not do what is right, sin is crouching at your door; it desires to have you, but you must rule over it.” - Genesis 4:7
“You just wanted to prove there was one safe place, just one safe place where you could love him. You have not found that place yet. You have not made that place yet. You are here. You are here. You’re still right here.” - Richard Siken
Warnings: violence, graphic depictions of violence and murder, mind control/brainwashing similar to that of the Black Widow comics and Winter Soldier storyline, takes place post Endgame (mostly), eventual Far From Home rewrite/fix it, canon divergent with some facts taken from Black Widow comics, angst
Playlist
Completed!
Total Word Count: 101,000
(release date/word count)
Preview - Sunset (1.6k)
Prologue - Red Room Reimagined (3.9k)
i - Room Eleven (5.6k)
ii - In Memorium (5.6k)
iii - Crumble (5.4k)
iv - Scarred (5.7k)
v - High School Never Ends (9.6k)
vi - Stuck on Repeat (6.4k)
vii - Look at Me (5.6k)
viii - Familiar Faces and Barroom Deals (6.3k)
ix - School’s Out for the Summer (5k)
x - You’re An Avenger (5.2k)
xi - Pinpoint (4.8k)
xii - Ashes, Ashes (7.6k)
xiii - We All Fall Down (5.5k)
xiv - Deceit (5.4k)
xv - You Have A Choice (4.8k)
xvi - Free Will (5k)
epilogue - An Evening I Will Not Forget (1.9k)
blurbs!
Almost Senior Prom
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Cody!
He's a little lost.
kenobi appriciation post
It’s Tech Taungsday babie!! Here’s a lil techsplanation from an older piece I never posted :) the new armor paint is fun! Orange for Shereshoy! 🥰
one CREEPY spider just earned the KISS of a lifetime- turning her back into her original princess form! (larger spider
The Batch realized they could give Omega everything they never got....
JUST SOME rotting fluff ofc, on brand. I just know in my heart that the batch (esp hunter) would shower Omega with encouragement once they got a hang of the whole dad brother thing and realized that they could heal from Kamino through kindness to her ;;;w;;;
I don’t want Crosshair to have an Anakin Skywalker redemption arc.
I want Crosshair to have a Bucky Barnes recovery arc.
I don’t want Crosshair to do a bunch of dark, evil things, get the chip out or have a change of heart or realize what he’s doing is wrong, do one good thing or save someone’s life, and then die for it.
I want Crosshair to do a bunch of dark, evil things, get the chip out or break through the chip and realize what he’s doing it wrong, do something good and/or save someone’s life, and then survive to have to deal with the repercussions and face the consequences.
Not legal consequences. Crosshair is, at the end of the day, a victim of the Empire. He’s being mind controlled. He’s been brainwashed. He’s been Winter Soldier-ed.
Yes, he’s killing civilians. He’s hunting his brothers. He’s hurting people. He’s ruining lives. He’s killing people. But his actions are not his fault. He’s just the puppet, the Empire is pulling his strings. He has no control. He’s being forced to commit these crimes. However… he’s still the one doing them. And he has to face the emotional repercussions of doing that. He has to redeem himself to the people he hurt in able to recover from that trauma.
I could go on and on about the parallels between Crosshair in just the first 3 episodes alone, and the Winter Soldier. There are direct, scene for scene parallels between the two characters. I want so desperately for them to continue that trend.
To talk about Bucky Barnes/The Winter Soldier for a second: obviously, Bucky is not to blame for what he did during his time as the Winter Soldier. Hydra was the one in control - they tortured him, they hooked him up machines and wiped his mind, they took away his free will, they made him fight and kill and torture strangers, friends, foes, the guilty, the innocent, civilians, criminals, politicians, etc. As an audience we know this, we understand it and we sympathize with him.
But… he still did all those things.
One of my favorite Bucky scenes (and honestly probably the scene that really made me fall in love with him) was in Captain America Civil War when Bucky and Steve are on the quinjet to Siberia to fight the other Winter Soldiers.
Bucky: I don't know if I'm worth all this, Steve.
Steve: What you did all those years... it wasn't you. You didn't have a choice.
Bucky: I know. But I did it.
Bucky is able to acknowledge that while he didn't have any control over his actions and what he did, he still did bad things to innocent people. And those innocent people are still going to look at Bucky and see the man who caused them pain, hurt, and suffering. Sure, they might understand logically that he wasn't in control, that he wasn't the one who did those things. But we don't always think rationally when we are angry and scared and hurt.
We can see this later in Siberia when Tony attacks Bucky. Immediately after watching the video he turns to Bucky. We can see the resigned look on Bucky's face. Bucky understands. He understands that in that moment, Tony isn't thinking rationally. He is thinking with his emotions. And his emotions are blinding him, in that moment, to the fact that it wasn't Bucky who did those things, but Hydra using Bucky's body as a puppet. "It wasn't him, Tony." "I don't care. He killed my mom." Was Tony right to attack Bucky? No. Did Bucky deserve it? No. But we can see on Bucky's face right before the fight starts that he understands why Tony is doing it and honestly? Probably doesn't blame him. He understands that even though he wasn't in control when he killed Tony's parents, he still did it. He still caused Tony real pain that doesn't pay attention to things like fairness or blame. All Tony can see is Bucky's hands killing his mom, and they both have to face the emotional repercussions of that.
Another great (and less discourse-y) example of this is in Falcon and the Winter Soldier. We see Bucky continue to have to face the emotional repercussions of his time as the Winter Soldier. He's making amends for his actions and working through the psychological pain of it. He may not have been in control when he killed Yori's son, but it was still his hands that pulled the trigger. That is why he's so afraid to tell Yori the truth through the whole series. He thinks he's protecting Yori from the pain of knowing what happened to his son by not telling him, when in actuality he is protecting himself from that pain of what Yori might think of him after Bucky tells him. He's aware enough to know that Yori might hate him, never speak to him again, that he might lose a friend. Because while he wasn't in control when he shot Yori's son, at the end of the day, he died by Bucky's hands. Yori's son is still dead because of Bucky. It's not fair, but sometimes life isn't always rainbows and butterflies with a fairy tale ending.
Back to the Bad Batch: I want Crosshair to get his chip out and go back to the Batch and have to face the repercussions of what he did with the Empire. I want the Bad Batch to be distrustful of Crosshair at first. I want Crosshair to be afraid to be left alone with Omega. I want Crosshair to not trust his own mind. I want Crosshair to be hurt or get frustrated after the 15th time he moves too suddenly and Tech flinches. I want Crosshair to have nightmares. I want Crosshair to have to recover from his own trauma while also redeeming himself after the trauma he caused the Batch. Not just... die. Sometimes recovery and redemption is messy and ugly. But it's necessary and it's more interesting narratively than killing him off.
Do I think the show is going to do this? No. It's a children's show and they've already shown they aren't going that deep into the emotionality of everything. I just think this would be a much more interesting and complex way to carry on Crosshair and the Bad Batch's storyline while also providing opportunity for character development in the Batch outside of Hunter and Omega. They've already shown they know how to write a redemption arc - they managed to write a redemption arc for Kallus successfully and, while I love Kallus, he did work for the Empire and commit war crimes and participate in genocide of his own volition without a chip in his brain. If they can do it for Kallus, they can do it for Crosshair.
If they kill Crosshair off I'm going to be genuinely angry because it seems like such a waste of character and also a waste of good content and character development for the entire Bad Batch going forward. With the confirmation of season 2, I don't think they're going to kill him (yet). Right now my worst fear is that they'll get the chip out and he'll stay with the Empire or he'll reveal the chip has been kaput for months and he's doing all this because he wants to, which would make no sense based on what we've seen of him in season 7 of tcw and throughout this show. But that's for a different post. I guess we'll see with tomorrow's episode.
Crosshair, to Hunter: Of course you can trust me. All my motives are completely sinister
Tech: *whispers in Crosshair's ear*
Crosshair: Sincere
SHUT THE FRONT DOOR
Inspired by the amazing fanfic Stick Together by @returnofahsoka over on AO3
Cant recommend enough! I just really wanted to get some practice with drawing comics. And what better way to do that then with my current obsession!