Self Destructing To Feel In Control Only To Realise You Might Not Actually Be In Control, And "your Actions"

wanting someone to notice that I'm not ok but the urge to keep going is so much stonger. I want to be rotting inside before they realise

Bpd culture is feeling like the only one who took people saying "treat others how youd want to be treated" seriously

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being bigger than my sister is honestly so embarrassing for me. she's 15 years older than me and I'm still fatter than her. I want to carve the fat off my body until there's nothing left but skin and bones

I started going on walks with my friend (I'm running up and down a hill on my own to burn calories when I eat)

I find that one of the worst things about fasting is that I constantly feel sick. yet when I do eat, I can't keep it down. I get so nauseous even when I drink water, but watching the numbers on the scale drop makes it all worth it 😊

the feminine urge to want to cut off your boobs just to see the number on the scale go down

a rope and an eating disorder, what more can a girl want 💕💕

"you got snap or insta?" i have a rope i can hang myself with

Having visible collar bones and a flat stomach would give me the confidence to wear tank tops for once