Rollcall9 - Doing My Best To Be Me

Oh my gosh had the best session last weekend

Wish I had a real trusted friend to enjoy it with

Last weekend I was out of town wish I took pictures but was a little tied up

So I stripped myself down shave and a shower in my hotel room grabbed my pie plug lol a plug that is 3.14 inches in diameter inserted it and added a long rubber electro urethra plug along with some electro pads put on a padded pantie and then added a leather belt tight with a timer

All the leads ran back to my E312 box I put on my 36DDD bra my stockings and slip and my beautiful maroon satin dress I then put on my heels and locking straps around them

I also added straps to the bed with D rings that just went under the mattress

After I tested my electro box I grabbed some panties put them over my head and locked the hood over my head forcing me to take in the smell and juices I then strapped my hands and feet down to the bed using timers

With my E312 set on ramp up it was only a matter of time the voltage would reach 99 on the dial a very extreme voltage for me but I wanted to be sure i was over done and felt so used and Fucked so hard when my timers finally reales me my body was shaking and screaming and on my sixth orgasm by the time I got my hands free to turn down the E312 I so got what I wished for and was screaming inside for another round so I set the ramp up again and reset the timers

After I was released the second time by the timers it had been four hours I had to lay there before I was able to release myself completely and take a shower

Can’t wait until I go out of town again

Still wish I had a trusted friend woman trans woman she could do this to me and I could do stuff for her only extend the fun to many many hours of what ever

So if anyone is asking as I get some messages

I am male that loves to be feminized dress and be a woman love being plugged and locking my own cage and playing with electro fun

I would go woman full time if only it paid the bills I am married to a woman as I am only In to woman I still find a feminized man attractive but don’t know how far I would go

I wear bras and panties and anything else I can hide under my male clothes due to me being stuck in a males working role it pays the bills

I am here to make friends of any type as I really have none that I can hang out with or talk to about being who I feel inside

So if you want to talk I am here but even I’m still finding myself

Also as of now if I’m sucking on it it will be a strap on attached to a very attractive female that I’m sure she will be allow you use on me but when she’s done

I will please and pleasure her beyond her wildest dreams i have been told that I have a porn star member that still can cum if chastised

Or a goddess … I’m not trying to be rude, it’s just not my thing!  Sorry!

I Feel the end is near

I'm trying to be true to myself and what i love or enjoy

all i do is hurt the one i love trying to make love work when she wants the man of the house and your trying

but clearly deep inside can not live to those expectations you love dresses and bras and panties and your jealous how pretty they look and want to try your hardest to look that good

all I can do is look like a DOG of a MALE the lumberjack big arms big C0Ck and you just want to be emotional and tender and not labeled as a MAN i HATE BEING A MAN my Wife Hates me and will never love me FOR me

finding someone else when you said in your vows forever and ever and now your just unlovable and destine to be alone

i cant be alone that's scares me most i know what i would do but don't have the manliness to make it happen

This is interesting

But you'll be forgetting it soon enough

when I break you😈