“ nothing's wrong with being a little crazy sometimes , but seeing a fortune teller is probably like the least crazy thing you can do around here . i mean , what's the worst that could happen ? it's not like the predictions are real . ” camille truly doesn't believe in the whole being able to look into the future kinda thing and it shows . “ you should still give it a try though . i'd say you shouldn't trust them one hundred percent , but if you're into that sort of thing , you do you . after all someone's gotta believe them , am i right ? that's how they keep the business going . ”
with: @nepofmstarters where: outside the fortune teller's tent @ the vday carnival
stood at the edge of the valentine's day carnival, van couldn't help feeling drawn to the flickering glow and velvety, starry pattern of the fortune teller's tent. she sighed, a mix of curiosity and apprehension as she turned to the person nearby. " y'know, back in texas, we've got our fair share of superstitions — and mixin' fate with fortune-telling feels like playin' with fire, " she drawled, southern accent adding a touch of warmth to her tone. " but i'd be lying if i said i'm not a little curious. am i crazy for thinkin' about goin' inside and lettin' those cards have a say ? or is that just askin' for bad luck ? " in her eyes, it was like telling someone your wish after blowing out the candles on a birthday cake . . . if you said it or heard it out loud, it was never going to come true. but how could she not feel some allure ? she was known to be a romanticist, after all.
camille knows this is not easy for neither of them , but even when he's hurting , darius has always so patient and kind with her . she had expected for him to at least scream at her , to maybe shove her away and refuse to even stay a second longer and listen to her bullshit . she had already imagined the worst possible scenario that could happen , and yet now that they're standing face to face , all that she is reminded of is how badly she doesn't deserve anything from darius anymore . still , she finds herself wishing for some sort of miracle , and had he reacted way worse than this , camille would have been convinced that there's no hope for her to mend what's already broken .
“ no , it's not okay , ” she could feel tears welling up in her eyes , “ i know it's not okay so please , darius , just yell at me or something . tell me you hate me for what i did to you , anything , just fucking talk to me , alright ? i need to know if you still want me in your life or if it's really over between us . ” maybe it's a selfish thought —— camille believes that they would find their ways to each other again no matter what , but having spent so much time away from darius makes her think that she might get it all wrong . what if darius has actually moved on and she's the only one still hanging onto the idea of them together ?
pulls one hand away to wipe the tear falling down her cheek , “ i'm not leaving until you tell me your answer . ” this is what she came for anyways , and if darius truly doesn't want her in his life anymore , she'd try her best to stay away from him after this . “ tell me , darius , do you really think this is the end for us ? ” she knows they have already broken up , but she needs to hear it from darius again .
“ cami—it's okay. sorry—don't apologize. ” darius was never good with words. his thought process is all the divvied up emotions and things he'd like to say placed in a supercut. incoherent thoughts breed incoherent words, and he ends up hounding whoever had upset him. it's not fair to camille and anyone on the receiving end of his hurt. “ i don't doubt that you loved me. ” that's darius running on his own time. what could he have done at the height of his hurt? he'd never yelled at camille before—of all people, he didn't ever plan to.
but betrayal reaps a need for blood: he doesn't even hear it from camille. maybe if he did, he'd swallow whatever pride to try to understand—to try to make it work (because he wanted it to). it strikes him as a great loss: how does anyone deal with losing one's greatest confidant, companion, and lover all in one ? “ can you blame me—? ” it's the kind of pity party he hates to see and he pities her for a second. “ —stop that— ” because he knows she's hurting herself. open palms gather her hands in his. some things never change. he practices his self control and she loses her self control. “ it doesn't matter anymore. ” things like this were meant to stop hurting after awhile. it had been awhile. “ i'm not in the space to hear what feelings you don't and do have. ” camille addario is simultaneously the last person he wanted to see and also likely the last person he'd see tonight. “ compose yourself until you get home. ”
camille is very much aware that she should have never gone back to julien . anyone in their right mind wouldn't , but that's the thing , she wasn't in her right mind when she came back crawling to him . it's a bold move , shameless even , because while the public already had a target on her back , she went and did the only one thing that she shouldn't have —— her reputation has already been tainted anyways , but it gets worse every time julien grimaldi is involved . still , she finds herself enjoying every second of it . maybe deep down this is what she wants : the push and pull , the never - ending cycle of fighting and making up , the intense hatred mixed with desire . she knows he's no good for her , and yet she couldn't seem to find a way to leave ( she already did once , but is it considered leaving if she still comes back around like this ? ) , and now that she and darius are already broken up , there's nothing stopping her from falling back into old habits . maybe she's a little fucked in the head , but she loves the idea of being with julien , how he always bring out the worst in her . it makes her feel alive in a way , and it doesn't help that he knows just the right ways to keep her around either . but things with julien are just that , something she clings to for some sort of relevancy , something that makes playing the villain a little more tolerable . after all two is better than one , right ?
it's all fun and games between them , but she couldn't deny that every time he calls her name in that stupidly sexy french accent of his , it makes her feel giddy for all the wrong reasons . sure , he's got a fucking point . “ well , if you put it that way , ” she lets her words trail instead . julien definitely has the upper hand in this situation , but maybe it's about time she puts him back in his place . “ wait , did you hear that ? ” a brief pause for dramatic effect , “ that's the sound of me not giving a single fuck about what you think . but you know what ? i'll give you that —— it's true that you make it so fucking hard for me to leave sometimes , but don't get it twisted , yeah ? you're not that special to me . ” this time camille drops the smile on her face , gaze still on his , “ if you still didn't get the fucking hint , i'm dumping your ass , jules . and please , keep his name out of your fucking mouth . you have no rights to talk about him like that . ” it's almost laughable how she still wants to protect darius when she was the one who hurt him the most , but really , she could tell that julien probably brings him up on purpose , knows that she'd get all worked up over the mention of her ex .
julien isn’t some shining example of a good guy . no , far from it . he’s selfish , oozing ego and packed with a substantial dose of narcissism . so damn convinced he’s the center of the universe , so damn sure that anyone who’s ever heard of him wants him . and honestly , he’s not entirely wrong . plenty of people would kill to be camille right now , would act like the perfect little partner for the perfect little prince . but that’s the thing , julien doesn’t want that . he wants the drama , the thrill of the chase , that intense heat . and camille delivers just that — she brings the fire , the passion , the intensity , and gives him just enough of that ‘ love to hate you ’ energy to get him completely hooked . he loves the way her eyes practically roll into the back of her head but still betray desire . loves the way she yells at him in public , making them the talk of every tabloid website . and he absolutely loves explosive shouting matches that only wind down when they’re both naked , spent , and blissfully satisfied . but does he love her ? no . he loves that she’s his , that she brings something thrilling to a life that’s supposed to be so dull and boring . and that’s the reason , ( and he’ll swear it’s the only reason ) , why he’s never gonna walk away .
maybe this was his plan all along — to bring out this side of her . then again , maybe he actually thought she had a shred of loyalty to him . who really knows with this guy ? “ ooooh , now that’s the feisty camille i know and love . ” a smirk appears to lips as index finger traces her jawline , a gentle mockery of affection . “ you forget , chérie — the last time your loyalty slipped , wasn’t it my name on your lips ? you say you don’t do loyalty , i say you’ve been mine , all mine , since you cheated on that little boyfriend of yours . ” the real message here boils down to the fact that julien is a horrible human being . he couldn’t care less about loyalty or who she’s with , at least as long as he fits into the picture somehow . but , oh , if she ever considers revisiting things with her ex , that’s where he draws a line . hits a nerve on his fragile ego , maybe ? “ enough with this ‘ shoo , bad boy ’ act . weren’t you saying the same just last week ? and the week before ? and yet , here you are . seems you cannot resist , eh ? oh , but suddenly , you’re turning a new leaf for your oh - so - bland ex - boyfriend , just because he’s made his grand retour ? mon dieu , that’s truly … fuckin’ disappointing . ”
camille gives the girl an eye roll , albeit playfully . “ oh , come on . it'll be fun , i promise . well , yeah , it does look kinda scary for the first time but once you're up there ? you'll forget all about it . at least you're coming with me and i've been on a ferris wheel a ton of times —— trust me , you're gonna love it . ” this time she offers yejin a reassuring smile . “ we can hold hands if you get scared . i'll keep you safe , okay ? ”
open starter - valentine's day carnival
"i'm like not scared of heights i swear. i've just never been on a ferris wheel and so, i don't know if i'm scared yet. like, will i regret it? will i yell? will you regret coming with me? probably, but who knows! not me, not yet, at least. but that's fun right?" yejin looks up at the wheel and it's massive size and height, biting her lip, a bit scared just from looking at it. "you can say no." ( @nepofmstarters )
“ first of all , that's so rude . second of all , which part of this screams we're staying in for you ? ” hands gestured randomly over her outfit , an offended look washes over her face . “ i was feeling cute and shit and now i don't even know anymore . well , at least i'm dressed for the part , ” she blurts out , motioning towards aria . “ i distinctly remember telling you to wear something cute because we're gonna go bowling . . . i guess you didn't hear that one . ”
“ um . . . i thought you said we were going out tonight , “ she gives [ name ] a quick scan with her eyes , one of them clearly must have misinterpreted the dress code for tonight’s plans . “ when you said out i thought you meant like to dinner or to the club or something , not out of the bed and onto the couch . . . “ ( @nepofmstarters )
it would be a lie to say that camille isn't afraid that things would take a turn for the worst . she has always known that darius has a bit of a temper , but she's not usually on the receiving end until their break - up , in which she rightfully deserves in a way . a sigh of relief escapes from her as the tall guy eventually retreats from the situation , and she follows him to the side of the building , somehow feeling a bit antsy now that it's just the two of them here . at his question , camille opens her mouth to say something , but she couldn't seem to find the right words —— their relationship has already reached rock bottom at this point , and yet a small part of her still believes that she could save this , whatever's left of them , anything .
“ i didn't know you smoke , ” comes out her response , eyes glued to the cigarette in between his lips , momentarily catches herself staring for a second before she finally looks away . “ when did that even happen ? ” she could probably tell , knowing that she too has been indulging in some new bad habits since the last time they saw each other . she lets out a scoff , “ seriously , darius ? do you think that's what this is all about ? me trying to get back my things ? i don't even care about them . i just want a fucking excuse to see you . ” this is so pathetic , she knows , but she'd be damned if she doesn't take this chance to talk to him now that he's here . “ i heard that you're coming back to new york . is that true ? ”
old habits die hard. at least it's what his friends throw out whenever darius finds himself some trouble. it's the first time he's been back in months and he hears: ' the prodigal son returns. ' it's enough of a reason for him to shove his shoulders up against the other. textbook barfight: the force is enough to knock the stranger over a neighboring table, their friends gather, the two are idly held back. see, he heard that tone right. or wrong—the youngest suwan had a bone to pick with just about anyone. “ you know me, but who are you ? ” on a bad day, he would've done more but it was meant to be a good night. the following happens simultaneously: he looks over at his friends, notices their confusion, and he hears a familiar voice. camille addario is always going to be the last person darius would like to see. at some point they all thought the two would run as suwan-addario. he's disappointed (read: hurt—it's like reopening wounds he thought had closed) when he realizes who it is. “ alright, ” he decides. “ not worth it. ” his friends know him well enough to give him space. “ what do you want ? ” is what darius leads with. they end up tucked to the side of the building with his lighter struggling against his cigarette. his tone is dry and rugged—practically mumbles the question at her. “ i don't have your things anymore. ” it's why he ignored her texts about it. “ it's all tossed. what do we have to talk about ? ” because sometimes, words are put together to hurt others.
lily rose depp. she/her. cis woman. › spotted at the met steps , camille addario , most likely listening to houdini by dua lipa with their airpods pro . the twenty six year old gained quite a reputation , known to be -self indulgent yet +ambitious to anyone who knows them . you'll easily spot them when you hear about bubblegum and cigarettes - a natural contradiction , sweet bourbon run through your veins , the golden touch of midas , long confident strides forward ; no matter the adversities , followed by chanel coco mademoiselle . latest nepoupdates article talks about tiktok star camille addario recently spotted being intimate with a married actor just a week after her last messy public break up - is this yet another pr stunt or has she finally lost it ? , but i guess any reputation is good reputation .
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“ okay , i've never been peer pressured into eating glue before nor had i ever peer pressured anyone into doing so —— who the fuck would peer pressure somebody into eating glue anyways ? that's just fucking bizarre . and sure , you might say you're fine right now , but isn't that still dangerous ? like are you sure you're not just gaslighting yourself into thinking that eating glue is fine ? we should probably get you checked or something . ” maybe camille just got lucky she didn't have much peer pressure growing up , and she would like to believe that she could very much stand up for herself and say no to doing things that she shouldn't be doing ( re : eating glue ) but maybe kids tend to be more relentless and it's easier to give in to peer pressure when you're younger . with a tilt of her head , camille gives the other an eye roll before saying , “ all i'm hearing right now is excuses , babe . i don't know who the fuck dragonrider420 or whatever that thing is , but if you're too scared to do this you can just say so . i'm not gonna peer pressure you into it . ” camille has never been the ultimate peer pressurer after all , even if she might seem like she is . “ if anything you were the one trying to poison me with your glue - infused drink , ” she teases , followed by a laugh . “ you can just put it on my tab and throw it out so we can both stay alive , by the way . i promise i won't snitch on you . ”
with phoebe crane, whose mouth is silently constructing eloquent aspersions of the decidedly un-babe-like kind, there is no calm before the storm. there is only the rambling tornado that sends limbs flying into a sign language with no signal for stop, that breaks the fujita scale into the components of a virgin mojito. curse her for thinking camille would understand. then again, if camille couldn’t get behind the extremely real feminist movement of turning fungal overgrowth into a fashion statement, there was no way she’d get the glue-eater tag trending without some real persuasion. if she almost knocks the shot glass over while presenting her case, it’s a happy coincidence that only highlights the passion with which she defends her life and its questionable continuation. ‘ i didn’t do it on purpose! either the wrong-alcohol-putting-inning or the glue eating. you know what peer pressure is, right? i mean, i guess you’re basically the ultimate peer pressurer, but that just means you have a civil duty to drink glue with me whenever you’re done with whatever you’re dressed up for, ‘ she says, scrawling a jumble of digits and decimal points onto the counter with the chipped tip of her fingernail in an attempt to calculate ninety-nine per cent of one hundred. her concentration is broken by the other’s dalliance with negotiation, which phoebe replies to with a grin that’s all incisors. incisors that are also covered in the shiny, fake flavour of expired lip balm. ‘ uh, we’re out of straws. save the turtles, y’know. also, god is a woman, and i dmed her about this whole sitch and she said that i cannot leave my campaigns to the grubby hands of dragonrider420. ‘ in one swift motion that suggests ample history with health inspectors, she brings out a photo of her favourite npc thus far – a grotesque goblin kid with pupils shaped like daggers. ‘ do you really wanna condemn this adorable baby to eternal oblivion? ‘
maybe if this was another person , camille wouldn't be so persistent , but she doesn't think she could easily let darius go . sure , she's fully aware by now that she's the fucking problem , and it's times like this that reminds her she wouldn't always get what she wants , but that doesn't mean she'd just sit back and do nothing about it . not when darius is right here , and all she could think about is how she could possibly turn back time so they would still be together —— she knows it's a little too late for that right now , but still , camille likes to believe she would've done the right thing if she was given the chance . after all you never know what you got until it's gone , right ?
his answer isn't what she hopes for , and even when he's trying to be nice about it , camille thinks he's just fucking with her right now . “ so you don't believe it , ” she remarks , feels another tear fall down her cheek . camille knows she should just bite her tongue , should just suck it up for now and gives him more time to think , but she doesn't really has any patience for that . all that she's hearing now is that darius no longer wants to be friends with her , and as much as she deserves it , it makes her more upset than anything else . god , she could feel her whole body trembling at this moment . “ why though ? ” she repeats , hands curling into ball of fists on her side . did he know that she went back to julien while he was away ? then again , it's not like they're keeping it a secret this time , she wouldn't be surprised if he knew .
“ because i don't love him , that's why . ” she breathes , “ he means nothing to me , darius . he's just some guy i fuck around with , that's all . ” and it's the truth , but it's hard to believe her words when everyone knows she's been spotted around julien grimaldi often enough that it would be ridiculous to assume otherwise , even if most of the time it's just them arguing in the middle of the street . things have always been so complicated between them anyways . “ i just didn't know what to do when you left me , ” she knows she shouldn't go back to julien though , given their history , and yet that's what she fucking did . “ well , it's true that i did go back to him , but we're already broken up at the time , so it doesn't really matter now , does it ? and please , if you don't think we'd ever be friends anymore , just fucking say it . ” it's easier for me to let you go that way .
camille sure knows how to lean into the dramatics. maybe it wasn't always a conscious decision but she drags the hurt out in the exact way he dreaded when he recognized her. “ you're in no position to make any demands from me. ” it's not meant to be a challenge but maybe his tone makes it that way. it's not like he'd be any less callous. they way she handled them built up so much resentment in himself. he's not sure where to put that hurt down. people like camille don't change overnight. the year that he was away was not enough for anything grand to take place. he thinks that maybe it's a little bit of his own fault for playing into her behavior when they were together. he did what she wanted, found ways to do it before she even asked. from where he was standing, it was princess behavior. some people don't really grow up. though it's not like he was very grown himself. “ i want to believe that at some point we could be friends again but that's all i can say for now. ” that's the thing about knowing someone so well. he's sure he's had that thought a million times over tonight. he knew her too well and it was difficult to see them at odds. she really would stand outside all night for an answer from him (they're both so stubborn). he eyes her up and down with a look of pity. julien grimaldi didn't seem to cut it for her but that was never darius' problem. “ why though? where's your white boy? ”
“ i don't even know what i was expecting —— maybe it's the fact that it's based on the making of facebook , which is kinda interesting , but not interesting enough that you wanna recommend it to someone else . and yeah , maybe i did expect it to be a lot better than that , so i get what you mean , ” she offers her two cents , followed by a chuckle . “ well , nobody that i know , but rowing for fun doesn't even sound that abnormal . it's definitely not something i would do for fun though . to each their own , right ? either way eduardo saverin deserved better . ”
˙ ៹ movie night @ charlie's place
“ to be honest , with the way people talk about this movie i think i was expecting it to be a lot better than that , “ a kernel of popcorn is tossed into her mouth , the credits to the social network rolling across the flat screen that hung against the wall of her living room . “ well . . . let me not say that ⸻ it’s not like the movie was bad , i think the winklevoss twins really just freak me the fuck out , “ her head shakes , “ seriously , what normal people do you know that row for fun ? “ ( @salvateure )
looks up from her phone when she hears the familiar voice , excitement written all over her face at the sight of jisu . “ glad i could be your knight in shining armor and save you from that boring gala , ” comes her teasing , followed by a chuckle . “ i've been good , ” it's like an automatic response , because really , what else is she supposed to say ? camille has had worse days and today feels rather mundane than anything else . “ kinda have a few days off work so i don't really know what to do , ” she laughs . it's why she has texted jisu about going out for dinner tonight , never been the type to really stay at home and do nothing . “ and i think we haven't seen each other in a while too , right ? it's really good to see you , ji . ” lips pulled into an affectionate smile . “ you look stunning , by the way . i love your dress . ”
𝗪𝗛𝗘𝗥𝗘: sake no hana ( japanese restaurant ). 𝗧𝗜𝗠𝗘: 9:12pm. 𝗙𝗘𝗔𝗧𝗨𝗥𝗜𝗡𝗚: camille addario ( @salvateure ).
lithe hands smooth over the front of her zimmerman dress, perhaps a little overdressed after leaving a gala at a nearby art gallery. she had been desperate to leave after two hours, and was happy to see the text from camille. jisu tucks a loose strand of hair behind her ear while the hostess leads her to the table, and a smile spreads once she sees the other blond. " hey! " jisu beams, thanking the hostess as she slips into the vacant seat. " i'm so glad to see you— i was losing my mind at that gala. " jisu sets her purse aside and settles her hands on her lap. " how have you been, cam? "