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Rebecca Solnit, Hope in the Dark

[transcript: 1. “god, god, what do i do/after all this survival?” 2. “he was a miracle of moving parts, a study in survival.” 3. “her suffering was her armor. gradually it became her skin. then she could not take it off.” 4. “enduring things is what you do best. gritting your teeth and bearing them.” 5. “i am going to make it through this year if it kills me/i am going to make it through this year if it kills me.” end transcript.]

traci brimhall/maggie stiefvater/jeanette winterson/han kang/the mountain goats

“Don’t we touch each other just to prove we are still here?”

— Ocean Vuong, from On Earth We’re Briefly Gorgeous

Clarice Lispector, tr. by Stefan Tobler, from Água Viva

Something about leaving

Margarita Karapanou // Richad Siken // Andrés Cerpa // Alicia Cook // @thesadghostclub // Gabriela Mistral // Alejandra Pizarnik // Madeline Miller // Alejandra Pizarnik // Richard Siken

anglerfish 

by Valeria Heine Via Flickr: facebook | website

Olivia Laing, The Lonely City

“[One day] […] there will be no one alive who has ever known me. That’s when I will be truly dead–when I exist in no one’s memory. I thought a lot about how someone very old is the last living individual to have known some person or cluster of people. When that person dies, the whole cluster dies, too, vanishes from the living memory. I wonder who that person will be for me. Whose death will make me truly dead?”

— Irvin D. Yalom, from Love’s Executioner and Other Tales of Psychotherapy (Basic Books, 1989)

Eileen Myles, "Sleepless." I Must Be Living Twice: New and Selected Poems 1975 - 2014

Nothing more can be scarier than the fact when you realise that your life isn't happening , it is just passing.

YOU GOT TO BELIEVE IN POETRY CAUSE EVERYTHING IN THIS LIFE, INCLUDING YOU WILL FAIL YOU.

you know that character you love so much? (you know – the one from that movie you always watch when you’re feeling sad the one from that show you’ve seen so many times you can quote the episodes the one from that book or comic you’ve read more times than you can count) think about how much you resonate with them how they’re like a mirror image to the way you see yourself how they empathize with pieces of your soul in ways that a real life human cannot how they feel like a representation of you you see so much of yourself in them and you love them so much so why can’t you love you too?  if you can find it in you  to look past their flaws  and see gold shining in their cracks maybe you can do the same for yourself after all if your favorite character is a reflection of you, and you love them more than words can say maybe its possible for you to love you too

(cc, 2020)

soliloquy of the solipsist, sylvia plath

A doubt arousal

I will tell you it's not me

I am a product of virtues and vacancies

The next decision I take

Isn't mine at all

It is manipulated and churned

Ask me a technical term

I will define gaslighting

While defining gaslighting

If I add few irrelevant facts

Forgive me

I already am manipulated

my next few decisions

Aren't within my control

You have me saying it

But I am trained to say so

You have me telling truth

But I am schooled to say so

You have me telling lies

But I was prepared to sell those

If your guts gave you courage

I want you to believe me

When I say believe me

If you doubt yourself right now

Do it

Wear off yourself

Do it

descrate yourself

Do it

Cleave the thoughts you holding

Do it (yourself)

Severely impotent right?

wait I know it's not you

And now you know it's not me

It as it is defined

Is gaslighting

It ain't red lettered alright ?

This definitely is narcissism.

NARCISSISM IS A RACE

“I don’t know if your story was true—you are the only person whose facts I never bothered to check.”

— Jared Singer, from Forgive Yourself These Tiny Acts of Self-Destruction

T. S. Eliot — The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock