Chat Help Why Is Developing A Character So Hard Like How Tf Would I Know What Makes This Pathetic Piece

Bestie do not pull a haruka it's not gonna work

(I'M SO SORRY IS THAT TOO DARK??? 😭😭😭)

Es better get another song this trial or else nothing is forgiven and I will kill myself 🙏🙏🙏

WOOHOO MY FIRST COMMISSION!! Tysm to @starlight-4eva for letting me draw their gorgeous OCs!! <33

Some shit I made inspired by a/during a convo with bestie 😔💔 (bestie pls use tone tags I can't read :( /hj pls use tone tags tho I do actually need them /gen)

This inspired me to draw how I think haruka would react to watching a studio ghibli film for the first time

Also here is what I think some of the prisoners fav studio ghibli films would be:

Haruka: When marnie was there (he'd either absolutely love and relate to it or FUCKING HATE IT)

at first I thought he'd like my neighbour totoro but then I immediately thought he'd actually HATE THAT because 1 - animals and 2 - Children, also he'd probably dislike the boy and heron too just because of the heron

Mahiru: howls moving castle

I don't think I need to explain, it's cute it's beautiful and it's got romance, castle in the sky is a close second

Fuuta: I actually think he wouldn't really be a big fan of ghibli films, but maybe he'd say spirited away or my neighbour totoro idk fuuta stans pls help

Mikoto: maybe castle in the sky? Or ponyo- idfk dude help I know he'd probably like ghibli films I just don't know what his fav would be

I honestly have no idea for the rest so feel free to share your own opinions on this I'd love to hear them!

Does anyone else think Haruka would really like Studio Ghibli stuff??? Like??? A lot??? Because it has that??? Feeling??? Youthful, free but not quite infantilized??? And there are themes I think he’d really like to see???

Haruka nation how the FUCK DO WE FEEL????!!!

Yea I uh, I just found out today in the middle of drawing haruka uhm

Have this drawing I'm gonna go cry myself to sleep if he's actually dead

(ALSO MAPPI NATION AND SHIDOU NATION I LOVE U GUYS THEY DID NOT DESERVE THAT SHIT IF ANYONE NEEDS A HUG OR SOMETHING JUST TELL ME)

TW for mentions and talk about suicide (attempts) regarding the text:

You know as a haruka kinnie it actually terrifies me to know that he died from the same method I was using in so far (hopefully) the last and probably most planned out attempt I had at suicide...I already was doing it so no one would've noticed and had that one person not convinced me, even if it was indirectly, I wouldn't have been here.

That was nearly a year ago and I've been doing better but every now and then I think back to the day I planned it, the relief I felt when I found out I would no longer be there and the fear that followed after that thought at the realisation that I was happy about that, the fear from the fact that I actually genuinely physically felt like a weight and a burden was taken off of my shoulders.

Makes me wonder what would've happened had someone seen through muu and reached out to him sooner.

Anyway I never showed this sketchpage did I? Sooo here, I actually drew this quite a while back but I never showed it even tho I wanted to, glad I shared it now lol

(Also don't mind the hiragana for sakurai being wrong by the time my friend pointed it out I was already done with the page-)

BEN APPRECIATION FUCK YEAH

someone give ben a raise he’s working overtime

Two posts in a day?! Woah! (Why did I lowkey think of "Green leaves...on a summers day?" When typing that tf)

Uhm anyway have some Ash and Tay art because I love them they are my sillies (This was NOT supposed to be ship art lol but view it as that if u want lol I'ma multishipper so I'm good 👍)

Also here are the sketch and one without the lighting:

So uh I made some changes to my art style and this whole thing was just me practicing with it

Also yes the one with the pink hair is aliyahsinterlude, specifically from a screenshot from IT GIRLs mv

I just thought the look ate(all of her looks do tbh) + I realised I'm not that good at shading darker skin tones so I wanted to practice on that + puffed out(?)/curly hair

Did I capture it perfectly? No. Am I still proud of it? Fuck yea, I just hope I did her justice /gen

I keep on thinking of Saiki k when I see her because her names saike 😔💅✨️

Here's a version without the power thing on her hand: