Don’t We All? Who Didn’t Want To Think Fate Had A Plan For Him, That His Hurts And Failures Had Just

I HATE-

no. we're getting the 10 minute version of all too well in about a hundred days.

I'M DONE HATING. TODAY IS ✨LOVE✨

I stare at her. “And you’re giving me this warning out of the kindness of your heart?”

She smiles. “I am giving you this warning because it doesn’t matter. You’re already doomed, Queen of Elfhame. You already love him. You already loved him when you questioned me about him instead of your own mother. And you will still love him, mortal girl, long after his feelings evaporate like morning dew.”

~ The Queen of Nothing, Holly Black.

Inej Ghafa is listening to Renegade by Taylor Swift.

The bi rep in this book is just *chef's kiss*

When I was reading the part where Alina does that vision-mind travel-connection thing with the Darkling for the first time I was like ugh this is gonna be the same old him making her feel stupid but DAMN

The "You might make me a better man." "And you might make me a monster." !!!! The "We would be equals till the day I dared to disagree with you." !!!! The "You are stronger, wiser, infinite in experience...But I am an apt pupil." !!!!!

Imagining that conversion happening in the show.

Brb screaming into the void.

Everyone has that one piece of writing that completely changes their view of the world and enlightens them. For me, it's when Margaret Atwood wrote-

"Male fantasies, male fantasies, is everything run by male fantasies? Up on a pedestal or down on your knees, it’s all a male fantasy: that you’re strong enough to take what they dish out, or else too weak to do anything about it. Even pretending you aren’t catering to male fantasies is a male fantasy: pretending you’re unseen, pretending you have a life of your own, that you can wash your feet and comb your hair unconscious of the ever-present watcher peering through the keyhole, peering through the keyhole in your own head, if nowhere else. You are a woman with a man inside watching a woman. You are your own voyeur."

I don't like that falling feels like flying till the bone crush.

~ Taylor swift, Evermore.

“We all bear scars, Dorian. Mine just happen to be more visible than most."

~Aelin Galathynius,Tog

It's the first of December and I'm trying to bring out my "in my heart is a Christmas tree farm, where the people would come/to dance under sparkling lights" feels but the allure of "hey December, guess I'm feeling unmoored/can't remember what I used to fight for" is magnetic😔

So I'll go back to L.A. and the so-called friends

Who'll write books about me, if I ever make it

And wonder about the only soul who can tell which smiles I'm fakin'

And the heart I know I'm breakin' is my own.

~'Tis the damn season