So, I'll be on a break from here for a while. Don't expect any interactions, reblogs, and especially writing. I will not be active at all, I don't know for how long. Might be weeks, might he months. Don't know.
Stay safe and please remember me,
๐our beloved ๐๐๐๐๐.
Frank Grillo as Chainsaw Angus DONNYBROOK (2018)
do you ever just โฆ.
like put me in a headlock or something damn
I WANNA FUCKING THROW UP THIS SPARKLED MY WHOLE MONTH I AM SOBBING MY BABYYYYY
MY LOVE IS BACK OH LORD---
hiiii ๐ค
wow wow i have to say i had no intentions on disappearing especially for this long, iโve had soo much going on irl and honestly still do, but iโm finally at a point where i want to try to start writing again though iโm still trying to find the inspo :(
i appreciate all the love and well wishes iโve gotten while iโve been gone!! i wonโt post them all but i have read them so thank u <3
idk if this is me coming back 100% officially but just wanted to check in and say iโm alive lmao feel free to come say hi or send ideas to spark my inspo again ๐ค ily guyss
Troy (2004) -> shades of blue.
or DL; DR
You are responsible for curating your own online experience.
If something upsets you, makes you angry or queasy or triggers you, stop reading/looking at it. Avoid things that might make you feel that way.
Learn to use the Sort and Filter function on AO3, especially the Exclude tools.
On social media, block and mute accounts / tags / words when necessary.
If you hated something, you donโt need to tell that to the creator or start pointing fingers at them publicly.
The Back button is free. Use it.
Addendum:
Yes, for this to work, creators need to tag their works accordingly, so that people know what sort of content they are about to engage with and can nope out if necessary.
I will probably make another PSA about the importance of proper tagging later.
or SALS
You are allowed to ship whatever you want.
Everyone else is also allowed to ship whatever they want.
You are entitled to dislike or even hate a ship. If you want to do this online, in public, donโt use the ship tags for hate posts.
If you see someone posting about a ship they like and you donโt, there is no need for you to start arguing with them in their replies / comments / QRTs / reblogs. Donโt throw your hate in their face.
Do not harass fan creators or fans for shipping something you disapprove.
All of this also applies to liking / disliking an individual character.
Addendum:
โI agree with this, except whenโฆโ
No, then you are NOT agreeing with this.
Let me make this VERY clear. There are NO exceptions. None.
You donโt EVER harass real people over pixels.
If you disagree with this, kindly block and move on.
orย YKINMK / YKINMKATO
The longer version is โYour Kink Is Not My Kink And Thatโs Okayโ.
People have different tastes. Not everything is for everybody.
Even if you donโt like a specific kink, other people are still allowed to use it in their creations.
You are entitled to dislike kinky content and think that itโs โweirdโ.
Donโt kink shame or judge people based on their kinks.
This goes both ways: your kink is not someone elseโs kink, so donโt push it onto those who are not into it.
or Donโt Be An Asshole
Focus on the things you like instead of the things you hate.
Create and unite instead of destroying and dividing.
Donโt harass real people over fictional things.
Stop stirring up petty drama just to get some attention on social media.
Stop trying to โwinโ. Fandom is not a competition.
Remember that your own experiences arenโt universally shared. Your perception of things can differ from someone elseโs, but that doesnโt mean either of you is necessarily wrong.
BAMBI FOR THE WIN!!! (Love ALL OF YOU)
espresso red wine ribbon bambi cal. bitch
เน You are not here by accident. You like it when it hurts a little. Or a lot. Either way, come and revendicate your shade. How do you know which shade is yours? Well, below you wil find the types of readers I write for. And bleed for. Find out which one you are and let me know แ
เน Remember: you are much beloved and cherished by me. โฆ
เน Find out more about your author (me) here.
ESPRESSO.แreader
โ Fast-scrolling, and emotionally masochistic โ Has trauma AND a superiority complex โ Obsessed with mind games โ Would genuinely punch the character back if she would get hit โ Sharp-tongued โ Gets off on power imbalance scenes and calls it โcharacter developmentโ โ Favorite color is black. Or rust. Nothing pastel. โ Rage buried under control โ Keeps her brightness on the lowest setting. Reads the worst parts twice. โโ Guilt is a second skin for her. โโ Sheโs been through shit sheโll never type out, but my fics? They speak in her language. โโ Addicted to the ache. Canโt stop chasing the darker scenes โโ Eyes that havenโt slept properly in weeks โโ If she doesnโt feel something brutal, she doesnโt feel at all โโ One hand gripping the laptop, the other ready to throw it
RED WINE.แreader
โ Elegant but unhinged โ Reads slowly and feels everything deeplyโquotes passages religiously. โ Trauma romanticizer with a soft spot for broken men who lie well โ Loves candlelit danger, men with blood on their hands, and slow psychological decay โ She notices everything. โ Leaves long, emotional tags in reblogs โ Closet sadist. Emotional devastation is foreplay. โ Never acts while angry or sad, admirable strenght and great posture. โ Has old voicemails saved sheโll never play again. โโ Reads in silence, like itโs a funeral. โโ Violent scenes do not shock her. Gentle ones do. โโ Knows how to make excuses for people who hurt her. โโ A little bitter, a little romantic, a little exhausted โโ Doesnโt cry often, but when she does itโs ugly and quiet and late โโ Comes to dark fiction to find something she canโt say out loud: โItโs not okay, and Iโm not over it.โ
RIBBON.แreader
Craves pretty words and brutal truths in the same breath Was told she was too emotionalโso now she bleeds in private Her playlists sound like drowning in a flower field Stares at one sentence for ten minutes like it owes her something Sees love as a tragic myth but still hopes for it Too gentle for this world, too self-aware to leave it Romanticizes her pain because itโs the only way it makes sense Sews herself back together with lyrics, dialogue, and soft terror Doesnโt want to be rescuedโjust understood Finds beauty in characters falling apart gracefully Sheโs never yelled, but her silence is deafening She wants to be hurt gently. To be ruined with care. NO ONE would guess she reads fics this dark. Reads not to escape, but to understand the ache in her ribs.
BAMBI.แreader
She tells people sheโs okay. She even tells herself. But she seeks out fiction that makes her heart race for all the wrong reasons. She wants to be seen, but never found. She grew up too fast and too quietly. Sleeps with a light on, but only reads in the dark. Baby face, brutal tastes Soft voice, sensitive soul but dirty imagination Carries everyone elseโs weight. Fiction is where she drops it. Trauma survivor in disguise. Nobody knows what sheโs seen. Reads victim-coded fics because she just understands. Wants the monster to love her just a little. She thinks if she can handle it on screen, she can handle it in real life Afraid of him, but keeps reading Flinches when voices get too loud Sleeps with the door locked Kind because no one was to her Doesn't trust happy endings
CALIFORNIA BITCH.แreader
Fucks instead of crying Doesn't read warnings. Loves lollipops. Will literally not be ashamed of what she wants and supports, in fact, she would scream them from a microphone and a stage Heart of the party Requests five fics, and constantly refreshes the page to see if they got posted Gets needy and wet by just imagining the character Built like a femme fatale Looks mean, but is actually sweet. Kind of a bimbo.
thank you SO much for reading and reblogging baby, I LOVE feeding dark fics to my people โก
WE DRANK LOYALTY IN VINES...
...BUT YOURS TURNED TO BLOOD IN MY MOUTH.
โ word count: 1.1 K
โ pairings: dark! Sam Wilson x reader | dark! Bucky Barnes x reader (implied) | Joaquin Torres x reader | โถโถโถ
โ warnings: dark dark dark content, 18+ MDNI | violence; power imbalance; phsychological horror; blood: restraints; threats; mentions of rape; mentions of domestic violence; mentions of forced infertility; dacryphilia; swear words, my work is dark and triggering. You are responsible for your own media consumption.
โ author's note: i've finished this in ONE sitting, wow. I loved CABNW and this occured in my mind as soon as I finished watching it. Reblogs, comments, and more REQUESTS are appreciated. BUCKY BARNES MASTERLIST | MAIN MASTERLIST |
โ tags: my soul sister @highonmarvel xxx | If you want to be added to my taglist, let me know. I love you all so so much! Thank you for reading!
Oaxaca, Mexico
You had never believed that the sun might shine over you again, but here you were, strolling peacefully through the bustling market, a woven basket nestled in the crook of your arm, its handle tangled in your fingers. Your gaze lingered on the ripe, sun-kissed fruitโ apricots, blushing peaches, nectarines, and ruby-red strawberriesโwhile the air swelled with their honeyed fragrance, laced with the mellow sweetness ofโฆplums.
Even after almost one year, the scent rose stripes of terror up your spine, and whenever you saw their blueโburgundy color, the broken ribs, the slaps, the punches, even his gaze flooded your mind altogether.
The anxiety attacks were fewer, shorter and less frightening every week, but your previous life still lingered in the back of your head. The wounds were long healed, but small scars were visible here and thereโup your arms towards your shoulders, on your thighs, littlest ones on the crook of your neck and up your jaw and one people wereโฆnot able to see. After he took your freedom, broke your will, terrorized you even of your own shadow, he took your right and your ability ofโฆever having a family of your own. Your pained gaze often fell upon children around your house, in the village and it was like his reminder that said โI did this to you. Youโll never have one of your own.โ, and it always made you turn your head away from them nauseously.
You never thought you'd be able to flee James Barnes, you thought it was impossible and it truly was. But some divine force must have helped you gain the bravery you never knew was inside you, and guided you all the way here, in this forgotten speck on the map.
The bells of the wide church โthe only major social point in the town, situated right next to the marketโ rang loudly, in an oddly comforting way and you inhaled deeply as you adjusted the long skirts of your summer dress.
A loud explosion interrupted your beautiful life, and you fell on the road. Dust, mud and pulp of crushed, rotten fruit from the ground stained your new dress and you let out a broken sob when you also saw blood on your palms. Small cuts lingered on the raw skin, and you struggled to get up. The freshly bought fruit were long forgotten in the dirt as you looked disorientated around and your teary eyes caught a pair of coal black ones.
Your heart leapt out of your ribcage when you remembered the face. Sam Wilson, a shadow from your past, was Jamesโ best friend. His eyes glinted when he recognized you. He was like a falconโyou never doubted his superhero nameโand you were most afraid to hide away from him back then when you ran.
You never got the chance to see the smirk that planted on his face because of how swift you turned your head away, somehow pleading to the divine force to help you again and make him forget your features. But a man about your age already got his orders about you.
Joaquin Torres furrowed his brows in confusion when he heard Captain America's orders.
"So let me get this straightโ you want me to gather all the bad guys and jus' throw them in the cars myself, man? Are-are you sure 'bout this?", the young man asked, looking around him.
"Do you think you can handle them?", came the voice from the other side of the phone to which Joaquin nodded vigorously to himself, then replied affirmatively and maybe too excitedly.
"Good, we'll meet at the agreed location in short time. Iโ", finished the older man, looking at the tiny, cozy cottage before his eyes, "โhave some business to take care of."
You were stuffing clothing items in a bag with one hand and with the other you were looking through the bedside cabinet for your passport and cash. Tears ran down your face ever since you arrived home from the market and you simply couldn't stop them, despite the will to do so.
You zipped up the bag and you pulled on a pair of clean shorts and a large tee with leafy hands and then you climbed down the stairs. Regret, anger, fear, all these ate at you.
"It's good to see you again, honeybee!"
You almost stumbled across the last stair when the words hit you. Your lungs were rejecting the oxygen as more tears fell when your eyes caught the ones you knew so well.
His hands were carelessly caressing the chair before him, his gaze sticked on your trembling figure.
"You know, I really hoped to catch a glimpse of the pretty sight standing in front of me now earlier, it would've spared my pal of much suffering."
"Suffering?", you whispered, finding the voice under all the bitterness in your throat. "H-he suffered? He was the one t-that suffered?"
"Oh, and how he did. He refused to eat the week you left, he barely slept for months, he spent millions on men, private detectives, all types of shit just to find you. I also highly doubt he fucked since you decided to disappear into thin air."
Your face contorted into a disgusted grimace as you took a small step back.
"Honeybeeโ", Sam growled as he started approaching you, "โI'd reallyyy like to give you a nice, lil' chance to get the fuck outta this house and go back with me, but I'm afraid you lost that right looong ago."
You couldn't even resist when his rough, confident grip fell over your freshly healed wrists, and when you felt your back pressed into his broad, sculpted chest, a whimper escaped your lips.
Sam bent you on the counter and your face fell into the flowers you picked from your garden in the morning and you tried to block everything, simply not wanting to believe this was happening. You really believed you would be free and at peace, protected and joyful for the rest of your life. How pathetic and far away those hopes sounded. Scratchy plastic secured your hands together as Sam grabbed the back of your neck and pulled you up against him again. He knocked the door open with his foot and started pulling you out of your comforting shelter.
"Sam, I am begging you, don't t-take me back to him, pleaseeee.", you started crying as he forced you outside your home. "You can't d-do this t-to me, Sam, you can't! Y-you were my...my friend, too."
Sam slapped his palm across your mouth to muffle the screams, or maybe to stop the words that made him feel so guilty from coming. "I am James' friend, not yours. My loyalty is his, and everything you've done hurt him. Now it's jus' fair you suffer too, ain't it?". These words hurt more than anything he did until now. Sam knew what Bucky did, he had seen the bruises, he had heard the cries, yet he had done nothing against it. And maybe that unsettled you, but now? Now he was forcing you into the wolf's fangs, and it felt completely different.
Your lost eyes caught one of your neighbors, Ms. Solรญs , at the window. Another whimper escaped you pleadingly, directed to her, but she did not dare to do anything. Nobody ever did.
Your knees buckled under your own weight, and you collapsed in the dust despite Sam's grip. You heard him scowl and his hand came to the back of your shirt. He gripped it and pulled you up against his body again. You sobbed and you tried to elbow him but Sam was swifter. He caught your tied limbs and grasped. "Fuckin' walk, bitch. Bucky would want to teach you to behave first, but I don't mind starting myself right now, you hear me?". The threat made you cry harder and when Sam gripped your arms even harsher you nodded weakly. What Sam was doing to you felt like a short training considering what would wait for you back in New York.
A black SUV was parked there, behind some wide Madrone bushes. Your heart was beating so fast you thought it might just burst right there. You hoped that, if you were to be honest.
"S-sam, just know th-that if you're taking me back....he'll k-kill meโ", you tried calling Sam's mercy out one last time. He just turned his head away, letting your words fall into the abyss of desperation and nothingness.
A younger man peeked from behind the vehicle. His smile dropped when he saw your trembling form. His eyes darted from the blood on your chin to your restrained and bruised arms. Hair was cascading over your face and your lower lip trembled as you fought with yourself to stop the sobs and whimpers. Joaquin thought you were so beautiful. So, why were you here in this state?
"Whoa, man, what's happening? What did she do?" Joaquin started, coming closer to you with raised hands, showing you you don't have to be afraid of him. You still flinched when his caring hands came in contact with your pained limbs.
"Leave her as she is, Joaquin...", said Sam and you looked desperately at the man your age. He furrowed his brows and looked at his superior. "B-butโ"
"You wanna be the next Falcon, don't you?" Sam asked, patting the younger man on the shoulder.
"Yes, of course I do!"
"Thenโ", Sam started again, looking into the boys' eyes, "โyou gotta learn to close your eyes at certain things. These are the stories media don't care about, you hear me? The majority of people get saved, everybody's happy, but you should know there are...collateral victims. And she's one of 'em. Now, buddy, if you really wanna be an Avenger...put her in the car."
Joaquin took a big step back, accidentally bumping into you. He quickly caught you, preventing your body from falling again, and then looked back at Sam, which raised his brows and his hands, as if he was giving Joaquin an offer he couldn't refuse. And Joaquin didn't refuse it.
He opened the car door and he tried to carefully place you in the backseat. " 'm sorry, so sorry...", he mumbled as he gave you the pill Sam told him to. "This'll help ya sleep, okay?"
"P-please, please help meโ', you cried, looking into his regretful eyes as he forced the drug past your lips.
"Shh, shhh...you'll be jus' fine, 'kay? Be good now, pleaseโ".
You knew you will be anything but fine. Sam and Joaquin both entered the car and as Joaquin was starting it, Sam dialed a number and put the phone on speaker.
"Buck, I think I've found somethin' that's yours, buddy. And you'll be really thrilled to see it...", Sam laughed, smirking at you in the reviewing mirror.
The quietness that followed the sentence was short, but dense.
"Hello, doll...", came the voice from the other side of the phone, and its maliciousness and calmness made your whole body shiver. He knew you were there. He was sure of it somehow. You felt his presence right there, in Sam's deeds, in the dark sky, in your rapid, choked sobs, in your heavy lids.
That fucking nickname wrote right then, right there the end of your world and marked the beginning of the Frightening New World.
My name is ๐๐๐๐๐, I'm European and I am a young soul. This is what you have to know about me:
๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐(๐): Burgundy, Maroon, Scarlett, Navy Blue, Forest Green, Baby Blue, Baby Pink.
๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐(๐): COFFEE. And Granita.
๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐: Ribbons and bows. Biceps. Vogue routines filmed by celebrities. Hailey Bieber. Water. Older men. Cats. Leopards. Dark clouds and storms. Nighttime. Early mornings and crisp air. Pines. Perfume. Mascara. Spicy chicken burgers. Wired earphones. Purses. Short skirts. Large shirts. Sunglasses. The moon and stars. Lacy underwear. Showers. Curly hair. Pinterest. Messages and asks (on tumblr). Gum. Mangoes. Pop Music. Polaroids.
๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐: Feminism, history, geography, philosophy, phsychology, literature, poetry, mathematics.
๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐: Chris Evans, Brad Pitt, Daniel Day-Lewis, Frank Grillo, Tom Hiddleston, Heath Ledger, Jodie Foster, Demi Moore, Jonathan Rhys Meyers, Natalie Portman, Aaron Taylor Johnson, Henry Cavill, Tom Hardy, Colin Farrell, Sebastian Stan, Angelina Jolie.
๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐: Rafe Cameron, Steve Rogers, William Wallace, Achilles, Brock Rumlow, Pietro Maximoff, Wanda Maximoff, Natasha Romanoff, Tony Stark, Thor Odinson, Loki Laufeyson, Sarah Cameron, Emperor Geta, Marcus Acacius, Andrew Barber, Ari Levinson, Curtis Everett, Nick Fowler, Lloyd Hansen, Steve Abnesti, August Walker, Walter Marshall, Cyrus Hanks, Benjamin Martin.
๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐: ๐ ๐๐ฅ๐ฉ๐๐, Outer Banks, Pedro Pascal, Chris Evans, Lana del Rey, Chris Hemsworth.
๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ?: The darkened side of the human nature has always fascinated me, and I believe that by writing what I write, I will understand how it works even better so I decided to share with you what is blooming in my mind, to explore new points of view and to not just let my creativity die. Writing is also my coping mechanism.
๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ (๐๐๐๐๐๐) ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ?: No, actually, not at all. It is a response to the trauma and issues I have, I do not find what my characters do attractive. It is only for creative and fictional purposes. DO YOUR RESEARCH about this topic, it is not my bussines to explain how dark writers and readers' minds work.
๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ?: It depends. If I feel inspired by it, I will write it in one hour or one day. If the request doesn't really appeal to me, I will delay it and prioritize what inspires me. Some requests really inspire me, but I take more time with them, because I'm a perfectionist and I want them to turm out good.
๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ?: If you are following me for a good amount of time now, you will know pretty well my love for @highonmarvel. I could write pharagraphs about her. Also, my Pedro side is dedicated to @pedrosyouknowwhat, her talent is brilliant. My mother, literally, is @rvfecamerons, she inspired me to write for Rafe. Her writing and talent is out-of-this-world.
๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ?: OH, I LOVE asks. People really don't understand how important their support is, every single encouraging message or comment warm my heart and help me keep going.
๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐/๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ?: You can ask me to talk about certain celebrities, about my fics, about a character, about life experiences, but I will definitely not reply to very intimate questions. Hate is also gross, just scroll and block me if you do not like what I say or write. Literally.
๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ?: The Tortured Poets Department, Midnights, Born to Die, Lust for Life, Eternal Sunshine, Evermore, Folklore, Hit Me Hard and Soft.
๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ?: Lana del Rey, Taylor Swift, ABBA, Gracie Abrams, The Neighbourhood, Arctic Monkeys, Ariana Grande. THESE ARTISTS INSPIRE ME. IF YOU DO NOT HAVE RESECT FOR THEM, GO AHEAD AND BLOCK ME.
(๐๐๐๐๐๐๐) ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐: The Albatross, I Can Fix Him (No Really I Can), The boy is mine, Video Games, Cherry, Forever Young.
๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ?: No.
๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐/๐๐๐๐๐๐๐: Visit the world. Become an influencer. Kiss someone. Interview a celebrity. Move out of my town. Get a therapist. Record a music video. See the Grand Canyon. Buy a polaroid camera. Be Tumblr famous. Finish all my requests and series. A speech in public. Punch a man in the face.
โฆ I will put the warnings ahead of each piece of fanfiction. Keep in mind that my work contains triggering elements such as nonconsensual sex; abusive relationships; sexual/mental/physical abuse; violence; harassment; sex trafficking; abduction; age gap; power dynamics and possible other dark themes. Proceed with caution. This blog is not for minors. You are responsible for your own media consumption.
โถ I will only write female reader / I will only write dark content โถ I will only write the elements written above in my warnings, nothing else, and for sure, nothing that includes underage relationships or gory elements, A/B/O dynamics or something that includes supranatural creatures such as vampires, werewolfs etc.
โถ If you do not like my content, you are free to just scroll away. Do not send hate.
โถ Do not message me for requests, send them via inbox.
โถ I love getting to know other writers, so if you want to know each other or to co-write sonething, you can message me.
โถ Do not translate or repost my work without my consent. Reblogs, likes, comments and asks are always appreciated and needed.
โถ I love yapping and chatting, so you can send asks about certain fics, movies, series, history or celebrities.
โถ other important links: MASTERLIST / CHARACTER LIST /
ยฉthehydraethereal 2025. My work might contain triggering elements. You are responsible for your media consumption. Do not translate or repost my work without my consent.
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