The Worst Part About Being From A Source That Has A Fandom Where I'm Constantly Sexualized Or Put Down

So, apparently there is a neighborhood (?) around where I live in Ohio. The place is called "Coonville", which is located around this complex of apartments. Coonville is literally a fricking light pole and I am not kidding. At this moment (for however long it takes for our mayor to get it off), it is a location on *Google*. They plan on trying to get it off of it b/c it is essentially racist (because of the name). It's also listed as historical. However, the only historical evidence of anyone apparently 'living' there is a man's obituary. His name is Charles E. Coon, who had died in 1894 in his home. *In Coonville.* He had been a pioneer of the county of where Coonville is and had been living there for 45 years.

Apparently, from what my grandmother said, there is nothing else that pops up for historical reasonings why this neighborhood is relevant. No one can tell you why it's listed as historical or even how it ended up just being a thing. Nobody even knows *what it is*. They call it an "another type of entity" along with a possible neighborhood. I thought that when Ohio started being memed as a cryptid state, that it was a joke. I don't think it's a joke anymore, guys. This is the most cryptid thing I've heard from our history.

I don't know why, but I have a distinct memory of me hating my arm hair. I have so much, at least more than I thought was normal for someone who was AFAB. It wasn't that I got bullied for it, I just had a distinct hatred for it. However, now, I'm just admiring it with the surprised Pikachu face. I think being a transgender man and just loving how easy it is for me to grow a mustache or more arm hair just makes me more appreciative of it.

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We have made a new server on Discord that’s a combination of a roleplay server and a hangout server. With~: 

A (Makeshift) Verification System

It’s Own Deity Census

An Coquette/Lolita/Dreamy/Ethereal Aesthetic

Voice Channels (For Hanging Out or Just Listening to Music, or even Gaming)

A Daily QOTD (that will start when more members come in)

Pluralkit for Systems!

Multiple Roleplay Channels

It's called The Lovely Lounge ~♥! The roleplay channels can be accessed once you have a character submitted. Though, if you wanted to watch without making a character, there is also a spectator role! If you wish to join, please DM us and ask for the invite! Thank you very much for reading, and enjoy your time if you do decide to join.

this shit sucks.

i did a tarot reading, like, a month ago. at least. I can't remember the cards I pulled but I do remember what it meant. basically, the first card meant that I was going to earn/receive a new connection (whether that be a person or a hobby, i'm unsure, but it was a future love reading). the second card meant that there would be a struggle bc of time differences, or we wouldn't have enough time to spend with each other or to fully talk. the third one meant that we would persevere and it did say something else, but i forgot what.

we literally JUST met a fellow system i think yesterday. im falling for one of the alters, but we're all kind of drawn to them and it seems that we share a brain cell.

i lit my god candles (mainly for Loki and Hades). Hades came by and was comforting us. we talked to him abt it and he said that it was a probable yes that this system is our new connection.

i'm so unsure but LIKE i'm so scared of it happening. now i'm in a crisis, or that's what it feels like. -Silas

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Name: Chrissy Age: 19 years old Sign Off: 👠 Pronouns: She/They Sexuality: Sapphic Bisexual Species: Human Source: Brainmade

Relationship Status: Single Height: 5' 4" Nationality: Korean American Role: Internal Self-Helper, Comforter Religion: Agnostic <3 Family: N/A Fun Fact: Very obsessed with the McBling/Y2K aesthetic.

Touch: Ask first, please! Pet Name(s): Depends on the tone! Nickname(s): Again, depends on the tone! Ask To Front: If you want to have a party or just some good fun, then sure. Extra: N/A

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We just had a realization about something, and I have no idea how we managed to think about this. Like, everyone knows about the backrooms. You fall into them at a random time, place, and everything in between. Well, we have been invested in it for awhile now. No lore or anything, just the concept of it and what we would do there. When we were younger, we remember just laying in bed. We constantly day dreamed about random things, whether they be happy things, sad things, horror things. Well, one day dream we remember is that one day, our bed would just fall through the floor and into the void. That's it. That's where it stayed, we just kept day dreaming about day dreaming in our bed that was falling in the void.

My cousin and I were talking about Deadpool. She asked me if Deadpool could feel pain, and this is how it went: Me: "He can feel pain, yeah," My Cousin: "And his arms can grow back? Like with his baby hands-" Me: "Actually, his whole baby can grow back-." I meant to say that his arms/body can grow back, but I forgot what I was saying.

It's been 21 days since the start of the autumn equinox. I have slipped from my dreamcore/weirdcore/indie/kidcore/clowncore era to the obsession of cottage gore and fairy grunge. A new record? Perhaps.

Sometimes my gender identity is just the infinite black void

girlies, boylies, and binlies, i am struggling. i can spend the entire day giving good comebacks, whether they're corny or not. i can speak my mind and that can include good flirting words. i can even be the most adorable werewolf this earth has ever seen. I CANNOT FOR THE LIFE OF ME FLIRT WHEN IM TIRED. i can't even be like.. a brat. and it's not that i haven't tried, i just feel so disgusted like what is that?? is there just a certain time that something switches in my brain and i cannot function. -Silas