voice-of-bennuma
D.L. Lane
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To everyone: please do not use my "asks" or any other way of messaging or mentioning me, in order to ask me to donate to you, or to help promote your donation requests.
1. If you genuinely need help and are not involved in a scam, I wish you all the best and pray that you can find real help, even if it isn't what you expect. HOWEVER...
2. I cannot reblog or otherwise promote any fundraising requests without first researching each and every single one, to determine not only whether the request is legitimate, but also whether or not a person requesting aid is using a legitimate site and not one that may be scamming them. I currently am mentally and emotionally unable to put in the time and effort required for such research, so therefore I can neither validate nor recommend any fundraising efforts from anyone.
3. I personally am unable to donate to anybody, because I simply do not have money. I myself am destitute and in need of funds. I cannot in good conscience attempt to compete with all the people who are simply asking for donations, but one day maybe if people wish to help support my writing, I hope to earn enough with it to get by.
Please don't anyone hold this against me; it doesn't mean that I don't care, and it does not mean that I think everyone is scamming, and it does not mean I am against people trying to raise funds for their families or other causes. I'm just stating what my limits currently are, and why it is wasted effort for anyone to ask me to donate or to help them promote their fundraising.
Guess What?
I finally finished another section of my WIP novel set in my fantasy world called Bennuma, work-in-progress titled as "The Crossing" ...check it out @bennuma-crossing (newest part labeled "3.3" as in, chapter 3, section 3)
Also, as I tend to do, I have added the same to my old blog on Blogspot/Blogger, just in case anyone might prefer reading long posts from that sort of format instead of on Tumblr (easier to locate the oldest posts instead of scrolling all the way down through them all, if you are new to the story)
Someone makes an appearance who hasn't been seen yet in this story. :)
BTW
...I have noticed the results of the poll I did before, asking about what Legends-of-Bennuma -related things people might like to see... I have put it next on my list for the Legends ( @legends-of-bennuma ), to write a bit (more?) about the geography of the world. Also, when I locate where I may have hidden my digital copies of Bennuma art somewhere down in my backup files, I will share some... and when I get more art, which I will eventually.
In the meantime, if anyone is interested, there's a short... episode(?) of my (original) fairy tales blog @onceuponasoup featuring further adventures of Duck.
Will do more writing when I can focus on it, have been having an extended difficult time with it, but absolutely not giving up.
Fairy Tales
Oldschool Fairy Tales from pre-industrial times: "These are cautionary stories for all ages, and also reminders that sometimes life is terrible for no good reason at all, or just makes zero sense."
Fairy Tales from the 1900s: "These are kids' stories where we try to teach that everything in life has meaning and moral lessons, and that if you work hard, believe in yourself, and are basically a good person, then you WILL be successful in life."
Me now: "The oldschool nonsense tales had it right, and basically all the other stuff is a lie."
(To be fair, I do believe that people should work hard, should believe in themselves, and should be basically good people because those are things that make life tolerable... I'm just convinced now that doing those things is no guarantee of success and that "anyone who says differently is selling something"
...also, I think it's weird when people make edits that seem to suggest that statement is in any way inspirational. It's not 'inspiring', it's just realism. It may be comforting sometimes to know that life is terrible for a lot of people out there and even if a person's suffering is unique to them, they're still not the only one suffering... but to act like that's uplifting in some way is weird to me.)
Legends of Bennuma poll
Ok, first time I've done an actual poll here on tumblr, testing it out...
(refer to @legends-of-bennuma for reference)
wip novel part 3.2 !
Got the next part of my wip novel up in @bennuma-crossing !
I gotta say here, I really really really enjoy switching pov characters from time to time because I absolutely love exploring the ways that different characters will look at things differently from each other, see others in varying ways, and spend their time thinking about different things. If you like that sort of thing, too, please check out my story. :)
Also, as always, if anyone prefers blogspot format for reading long posts, it's also here:
(someday I might make my own website or put my writing in other places to make it more widely accessible, but for now it's just in those two places)
This is awesome.
Congrats to whoever made that cake, I know that sort of thing is not as easy as people sometimes make it look on tv.
3. (regarding this particular meme usage) Totally why I might come across better when writing, because I can edit it however many times I want before people read it.
When I do the same while speaking, people wonder why I am saying the same thing over again multiple times in slightly different ways... not understanding that's how I sound in real time when compulsively editing myself, because I speak the way I write, not vice versa.
(part of why I sometimes say written English is like my first language, and spoken English my second)
(also this only took me a few minutes to write, but although I lost count, I am fairly certain that I made at least several dozen edits to this and may have to do a few more before posting since I wrote this bit)
WIP novel progress
(see @bennuma-crossing for most recent and all previous sections of the story, skip pinned intro post if desired)
Starting chapter 3 of my WIP-titled story "The Crossing" ...about a camp of people who fled a bronze-age equivalent war zone in a magic-deprived portion of a fantasy world, who come across a traveler from a different (magic-rich) part of the world, who shows up and helps the people from the camp when they need it most, only asking to travel with them in return.
Who is this stranger, where did she come from, and what is her real objective? How will they find a new home where they can live in peace and safety, and what part will be played by the (arguably) most broken man in the camp?
(note: though originally intended to be an adventure story, future chapters may contain a love story, but rest assured I will be keeping it SFW)
also, if anyone happens to prefer blogspot format for reading long posts, you can find the same story on my blog here:
Done. Did It.
It has been a very common thing in my life, that the list of things that I need to accomplish on any given day, will far surpass what I am capable of actually accomplishing.
At the end of the day, it's easy for me to get overwhelmed by all the things I hadn't managed to cross off the list, especially when other things that hadn't started out on my list crop up during the day and end up taking place of priority for legitimate reasons.
So, although I may have spent all day keeping busy doing things that needed to be done and having minimal break time, I may have ended up accomplishing almost nothing that was on my list at the beginning of the day.
At such times, I've found it is helpful for me to keep a list of the things I did that day, everything I did accomplish regardless of whether it was on my "To Do" list or not. Seeing my "Done" or "Did it" list at the end of the day can help me feel less like a failure, and focus on the positive-ness of having spent the day accomplishing things that were worth doing.
Worth a try for anyone who may experience some of the same anxieties about never having enough time for everything that needs to be done.
Was wishing there was a positivity post for original fiction writers since I see so many about how fanfic writers are doing so much for their communities even when they're not actively writing, and then I thought:
Be the change you want to see in the world.
So this is a positivity post for the writers out here who are working very hard on stories with no established community. Who can't talk about their blorbos and plot lines and brainstorming to anyone and expect them to know what any of it means. Who don't have much to share publicly, but are hoping they will one day.
You're doing a lot of hard work, and I recognize and appreciate what you're putting into the world, even when you're resting.
Huzzah!
So, btw... I have another blog for writing stuffs, it's fairy tale soup for when I can't focus on my more serious writing and play with short stories old-school styles.
Duck.
"Never shall I Ever be a Soup!"
Illustration for the opening story @onceuponasoup
Digital painting using GIMP :)
writing!
Chapter 2 part 6 of my WIP novel with the work-in-progress title "The Crossing" is up. See @bennuma-crossing for the blog.
If anyone prefers reading long posts in blogger/blogspot format, see the following:
Had this keychain for years, I forget where I got it. Anyway, it sums a lot up in a far more concise way than I ever managed to on my own.
I've been thinking...
hypothetically... if I self-identify as reclusive, and actually start telling people that and own the fact that is part of who I am and suggest that people should accept it as 'normal' for me...
...then am I, in fact, going INTO a 'recluse' closet, rather than coming 'out' of one?
Basically, am I more of a "closet recluse" if I am 'in' the closet about it, or out of it?
(I'm really the same me either way, so I guess that's what matters most.)
Anyway, it just strikes me as funny, the way the semantics look to me in a visually-interpolated way. Wouldn't a closet recluse be someone who pretends not to be, and thus is not hiding in a closet? On the other hand, owning it can be like hiding in a closet, asking people not to open the door?
ok, bye bye (for now)
found footage
Some people seem to think that the world does not yet have enough faux-found-footage fake-umentary style fiction films.
I disagree.
Rotisserie Chicken
Do you ever feel like one, when you are trying to sleep but constantly wake up and are feeling too warm and have to turn over every time?
Also: Have posted section 2.5 of my WIP novel in my own personal fantasy world of Bennuma, for which I have done extensive world-building. This currently-working-on WIP novel is working-titled as "The Crossing" and can be found @bennuma-crossing
This is how I always want to be.
(oops, so... I accidentally re-blogged this to my other blog, when I meant to send it here... so apologies for me being clumsy but I will try to delete it from the other one so I can keep my wip book blog uncluttered)
Warm torso, cold head.
the Crossing story update
Have posted next section of my current WIP novel, section 2.3
If interested, that blog is @bennuma-crossing
Have a lovely week.
Writing is Life
If writing is life to you, then you have a right to identify as a writer.
New Year's Declaration: I am a writer. I know this because I need to write, I am not ok when I can't write, or am otherwise prevented from writing. It doesn't matter whether anyone else likes my writing, but I do want to share it in case someone might like my stories. Likewise I don't care whether anyone says I can't call myself a writer if I haven't yet achieved official publication status or monetary compensation for my writing. Visual artists can call themselves artists because they create art, regardless of whether they have achieved a status of supporting themselves at it professionally. I believe in the same for writers. If you write and really care about your writing, then you are a writer if you want to be and believe you are, if writing is a part of you, in your soul.
New Year's Resolution: I resolve to no longer apologize to anyone for doing what I have to do in order to be able to keep writing, and commit to writing. If I don't keep in touch with people as much as they want, if I don't take care of my health as much as people think I should, if there is any other thing that I have to do or not do in order to keep writing, that is for me to decide, and no one else. It doesn't matter if people don't understand why I do the things I do; if it helps me to keep writing, then it is necessary for me, even at the expense of other things. I will not accept guilt based on anyone else wishing I were different. I have to be who I am.
Besides, there's not much else I can reasonably do anymore anyway. I have to write.
Writing is Life.
I know I have OCD issues...
...when I edit a tiny part of a larger section of writing for something small, but have to re-read over the entire thing several times in a row in order to check for typos; and the nagging feeling that I've missed one remains. This after having already done so many times back when the section was originally posted, and... also when it was originally written out prior to making a blog post for it.
One-question survey
Re: my Bennuma Crossing story
(which btw has a new update, section 2.2 posted (aka chapter 2, second part)
Intro:
Assuming that a fair proportion of followers to this blog are actually followers of The Crossing story ( @bennuma-crossing ) ...and that no one has bothered to follow that blog because they are following this one instead, because I tend to make posts here when I update that story, and random comments or whatever else (including unrelated things) goes in here so that I won't clutter up that blog...
(I could be wrong, but otherwise I have no clue why anyone at all actually follows this blog)
The Question:
Would people reading The Crossing prefer if I post relatively short story sections, in order to attempt to post more frequently? Or, do people prefer to have long sections to read, even if it means they are posted less frequently?
Please reply via comments, choosing one or more of the following multiple choice answers:
"please post more frequently, even if they are short sections"
"please post long sections, even if they are infrequent"
"I choose to write some other kind of comment for some reason"
"What are you even talking about? What is this blog anyway?"
klmklfnvjuiawehbn CSNzvzfzevoivwakpo zlk vcn dv (translation: "I am a cat." )
I feel like a cat
when the first thing I think about when I wake up is what am I going to eat...
and the second thing I think about is when is the next time I am going to sleep.
The Crossing - Chapter 2
First section of Chapter 2 now up, over @bennuma-crossing
Sorry to anyone who may actually be reading along, for it taking me so long. I had such a difficult time focusing on this section, but........... Brylin had to show up and be introduced sometime. Perhaps she will amuse some people; in any case, I think that getting her take on some things should be useful since the various characters view each other in different ways.
Nina also makes an appearance... which amuses me more.
art
note:
art for my blogs is credit to Ada St. of @creatures-by-ada-street ...which was for a time called Ada St. WIPs because of being mainly a blog of in-progress art?
Anyway, all drawings, photographs, and logo designs I am currently using on my blogs are by Ada St.