Unseen episode where you all go to space target? đ
When I say that Echo buys Crosshair novelty toothpicks I mean toothpicks like the ones I found at target today and just had to buy bc they reminded me of Cross
young!silco x gn!reader - 3.6k words - SFWÂ
cw: angst, fluff, breakup conversations, happy ending, reconciliation, arguments, silco struggling with his emotions, little bit possessive, soft silco, suggestive ending (this one is pretty angsty but donât worry, it all works out in the end!)
summary: Silco, your long time boyfriend, does something youâd begged him not to, so you regretfully decide that you need a break from him. Silco has other plans.Â
You didn't want to go. Not really.Â
But after Vanderâs revelation, you felt like you had no choice.Â
Silco had been all fired up the night before, ranting and raving about his latest (and quite frankly terrible) plan of breaking into the Sheriffâs office Topside to gain information about any upcoming raids in your neighbourhood.Â
The surprise Enforcer raids had been hitting businesses across Zaun at random, an M.O of storming in and ransacking each place with no clear means or motive, and definitely without any warning.Â
Understandably then, Vander, Silco, and you had been particularly concerned that a raid would hit The Last Drop any day now, and despite every effort to hide anything that could give you away, there was a real fear that your revolutionary group would be discovered and brutally dismantled.Â
But the idea of breaking into the Sheriffâs office of all places was beyond dangerous and to your frustration, you just couldnât get Silco to listen to reason.
Youâd pleaded with him not to do something so risky. Youâd tried to calm down, told him to just wait until you could all discuss it together as a group and come up with a plan that wasnât so grandiose, and in your view, completely and utterly stupid.Â
Eventually, Silco had gotten frustrated and rolled his eyes, grumbling that he wouldnât go as heâd slunk off downstairs to no doubt drink the night away in the bar.Â
This morning youâd woken with him fast asleep by the side of you in bed and, assuming heâd wasted the evening drinking himself dry, you thought nothing of it until later this afternoon when youâd found out the truth from Vander.Â
Silco had gone Topside to scout out the building that housed the Sheriffâs office.Â
Vander had desperately tried to reassure you that Silco wouldnât have done anything stupid but it had done absolutely nothing to douse the flames of anger and hurt spreading through you.Â
The damage was done.Â
Now, salty tears finally drying on your cheeks, you stand in your shared bedroom packing your belongings into the rucksack laid out on your bed.Â
Silco is still out running errands so there's a note placed carefully on the desk in your bedroom. It's not ideal, but it's for the best.Â
However cowardly it makes you feel to reduce your breakup to a measly note, you're too emotionally drained to even think about having another argument with him.
You just canât deal with it right now.Â
Planning to stay with a friend until you found somewhere you could afford by yourself, you convince yourself that if he truly wants you back, if he truly wants to fix things, heâll come and find you.
Youâve already packed the easy things, like most of your clothes and your toiletries from the bathroom. The real challenge now it would seem is the more sentimental items, like the pile of gifts currently lined up on the bed that youâd received from Silco over the years.Â
The little toy poro he'd scrimped and saved to buy you for your birthday that one year. Or the matching sunglasses he'd stolen as a little souvenir from your third date.Â
As you stare down at the gifts on the bed wondering if youâll have enough room to bring them all, the door opens behind you.
You freeze, knowing exactly who it is before heâs even spoken.Â
"There you are," Silco announces, his voice clearly tired but still laced with a hint of relief. "Vander said you were-"Â
He cuts himself off as he undoubtedly takes in the state of the bedroom before speaking again in a tone of pure shock.Â
"What are you doing?"Â
You canât bring yourself to answer so instead busy yourself with shoving all of the gifts into your bag before he can see them.Â
"No," he breathes out from the doorway as it dawns on him.Â
It sends a horrible pang of hurt ringing in your chest, only made worse when he pleadingly says your name.
"Please don't do this."Â
"I have to, Silco," you sigh, trying to keep your heart as closed off as you can. It hurts enough as it is without you letting your emotions run wild.Â
"You don't,â he says. âYou don't have to."Â
You stop answering because you can tell this particular line of conversation will just go in circles.Â
Behind you, he shuts the door with a click and it irritates you into shoving more into the bag, no longer caring about being neat or if you should leave anything behind.Â
"Is this because of what happened last week? I already told you that wasn't my fault," Silco continues when you donât respond or turn to face him.Â
He's referring to the incident where he almost got shot after taunting some enforcers for no good reason.
Truth be told, that incident had absolutely terrified you, but it was just one of the many reasons why you couldnât keep doing this.Â
"No, it isn't because of that," you say flatly.Â
"Then why?"Â
You finally turn to look at him, the first time since heâd left the bar this morning. (He looks gorgeous and like he's on the verge of heartbreak and you hate that you still love him despite it all.)Â
"Where did you go last night?" you ask flatly, looking him square in the eyes.
As expected his expression instantly turns stony, but after years of learning and reading his tells, you can see the twitches of regret in his eyes.Â
A few beats of silence pass and you know heâs too stubborn to admit it out loud.Â
Your response is quiet. Resigned.Â
"That's why."
Turning back round to face the bed, you begin to shove down all your belongings as far down into the bag as they can go, making sure you have enough room for the last bits that you know are in the wardrobe.Â
"Look, I'm sorry for doing it behind your back, but I had to go," he starts, and it feels like the beginning of the heated argument that you were so desperately hoping to avoid.
Your cool facade broken, you whirl round to face him straight on, built-up ire finally pouring out of you in reams.Â
"No, you didn't have to go! You went because you wanted to and you went even though I asked you- no, begged you not to," you yell at him.
He flinches minutely at the sudden raise in volume, but keeps his own voice calm and steady when he crafts his response.Â
"You don't understand, this is important," he emphasises. "They cannot find out what weâre doing to fight against them, not when weâre this close to finally having the lives we deserve, that all of us deserve.â
It takes all your strength not to give in to his words and continue the argument with an incredulous scoff.
As if you donât know all that. As if you didnât spend your days fighting for Zaun as well.Â
As if you didnât fight every second for him.Â
You shut it down immediately, twisting back round to face the bed.Â
"I'm not doing this," you say blankly.Â
"What?" he replies, clearly stunned.Â
"I'm not arguing with you, Silco. I'm leaving."Â
It breaks your heart to say it, but in this moment, you see no other way forward. Not if heâs going to keep on like this.Â
Silco says nothing as you pack away the rest of your belongings into your bag, briefly recalling that you still have a few last bits in the wardrobe. You're almost certain that his anger is charging up in the silence, readying himself to launch into a whole speech about how wrong you are.
But when he does speak again, the sound of his choked-up voice feels like a shot directly to your heart. Â
"You can't leave."Â
Your heart sinks into your stomach and everything within you practically screams to cross the room and hug him, but you know that if you even look at him youâll end up changing your mind. So, you move over to the wardrobe instead and pull open the doors to ensure heâs not in your line of sight.Â
Silco says your name in that horribly soft timbre he only uses when heâs desperate and even though it pretty much tears you apart to ignore him, you focus on pulling the rest of your clothes from the closet.
He speaks your name again, this time even more desperately and you suddenly find yourself biting back tears.Â
Fuck, why did he have to come home early? Why couldn't you just have some time to grieve by yourself?Â
"Silco, it's over," you bite out, just wanting this horrible situation to be done with so you can work on healing.Â
Finally moving into the room, you hear his footsteps creak on the old wooden floorboards behind you.Â
You brace yourself for him to take your hand or wrap his arms around you but to your confusion, his footsteps halt in the centre of the room and you hear an unexpected rustling sound instead.Â
Spinning around, you find Silco holding your backpack upside down in the air, emptying the contents back onto the bed with vigorous shakes. Your belongings drop onto the sheets in a crumpled mess, undoing all your work to get them all into the rucksack.Â
Silco glares at the bag with tight-lipped hatred, as if itâs the reason youâre leaving, the longer strands of his hair falling down and bouncing with each rough movement of his arms.Â
You stare at him in disbelief, your jaw slack until you find the words to confront him. Â
"What the fuck, Silco? Put them back!"
He grips the bag even tighter.Â
"No."Â
And just like that, your astonishment slides into anger.Â
"Silco," you warn, eyes narrowing dangerously. "Put. Them. Back."Â
"Not if it means you'll stay," he replies obstinately.Â
He continues to shake the bag but, ever the impatient boy, gets too frustrated and decides to drop the bag onto the bed. Rapidly taking out handfuls of your belongings until the backpack is empty, he then throws it at the wall furthest from you with a grunt.Â
Silcoâs gaze slides to look at you from across the room and you both stare at each other breathlessly, chests borderline heaving.Â
A clear challenge.Â
Unfortunately for Silco, you can be stubborn too.Â
Without another word, you reach into the wardrobe and pull out his backpack, moving over to the other side of the bed to restart your packing.Â
This time, Silco rushes around the bed to you and tries to grab your hand, but you pull it away, taking a step back.Â
"Just stop-"Â
"Please don't leave me," he pleads in the most heartbreaking, riven timbre youâve ever heard him speak in and your heart wrenches.Â
He sounds like the little boy youâd met all that time ago in those dark mines, the one who was so desperate to no longer be alone.Â
"I'll do anything, I can't do this without you," he begs.Â
"Do what without me?"Â
"Any of it," he blurts out, running a distressed hand through his hair. "Some days, the only thing that gets me through the day is knowing that you'll be here when I get home."
Your insides jolt at such a vulnerable confession from such a headstrong man, but itâs nothing compared to the feeling you get when he suddenly drops to one knee in front of you, taking one of your hands in both of his.Â
Heart racing ten to the dozen, you watch in horror as he glances up at you.Â
Heâd better not be doing what you think heâs doingâŚ
"Silco-"Â
"I love you," he says. "I love you more than anything in the world."Â
You watch as tears line his lashes and soon find yourself matching.Â
Fuck, you were expecting yelling and anger, not this.Â
Youâve never seen him like this before.Â
"Please," he repeats and it cracks your mask in two.
Your knees give out and you let yourself sink down onto the floor with him.Â
Silco immediately throws his arms around you, only just stopping you from falling back with how quickly he presses his body against yours, burying his head in the crook of your neck.Â
On instinct, you wrap your arms around his frame, one hand rubbing his back whilst the other cards through his inky strands as he rocks you gently from side to side.Â
Little whispers of âDon't go,â and âI need you,â are mumbled into your hair, and youâre almost certain the wetness on your neck is from those tears that had been threatening to break free. You kindly decide not to mention it.Â
Eventually, you sigh and rest your forehead on his shoulder, squeezing your eyes shut in a pitiful attempt to ease the difficult conversation up ahead.Â
"Sil, I can't keep doing this."
He sniffles a little and pulls back to look at you but doesnât let go. (He never lets go.)
"Doing what?" he asks, brows furrowing in that cute little way he does when heâs confused about something.Â
"Watching you destroy yourself."Â
"I'm not-"Â
"You are, Silco, and it's hurting me," you enunciate, holding his cheeks to force his gaze on you. He needs to understand how serious you are about this.Â
The horrified expression on his face instinctively causes you to brush some of his hair back tenderly while he processes your words.Â
"I want a better Zaun too, but not at the cost of you sacrificing yourself," you continue, keeping your voice quiet but firm.Â
Heâs clearly overwhelmed, seafoam eyes so wide and trenched in deep-rooted panic. But with a lack of response to distract you, youâre forced to take notice of the pain spreading through your back and legs at the awkward sitting position youâre in.Â
You shift your body, pulling away from him to situate yourself in a comfier position, but the second you loosen your arms from his thin frame, his hand desperately grip you even tighter, clutching onto you like a child to their motherâs leg.Â
"No, I-"
"I'm not going anywhere, I just need to move before my legs go numb," youâre quick to reassure him.Â
At this, Silco relaxes slightly, allowing you to move so your back is resting against the side of the bed. His fingers clasp onto your shirt the entire time and the very second youâre planted in a spot that doesnât completely ruin your spine, he pulls you against him once more.Â
"What- What can I do to make you stay?" he says between a harsh swallow.Â
 You sigh, swiping a hand across your face tiredly.Â
"I need you to stop this ridiculous crusade you're on. Or," you add when he goes to protest, "at the very least, include the rest of us in it."Â
He bites the inside of his lip and entwines his fingers with yours.Â
"You can't keep making reckless decisions by yourself, Sil. It affects all of us. Especially me."Â
Silco keeps quiet for a few moments, so you give him time to think while his thumb rhythmically traces your knuckles back and forth.Â
This canât be easy for him. Heâs pretty independent by nature (most Undercity kids are), but Silco is especially so when it comes to the fight for Zaunâs freedom.Â
But if he wants you to stay, youâre going to need some compromise.Â
"Okay," he eventually says, breaking the silence to gaze at you with muted hope.Â
Youâre not letting him off that easily.Â
"Okay what?" you say expectantly.Â
He sighs and suddenly heâs transformed into that petulant little boy again.Â
"Okay, I'll run things by you and Vander before making any big decisions," Silco heaves, like it physically pains him to say.Â
"And?" you prompt with a raised eyebrow.Â
Silco stares at you with a look of disbelief, but his lip is curled in clear disgust.Â
"There's no way I'm running anything by Benzo," he scoffs. "It'd be more useful talking to a brick wall."Â
You slap his arm half heartedly and bite back a laugh.Â
"No! I meant, are you going to stop throwing yourself into stupid situations for no reason?"Â
"I knew you were still upset about last week," Silco replies, a knowing expression melting across his features.Â
"Of course I'm upset about it! They almost shot you!" you fire back with indignation.Â
As if you wouldnât be horrified at the idea of your boyfriend getting seriously hurt and potentially arrested just for being an idiot.Â
Silco gently combs his fingers through your hair, eyes tracing your features as that smug little smirk you secretly adore colours his lips.Â
"The key word in that sentence is almost, my lovely."Â
The glare you level him with is met by a crooked grin, but itâs soon wiped off his face when you jab his stomach with your elbow, ignoring the âOof,â in favour of cuddling up to him even closer.
Silco lets out a sigh of relief and rests his head against yours whilst one hand sneaks up behind you to surreptitiously wipe his eyes dry with his sleeve.Â
You allow yourself to relax for a few quiet moments, slowly calming each other down with soft touches until your breathing syncs up with the boy holding you close to his chest.Â
Silco soon murmurs into your hair, hand smoothing along your waist.Â
"So you'll stay?"Â
"Yes, I'll stay," you reply softly, nestling into the crook of his neck.Â
Itâs seemingly not enough to soothe his nerves because he leans back and tilts your chin up with one finger until you meet his anxious gaze.Â
"You promise?"Â
"I promise, Silco."Â
Relief melts through his whole body, but with it brings a cool wash of physical and emotional exhaustion that you wish you could wipe clean.Â
"You know you can always talk to me, right?â you tell him gently, pinky finger delicately tracing along one eyebrow until the lines of his face relax. âI know you're always so busy trying to keep us afloat but you don't have to do it all alone. You can tell me when things are bothering you, it doesnât make you weak or âless of a manâ."Â
He gazes at you in profound wonder before lightly cupping one side of your face with his hand.Â
"I really do love you," he whispers, tenderly tracing one thumb down your cheek.
It feels like the weight of your near-breakup is lifted off your shoulders when you finally say it back.Â
"I love you too, Sil."Â
He leans down to kiss your head and you find yourself desperately hoping that he keeps his promise. You never want to have to go through this again.Â
But for now, graced with another chance to stay with the only person youâve ever loved, you focus on the present, needing to change the heavy atmosphere stifling the room. Your tone shifts into a light, coy thing that immediately grabs his attention.Â
"You know, if you hadn't rushed in all guns blazing last night you'd have had the chance to listen to my plan for getting the info we need," you tell him. "Y'know, one that wouldn't get you thrown in Stillwater."Â
Silco stares at you with a frown and you struggle to keep in the smile that threatens to break.Â
"What plan?"Â
"The one where I seduce a poor, unsuspecting enforcer and use a bit of good old-fashioned lip service to get what we need," you say coquettishly, batting your eyelashes at him innocently despite the clear innuendo lacing your words.Â
Instantly, (brilliantly), his seafoam eyes darken with a delicious combination of jealousy and lust, sending a spark of hot desire through your body.Â
"Not in a million years," he says gruffly, pulling you even closer to him.Â
You twirl a playful finger through your hair.Â
"I don't know, I think it's a great plan if you ask me," you reply with an air of teasing nonchalance.Â
"I wouldn't let you anywhere near them,â his grip tightens on the fabric by your waist. âYou're mine.â
Leaning forward, you whisper in his ear, knowing exactly what it does to him.Â
"Prove it."Â
Thereâs a beat of electrified silence before Silco abruptly stands, pulling you up with him until youâre both on your feet.
He smoothly coils one arm around your waist, the other snaking around the nape of your neck until his lips hover tantalisingly above yours. And just when you think heâs about to finally close the gap, he pauses.
You frown, chest flooding with anxiety that youâve done something wrong, or heâs changed his mind, or-
Silco removes the hand resting behind your head and before you can voice your concerns, he suddenly grabs the bed sheet, ripping it off the bed in a move that sends the mess of your once-packed belongings tumbling to the floor in a cacophony.Â
"Silco!" you admonish him, already envisioning the amount of time and effort it would take to pick everything up and put it back in its rightful place.Â
"What?â he says, like butter wouldnât melt. âWe can put it back in the morning."Â
Then, he swiftly picks you up and tosses you onto the mattress, making you squeal in surprise.Â
Silco kneels onto the bed and climbs until his body is hovering over yours, arms caging you in as you heat up, warmth flooding downwards in anticipation.Â
"Now, I think it's time I make it up to you, sweetheart," he purrs, leaning down to hotly trace your ear with his lips. âIâm going to make sure you never want to leave this bed again.â
- A/N: donât mind me, just casually obsessed with the idea of silco emptying out your bag to desperately stop you from leaving and then frenziedly trying to propose to you when he doesnât know to deal with his emotions đââď¸
Y/N: Get out of my room, Wreck!
Wrecker: *being a little shit and standing outside the doorframe* Iâm not in your room!
Y/N: HUNTER-
Wrecker: Hey! No fair! You canât just call Hunter every time you want to get your way!
Y/N: Fine.
Y/N:
Y/N: CROSSHAIR-
Wrecker: *immediately running away* Thatâs so much worse and you know it!
I don't know your pronouns so I'll call you dude. Dude, self promote! Do it! Also thank you!!!
Surely I'm not the only sick of seeing hyper fem fics for characters from twd or tlou.. Readers always described as wearing something pink or lacy. I go by they/she but I dress quite masculine/androgynous. The other thing is that readers always like 5'2.. I'm 5'7.
EDIT:
This is no hate to the authors or people who actually dress/look like this it's just disappointing that I can't find anything that actually feels like a reader insert for me.
EDIT 2: it's been 3 minutes since I first posted this but I'm just stupid and forgot things. The other fandom I tagged is rdr2. Haha and one more thing, reader is always depicted as bubbly and giggly.. I laugh like a seal being strangled and my humor is dry asf.
EDIT 3: Hopefully my last edit, the other thing I don't relate too is boob size. It's always "readers perky breasts bounce as they do something or another". I'm a AA at best.. And if reader has a small chest they're always insecure which I get people are but I love my small boobs. Stops me getting attention from men, I like men too but â¨Womenâ¨
content: penetrative sex, crosshair needs a hug (a lot more in reality but we don't have time for all of that folks)
yeah idrk. this might be shit. i just have a weakness for rough exterior soft interior characters. you guys know.
THIS FIC CONTAINS NSFW CONTENT. IF YOU ARE NOT 18+ DNI
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Youâre under him getting your insides rearranged when you feel his hand slither up your body. His rough skin caresses yours with the touch of almost an entirely different person, slowly trailing up your body until he interlocks your fingers together and stills there, a grunt leaving his parted lips.
The way your eyes open in shock isn't intentional. No, really, you swear it isn't. You're just taken by surprise, is all. You know he's not having a good day, and judging by the pent-up way he takes you after a week of separation, probably not having a good week either.
Crosshair slowly starts moving again, dark and louder grunts escaping his closed mouth with each jerk that sends your chin dipping up and eyes rolling back again. It's dizzying how he anchors both of you with where your hands meet and hold each other; you want to gaze toward them, look at him and see if he's looking at the connection but his thrusts are making it too damn hard.
Instead, you just squeeze his hand softly with a small whine. And he stops completely. For a moment you're scared he's not breathing. But then he exhales a heavy sigh, letting his body fall onto yours completely. You gasp slightly, almost feeling suffocated, but as he adjusts to rest the side of his face beside you, kissing your temple softly and rocking his hips again, you're pleasantly surprised at how smothered you feel, in the best way possible.
Then, he squeezes your hand, tight, and continues working at his pleasure without any regard for you (Not that you really mind, you already came from his fingers alone). But he's so oddly gentle, sort of intimate, fucking you almost like a lover instead of a release he always seems to take from you greedily.
You decide to tease him a little. With a small smile playing across your lips, you turn and whisper to him,
"Going soft on me?"
The loudest noise comes out of him today; a surprised, yet delighted chuckle as he chuckles his head and squeezes your hand again, using the other to grip your waist and readjust you softly. He looks into your eyes, and you swear if you could turn his irises into something touchable you would sink right in `cause you have never seen him looking so delicately ready to break.
"Don't even dare suggest it," He barks with no bite. You just roll your eyes and take your free hand, wrapping it around his neck and bringing him down for a kiss. You won't, because if you call it out too much he'll stop immediately and you'll never get it back again. And you think you like this part of Crosshair.
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Hunter: I hate you with every inch of my body
Crosshair: âŚnot many inchesâŚ
young!silco x gn!reader - 3.6k words - SFWÂ
cw: angst, fluff, breakup conversations, happy ending, reconciliation, arguments, silco struggling with his emotions, little bit possessive, soft silco, suggestive ending (this one is pretty angsty but donât worry, it all works out in the end!)
summary: Silco, your long time boyfriend, does something youâd begged him not to, so you regretfully decide that you need a break from him. Silco has other plans.Â
You didn't want to go. Not really.Â
But after Vanderâs revelation, you felt like you had no choice.Â
Silco had been all fired up the night before, ranting and raving about his latest (and quite frankly terrible) plan of breaking into the Sheriffâs office Topside to gain information about any upcoming raids in your neighbourhood.Â
The surprise Enforcer raids had been hitting businesses across Zaun at random, an M.O of storming in and ransacking each place with no clear means or motive, and definitely without any warning.Â
Understandably then, Vander, Silco, and you had been particularly concerned that a raid would hit The Last Drop any day now, and despite every effort to hide anything that could give you away, there was a real fear that your revolutionary group would be discovered and brutally dismantled.Â
But the idea of breaking into the Sheriffâs office of all places was beyond dangerous and to your frustration, you just couldnât get Silco to listen to reason.
Youâd pleaded with him not to do something so risky. Youâd tried to calm down, told him to just wait until you could all discuss it together as a group and come up with a plan that wasnât so grandiose, and in your view, completely and utterly stupid.Â
Eventually, Silco had gotten frustrated and rolled his eyes, grumbling that he wouldnât go as heâd slunk off downstairs to no doubt drink the night away in the bar.Â
This morning youâd woken with him fast asleep by the side of you in bed and, assuming heâd wasted the evening drinking himself dry, you thought nothing of it until later this afternoon when youâd found out the truth from Vander.Â
Silco had gone Topside to scout out the building that housed the Sheriffâs office.Â
Vander had desperately tried to reassure you that Silco wouldnât have done anything stupid but it had done absolutely nothing to douse the flames of anger and hurt spreading through you.Â
The damage was done.Â
Now, salty tears finally drying on your cheeks, you stand in your shared bedroom packing your belongings into the rucksack laid out on your bed.Â
Silco is still out running errands so there's a note placed carefully on the desk in your bedroom. It's not ideal, but it's for the best.Â
However cowardly it makes you feel to reduce your breakup to a measly note, you're too emotionally drained to even think about having another argument with him.
You just canât deal with it right now.Â
Planning to stay with a friend until you found somewhere you could afford by yourself, you convince yourself that if he truly wants you back, if he truly wants to fix things, heâll come and find you.
Youâve already packed the easy things, like most of your clothes and your toiletries from the bathroom. The real challenge now it would seem is the more sentimental items, like the pile of gifts currently lined up on the bed that youâd received from Silco over the years.Â
The little toy poro he'd scrimped and saved to buy you for your birthday that one year. Or the matching sunglasses he'd stolen as a little souvenir from your third date.Â
As you stare down at the gifts on the bed wondering if youâll have enough room to bring them all, the door opens behind you.
You freeze, knowing exactly who it is before heâs even spoken.Â
"There you are," Silco announces, his voice clearly tired but still laced with a hint of relief. "Vander said you were-"Â
He cuts himself off as he undoubtedly takes in the state of the bedroom before speaking again in a tone of pure shock.Â
"What are you doing?"Â
You canât bring yourself to answer so instead busy yourself with shoving all of the gifts into your bag before he can see them.Â
"No," he breathes out from the doorway as it dawns on him.Â
It sends a horrible pang of hurt ringing in your chest, only made worse when he pleadingly says your name.
"Please don't do this."Â
"I have to, Silco," you sigh, trying to keep your heart as closed off as you can. It hurts enough as it is without you letting your emotions run wild.Â
"You don't,â he says. âYou don't have to."Â
You stop answering because you can tell this particular line of conversation will just go in circles.Â
Behind you, he shuts the door with a click and it irritates you into shoving more into the bag, no longer caring about being neat or if you should leave anything behind.Â
"Is this because of what happened last week? I already told you that wasn't my fault," Silco continues when you donât respond or turn to face him.Â
He's referring to the incident where he almost got shot after taunting some enforcers for no good reason.
Truth be told, that incident had absolutely terrified you, but it was just one of the many reasons why you couldnât keep doing this.Â
"No, it isn't because of that," you say flatly.Â
"Then why?"Â
You finally turn to look at him, the first time since heâd left the bar this morning. (He looks gorgeous and like he's on the verge of heartbreak and you hate that you still love him despite it all.)Â
"Where did you go last night?" you ask flatly, looking him square in the eyes.
As expected his expression instantly turns stony, but after years of learning and reading his tells, you can see the twitches of regret in his eyes.Â
A few beats of silence pass and you know heâs too stubborn to admit it out loud.Â
Your response is quiet. Resigned.Â
"That's why."
Turning back round to face the bed, you begin to shove down all your belongings as far down into the bag as they can go, making sure you have enough room for the last bits that you know are in the wardrobe.Â
"Look, I'm sorry for doing it behind your back, but I had to go," he starts, and it feels like the beginning of the heated argument that you were so desperately hoping to avoid.
Your cool facade broken, you whirl round to face him straight on, built-up ire finally pouring out of you in reams.Â
"No, you didn't have to go! You went because you wanted to and you went even though I asked you- no, begged you not to," you yell at him.
He flinches minutely at the sudden raise in volume, but keeps his own voice calm and steady when he crafts his response.Â
"You don't understand, this is important," he emphasises. "They cannot find out what weâre doing to fight against them, not when weâre this close to finally having the lives we deserve, that all of us deserve.â
It takes all your strength not to give in to his words and continue the argument with an incredulous scoff.
As if you donât know all that. As if you didnât spend your days fighting for Zaun as well.Â
As if you didnât fight every second for him.Â
You shut it down immediately, twisting back round to face the bed.Â
"I'm not doing this," you say blankly.Â
"What?" he replies, clearly stunned.Â
"I'm not arguing with you, Silco. I'm leaving."Â
It breaks your heart to say it, but in this moment, you see no other way forward. Not if heâs going to keep on like this.Â
Silco says nothing as you pack away the rest of your belongings into your bag, briefly recalling that you still have a few last bits in the wardrobe. You're almost certain that his anger is charging up in the silence, readying himself to launch into a whole speech about how wrong you are.
But when he does speak again, the sound of his choked-up voice feels like a shot directly to your heart. Â
"You can't leave."Â
Your heart sinks into your stomach and everything within you practically screams to cross the room and hug him, but you know that if you even look at him youâll end up changing your mind. So, you move over to the wardrobe instead and pull open the doors to ensure heâs not in your line of sight.Â
Silco says your name in that horribly soft timbre he only uses when heâs desperate and even though it pretty much tears you apart to ignore him, you focus on pulling the rest of your clothes from the closet.
He speaks your name again, this time even more desperately and you suddenly find yourself biting back tears.Â
Fuck, why did he have to come home early? Why couldn't you just have some time to grieve by yourself?Â
"Silco, it's over," you bite out, just wanting this horrible situation to be done with so you can work on healing.Â
Finally moving into the room, you hear his footsteps creak on the old wooden floorboards behind you.Â
You brace yourself for him to take your hand or wrap his arms around you but to your confusion, his footsteps halt in the centre of the room and you hear an unexpected rustling sound instead.Â
Spinning around, you find Silco holding your backpack upside down in the air, emptying the contents back onto the bed with vigorous shakes. Your belongings drop onto the sheets in a crumpled mess, undoing all your work to get them all into the rucksack.Â
Silco glares at the bag with tight-lipped hatred, as if itâs the reason youâre leaving, the longer strands of his hair falling down and bouncing with each rough movement of his arms.Â
You stare at him in disbelief, your jaw slack until you find the words to confront him. Â
"What the fuck, Silco? Put them back!"
He grips the bag even tighter.Â
"No."Â
And just like that, your astonishment slides into anger.Â
"Silco," you warn, eyes narrowing dangerously. "Put. Them. Back."Â
"Not if it means you'll stay," he replies obstinately.Â
He continues to shake the bag but, ever the impatient boy, gets too frustrated and decides to drop the bag onto the bed. Rapidly taking out handfuls of your belongings until the backpack is empty, he then throws it at the wall furthest from you with a grunt.Â
Silcoâs gaze slides to look at you from across the room and you both stare at each other breathlessly, chests borderline heaving.Â
A clear challenge.Â
Unfortunately for Silco, you can be stubborn too.Â
Without another word, you reach into the wardrobe and pull out his backpack, moving over to the other side of the bed to restart your packing.Â
This time, Silco rushes around the bed to you and tries to grab your hand, but you pull it away, taking a step back.Â
"Just stop-"Â
"Please don't leave me," he pleads in the most heartbreaking, riven timbre youâve ever heard him speak in and your heart wrenches.Â
He sounds like the little boy youâd met all that time ago in those dark mines, the one who was so desperate to no longer be alone.Â
"I'll do anything, I can't do this without you," he begs.Â
"Do what without me?"Â
"Any of it," he blurts out, running a distressed hand through his hair. "Some days, the only thing that gets me through the day is knowing that you'll be here when I get home."
Your insides jolt at such a vulnerable confession from such a headstrong man, but itâs nothing compared to the feeling you get when he suddenly drops to one knee in front of you, taking one of your hands in both of his.Â
Heart racing ten to the dozen, you watch in horror as he glances up at you.Â
Heâd better not be doing what you think heâs doingâŚ
"Silco-"Â
"I love you," he says. "I love you more than anything in the world."Â
You watch as tears line his lashes and soon find yourself matching.Â
Fuck, you were expecting yelling and anger, not this.Â
Youâve never seen him like this before.Â
"Please," he repeats and it cracks your mask in two.
Your knees give out and you let yourself sink down onto the floor with him.Â
Silco immediately throws his arms around you, only just stopping you from falling back with how quickly he presses his body against yours, burying his head in the crook of your neck.Â
On instinct, you wrap your arms around his frame, one hand rubbing his back whilst the other cards through his inky strands as he rocks you gently from side to side.Â
Little whispers of âDon't go,â and âI need you,â are mumbled into your hair, and youâre almost certain the wetness on your neck is from those tears that had been threatening to break free. You kindly decide not to mention it.Â
Eventually, you sigh and rest your forehead on his shoulder, squeezing your eyes shut in a pitiful attempt to ease the difficult conversation up ahead.Â
"Sil, I can't keep doing this."
He sniffles a little and pulls back to look at you but doesnât let go. (He never lets go.)
"Doing what?" he asks, brows furrowing in that cute little way he does when heâs confused about something.Â
"Watching you destroy yourself."Â
"I'm not-"Â
"You are, Silco, and it's hurting me," you enunciate, holding his cheeks to force his gaze on you. He needs to understand how serious you are about this.Â
The horrified expression on his face instinctively causes you to brush some of his hair back tenderly while he processes your words.Â
"I want a better Zaun too, but not at the cost of you sacrificing yourself," you continue, keeping your voice quiet but firm.Â
Heâs clearly overwhelmed, seafoam eyes so wide and trenched in deep-rooted panic. But with a lack of response to distract you, youâre forced to take notice of the pain spreading through your back and legs at the awkward sitting position youâre in.Â
You shift your body, pulling away from him to situate yourself in a comfier position, but the second you loosen your arms from his thin frame, his hand desperately grip you even tighter, clutching onto you like a child to their motherâs leg.Â
"No, I-"
"I'm not going anywhere, I just need to move before my legs go numb," youâre quick to reassure him.Â
At this, Silco relaxes slightly, allowing you to move so your back is resting against the side of the bed. His fingers clasp onto your shirt the entire time and the very second youâre planted in a spot that doesnât completely ruin your spine, he pulls you against him once more.Â
"What- What can I do to make you stay?" he says between a harsh swallow.Â
 You sigh, swiping a hand across your face tiredly.Â
"I need you to stop this ridiculous crusade you're on. Or," you add when he goes to protest, "at the very least, include the rest of us in it."Â
He bites the inside of his lip and entwines his fingers with yours.Â
"You can't keep making reckless decisions by yourself, Sil. It affects all of us. Especially me."Â
Silco keeps quiet for a few moments, so you give him time to think while his thumb rhythmically traces your knuckles back and forth.Â
This canât be easy for him. Heâs pretty independent by nature (most Undercity kids are), but Silco is especially so when it comes to the fight for Zaunâs freedom.Â
But if he wants you to stay, youâre going to need some compromise.Â
"Okay," he eventually says, breaking the silence to gaze at you with muted hope.Â
Youâre not letting him off that easily.Â
"Okay what?" you say expectantly.Â
He sighs and suddenly heâs transformed into that petulant little boy again.Â
"Okay, I'll run things by you and Vander before making any big decisions," Silco heaves, like it physically pains him to say.Â
"And?" you prompt with a raised eyebrow.Â
Silco stares at you with a look of disbelief, but his lip is curled in clear disgust.Â
"There's no way I'm running anything by Benzo," he scoffs. "It'd be more useful talking to a brick wall."Â
You slap his arm half heartedly and bite back a laugh.Â
"No! I meant, are you going to stop throwing yourself into stupid situations for no reason?"Â
"I knew you were still upset about last week," Silco replies, a knowing expression melting across his features.Â
"Of course I'm upset about it! They almost shot you!" you fire back with indignation.Â
As if you wouldnât be horrified at the idea of your boyfriend getting seriously hurt and potentially arrested just for being an idiot.Â
Silco gently combs his fingers through your hair, eyes tracing your features as that smug little smirk you secretly adore colours his lips.Â
"The key word in that sentence is almost, my lovely."Â
The glare you level him with is met by a crooked grin, but itâs soon wiped off his face when you jab his stomach with your elbow, ignoring the âOof,â in favour of cuddling up to him even closer.
Silco lets out a sigh of relief and rests his head against yours whilst one hand sneaks up behind you to surreptitiously wipe his eyes dry with his sleeve.Â
You allow yourself to relax for a few quiet moments, slowly calming each other down with soft touches until your breathing syncs up with the boy holding you close to his chest.Â
Silco soon murmurs into your hair, hand smoothing along your waist.Â
"So you'll stay?"Â
"Yes, I'll stay," you reply softly, nestling into the crook of his neck.Â
Itâs seemingly not enough to soothe his nerves because he leans back and tilts your chin up with one finger until you meet his anxious gaze.Â
"You promise?"Â
"I promise, Silco."Â
Relief melts through his whole body, but with it brings a cool wash of physical and emotional exhaustion that you wish you could wipe clean.Â
"You know you can always talk to me, right?â you tell him gently, pinky finger delicately tracing along one eyebrow until the lines of his face relax. âI know you're always so busy trying to keep us afloat but you don't have to do it all alone. You can tell me when things are bothering you, it doesnât make you weak or âless of a manâ."Â
He gazes at you in profound wonder before lightly cupping one side of your face with his hand.Â
"I really do love you," he whispers, tenderly tracing one thumb down your cheek.
It feels like the weight of your near-breakup is lifted off your shoulders when you finally say it back.Â
"I love you too, Sil."Â
He leans down to kiss your head and you find yourself desperately hoping that he keeps his promise. You never want to have to go through this again.Â
But for now, graced with another chance to stay with the only person youâve ever loved, you focus on the present, needing to change the heavy atmosphere stifling the room. Your tone shifts into a light, coy thing that immediately grabs his attention.Â
"You know, if you hadn't rushed in all guns blazing last night you'd have had the chance to listen to my plan for getting the info we need," you tell him. "Y'know, one that wouldn't get you thrown in Stillwater."Â
Silco stares at you with a frown and you struggle to keep in the smile that threatens to break.Â
"What plan?"Â
"The one where I seduce a poor, unsuspecting enforcer and use a bit of good old-fashioned lip service to get what we need," you say coquettishly, batting your eyelashes at him innocently despite the clear innuendo lacing your words.Â
Instantly, (brilliantly), his seafoam eyes darken with a delicious combination of jealousy and lust, sending a spark of hot desire through your body.Â
"Not in a million years," he says gruffly, pulling you even closer to him.Â
You twirl a playful finger through your hair.Â
"I don't know, I think it's a great plan if you ask me," you reply with an air of teasing nonchalance.Â
"I wouldn't let you anywhere near them,â his grip tightens on the fabric by your waist. âYou're mine.â
Leaning forward, you whisper in his ear, knowing exactly what it does to him.Â
"Prove it."Â
Thereâs a beat of electrified silence before Silco abruptly stands, pulling you up with him until youâre both on your feet.
He smoothly coils one arm around your waist, the other snaking around the nape of your neck until his lips hover tantalisingly above yours. And just when you think heâs about to finally close the gap, he pauses.
You frown, chest flooding with anxiety that youâve done something wrong, or heâs changed his mind, or-
Silco removes the hand resting behind your head and before you can voice your concerns, he suddenly grabs the bed sheet, ripping it off the bed in a move that sends the mess of your once-packed belongings tumbling to the floor in a cacophony.Â
"Silco!" you admonish him, already envisioning the amount of time and effort it would take to pick everything up and put it back in its rightful place.Â
"What?â he says, like butter wouldnât melt. âWe can put it back in the morning."Â
Then, he swiftly picks you up and tosses you onto the mattress, making you squeal in surprise.Â
Silco kneels onto the bed and climbs until his body is hovering over yours, arms caging you in as you heat up, warmth flooding downwards in anticipation.Â
"Now, I think it's time I make it up to you, sweetheart," he purrs, leaning down to hotly trace your ear with his lips. âIâm going to make sure you never want to leave this bed again.â
- A/N: donât mind me, just casually obsessed with the idea of silco emptying out your bag to desperately stop you from leaving and then frenziedly trying to propose to you when he doesnât know to deal with his emotions đââď¸
Hunter: Whatâs the expression? Fool me once, shame on me. Fool me twice... fiddle-dee-dee.
Crosshair: Fool me once, and Iâll be fooled for a day. Teach me how to fool people, and Iâll be fooled for the rest of my life.
Wrecker: Fool me once, fool me twice, fool me chicken soup with rice.
Tech: I do believe thatâs the expression.
 hunter x fem!reader 18+
GIF NOT MINE
wc: 524ish
warnings: unprotected sex, little bit of exhibitionism, little bit of voyeurism, use of good girl, this is trashhhhh, begging, I donât think theres anything else besides this is hot garbageÂ
Your breathy moans filled their barracks, barely above the noise of the rain that hit the window. They should all be sleeping but how could they when your sounds of pleasure are sweet coming from under their sergeant. He sure knew they were listening, but he was focused on the way your face looked as he devoured your clit with two fingers in you.Â
âAll those pretty noises meshâla you might wake the boys upâ Hunter says pulling away for a moment before starting to mark your thighs with love bites. Your walls clenched around his fingers at the thought. âSeems like you might be a little exhibitionist cyarâikaâ you couldnât contain the moan that came out. If they werenât all hard already that moan did the job. Reaching into the bottom halves of their blacks to stroke their aching lengths may have been a bad thought when it first crossed their minds but to hell with that. All freeing themselves stroking to the sounds of your moans.Â
âTheyâre listening so be a good girl and give them a good showâ the words whispered gravelly in your ear before his teeth nipped your earlobe. His thumb found your clit rubbing it to the edge of your first orgasm of the night. He stopped when your body gave its first sign of release. The whine you released was the sound of angels singing to the batch. The babbling of begging Hunter to let you cum had him chuckling. âI bet if you use your big girl words to beg, Iâll let you cum all over my fingers.â
âPlease let me cum sargeâ your pleading making each cock in the room twitch in anticipation. He returned to rubbing your clit with his thumb while his mouth explored your breasts leaving marks before taking a nipple in his mouth tugging it between his teeth. That brought you to the edge again, Hunter gave you a nod signaling you have his permission to cum. Your guttural moan filled the barracks, if they werenât already awake bringing themselves to release that would have woken them up. He positioned himself between your legs, his leaking tip grazed your clit and teased your entrance before his hips snapped into you. He groaned at the feeling of your walls clenching around him. Each thrust into you made you moan louder. Wrecker was the first to indicate being awake and listening when he cursed after releasing all over his hand. The sounds he made after releasing made your stomach flutter. Your legs were wrapped tightly around Hunter as he started thrusting into you faster. The way his cock twitched you could tell he was close. His groans filled your ears while your nails raked down his back.Â
âWhere do you want me?â his question came out sounding rough but also soft.Â
âinside pleaseâ the neediness in your voice caused him to come undone, releasing a deep groan in your ear before placing a kiss on your shoulder.
 âWhen youâre ready for another round doll come to my bunkâ Crosshairâs voice broke the moment of silence sending you into a fit of tired giggles. Â
Crosshair: My darling, My love, The light of my life, My moon and stars, My- Y/N: Just tell me what you broke. Crosshair: ... Crosshair: Okay, but please don't be mad...