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I pretended to be a Chalicotherium cause prehistoric mammals are my special interest

oh you’re neurodivergent? what non-human being did you pretend to be / believe yourself to be in order to cope with the disconnect you felt from your peers during your early childhood?

blasting off again 💕

King Arapaima 

tw//Abuse, Pedophilia, Misogyny, Religion, Rape

This is just a vent, if you’re not interested then you can ignore it. 

Why do parents think it’s okay to use fear and religion to control your LGBT kid? My Mom is a Seven-Day Adventist, Dad is Catholic. Sister is still questioning religion and I’m Atheist.(Religion Will Come Important Later)

I recently had all my technology(except for my Mac because I need it for school). It was all because my Mom’s thing called “bark” screenshotted me being myself as an LGBT, MtF Trans, ND and System. And labeled my entire identity as “Sexual Content”. After this my entire parents gave me a lecture why LGBT is a perversion to God’s perfect vision. My parents were all about how LGBT people are all pedophile, and how they were a perverted group of people who wanted to always rape children. Then my entire family attacked a couple of my older best friends on discord who were LGBT and kept calling them Pedophiles who wanted to harm me and stay me away from God. 

Then came me being a system, I was outed by my sister and kept saying that I didn’t “Have a personality disorder” and was just a coping mechanism. She then outed me to my parents, and they were all on how I was going to the deep-end and betraying my entire families last name.

They also have such a huge history of ableism such as saying “Autistic People get nowhere in life” or “I’m just using my “Autism” as an excuse to commit crimes” and what not.

Why am I just so abused, and harmed by this family. They say they are trying to help me but in reality they were harming me. I just want a safe space.

Recognizing Abuse Masterlist

Signs that you’re living in abuse:

Behavioral patterns of living in abuse

Was I abused? Checklist

Not knowing you are a victim

Signs your family is abusive

Making excuses for your abusive parents

Experience of living in secrecy

What they taught you was abuse

Emotional experiences of living in abuse

Shame and guilt: how abused children feel

What makes parents abusers (actions)

Have I been manipulated into believing abuse was my fault? Checklist

Am I being held hostage by abusers? Checklist

You are not allowed to mention the past

Why you still love abusive parents

Parental behaviour that isn’t normal

Shit parents aren’t supposed to say to you

Experience of “not belonging anywhere”

Red flags for abusive parents

Healthy vs Abusive Chores

Was my childhood abusive or just had some bad parts?

Rules always change (unpredictable environment is abusive)

Breakdown of abusive parent’s behaviour:

“This is my house” rule

Start living in the real life!

Why all the children aren’t abused equally in an abusive home

Common abuser hypocrisies

Do your parents want you to be happy or look happy?

Why do they try to convince you that you’re worthless

Why do they pretend you’re a burden? Controlling behaviour

Why your abusers are not good people

Abusive parents are keeping you in false hope they’ll change

Are your parents preventing you from succeeding?

Abusive parents pretending “it wasn’t that bad”

Double Bind (why every choice you make ends wrong)

Incorporating trauma in raising children

Abusers will not allow you to call them out on abuse

Signs your parents are narcissistic:

Stuff delusional narcissists say

Shit narcissistis parents say

Recognizing emotional immaturity of narcissistic parents

Examples of narcissistic behaviours

Being punished for growing up by narcissistic parents

What children of narcissists go thru

Signs you’ve been thru sexual abuse:

CSA (Childhood Sexual Abuse) Symptoms

Signs you might have endured CSA

Was I sexually abused by adults as a child? Checklist

Signs of abusive friendship/relationship:

How to tell if a friend is not a friend

Am I in an abusive relationship/friendship? Checklist

Manufacturing insecurities

Red flags for abusers

Have I been thru social abuse? Checklist

You can recognize abusers by how they make you feel

How abusive childhood teaches you to stay in abusive relationships

Recognizing abusive friendship

Signs you’re struggling with trauma

Trauma processing information

Experiences of traumatized children

Signs you’re recovering from long term abuse

Things abuse survivors think/say

Thoughts of victims of child abuse

Your brain on trauma

How long term childhood abuse develops into complex trauma (comic)

Ups and downs of trauma

This chicken says autism acceptance

(Image description: four squares in various shades of red with white text, together the text reads "Support autistic trans people. Support autistic trans women. Support autistic trans men. Support autistic nonbinary people.")

Some userboxes bc working in customer service is fucking exhausting

Part of my job is processing all the new incoming books and putting our property stamp on them and barcodes, so I get to also see all the adorable new kid's books too with wonderful gorgeous art in them but ANYWAYS THIS NEW ONE CAME IN AND

"It Feels Good To Be Yourself. A book about gender identity" written by Theresa Thorn and illustrated by Noah Grigni. The cover shows the four main characters, one is a transgender girl, two are nonbinary in different ways, and one is a cis boy who is the little brother to the trans girl.

I typically don't read the kids books even when they are super cute but this one I HAD to read. So I start reading. And I just--

Here's a few pages: (short image description below)

Quick image description: Above are 5 pictures I took of pages that I really liked and made me extra happy. The first two are back to back pages of the book's introduction of JJ, who is a wheelchair user and is "neither a girl or a boy" and uses they/them pronouns. This is the text from the next two back to back pages depicting the four friends playing outside and coloring on the sidewalk: "Some kids don't feel exactly like a girl or a boy -- they feel like neither. Some kids feel like their gender identity isn't always the same -- it's often changing." [Next page] "And even with all these possible ways to be, some kids don't feel like any of the words they know fit them exactly right. There are a never-ending number of ways to be yourself in the world." The last page shows Ruthie after she came out to her parents as transgender. Her whole family (mom, dad, little brother, her, and a dog on the side) are hugging. The text reads "Oops! Ruthie was a girl all along -- they just didn't know it at first." End ID.

SO OBVIOUSLY IM ALMOST SOBBING AT WORK NOW OMG

This book is absolutely beautiful and so sweet and I encourage everyone to go see if they can borrow it at their library. It's a quick 2-3 min read, maybe 15 if you start getting emotional like my queer little heart did. I'm assuming there's a regular print version more widely available, and maybe a LT version too, and if my Hawaii library has a copy of the braille version I'm guessing others already have it too.

OH AND HERE'S THE BACK COVER I DIDNT NOTICE UNTIL AFTER I PROCESSED IT AND THIS PART REALLY GOT ME OKAY (text written below)

"No matter what your gender identity is, you are okay exactly the way you are. And you are loved."

seeing as it’s both orca awareness month AND pride month, I decided to make some icons for the occasion! pride orcas <3

Important message

Reblog if endo or mixed multiples/plurals/systems/etc are welcome on your blog

So I’ve been reading about someone who was ideologically abused within Catholicism and it’s bringing up a lot of feelings, but one thing it’s really crystallizing in my mind is an important thing that people fail to understand about ideological abuse.

The (relatively mild) ideological abuse I have experienced was used to convince me of some bad and harmful shit. But I’m worried that the things I’ve said about it make it seem like the abuse was bad because it convinced me of untruths. That’s a very very small part of the problem.

It is possible to commit ideological abuse in the name of ideas that are 100% true. People think that ideological abuse is only done in the name of darkly comic nonsense (Xenu only makes sense to someone who’s been abused so badly they forget how to think clearly) or ideologies based on cruelty and subjugation. It’s true that abuse is more common in ideologies that cannot possibly defend themselves with actual arguments, but it’s completely possible to abuse people in the name of things which make sense.

If you’re dealing with someone who thinks two plus two is five, you can show them they are wrong with counters or numberlines or whatever. This will teach them basic arithmetic and also respect their personhood. This is what any decent person would do.

Or you can control them with fear. You can make it sure that they know that if they ever say two plus two is five, they will be physically harmed or threatened with physical harm. You can lie and belittle and mistreat them in dozens of ways and any time they complain you can tell them that they deserve it for believing that two plus two is five. You can say that they’re not allowed to make even the smallest decisions for themselves (what to eat, how to dress, who to be friends with, what to read) because a person who believes two plus two is five shouldn’t be allowed to decide anything. You can isolate them from anyone you haven’t vetted (which means no friendships with anyone who is wrong about math, but also no friendships with anyone who says “obviously two plus two is four but there’s no need to hit people over it.”) The fact you are right about math doesn’t make it not abuse. You’ve abused them into believing something, and the fact that it is true doesn’t make the abuse ethical.

You’ve also severely damaged their ability to learn math. If they have a basket with two apples and they add two pears, they won’t be able to take an honest look about how many total fruits they have. They are only going to be able to think “I must have four fruits because I don’t want to get hurt again” or “I must have five fruits because there is no way on earth that despicable piece of shit can be right about anything after what they did to me.” You’ve done lasting and possibly permanent epistemic damage to this person. For a long time, maybe for the rest of their life, they will not be able to approach arithmetic with logic; they are going to come to a calculator with so much emotional baggage that they can’t be rational. They may genuinely need to espouse wrong beliefs about numbers because the only psychologically feasible alternative is espousing the (also wrong and more dangerous) belief that they deserve to be abused.

Almost everyone who commits ideological abuse thinks they are convincing their victims of the truth, and they think that this justifies the abuse. They are usually wrong about their ideas being true, but they are always wrong about their tactics being justified. I want anyone reading this to know that if you are seriously hurting someone to get them to believe you, it doesn’t matter that you are right. You have to find another way to do that. What you are doing does horrific damage and doesn’t even succeed in making people actually believe you, just in parroting you so that you will stop hurting them. You have to treat people who are wrong like people. Abusing someone into believing the truth doesn’t become okay because it’s the truth.

More importantly, I want you to know that if someone is using violence, the threat of violence or manipulation to control your beliefs, that is abuse. You do not deserve to be treated this way. You do not have to figure out right now whether what they are trying to make you believe is actually correct. You can leave (if it’s safe) or practice harm-reduction (if leaving isn’t safe yet) before you figure out whether or not they are telling the truth. It is not okay for them to do this to you, even if they are right.

You deserve to be safe. You deserve sovereignty over your own thoughts. Good luck. I love you.

I spent way too much time on this

#stophootyabuse

Hooty but he’s the Duolingo owl.

Amity kills the owl tube. 

hooty is a menace 

question: do you guys even like hooty

The human AU makes sense as long as you don’t think about it for more than 2 seconds at a time ^^;

AU where everything is the same except Flower doesn’t have her stickman body

God and Satan fear this

Mortals aren’t supposed to wield this kind of power.

Oh btw, something I noticed about today’s snapshot (particularly the wonderful new music added by the extremely talented Lena Raine):

All of the nether biomes have music in them… except one. Nether wastes, crimson forest, soulsand valley & the newly-added basalt basins… all of ‘em got some new music in this update! (And you should listen to them, they’re beautiful)

But, oddly, the warped forest biome got no such treatment… why is that?

If you actually go there in the game, you’ll start to notice how eerily… quiet it is in that biome… The only mobs that spawn there are endermen.

In fact, many of the nether mobs actively fear items from the warped forest biome, notably hoglins squealing and running at the sight of warped fungi.

There’s a part of hell so utterly terrifying that even the creatures that roam hell are afraid of it.

What are they afraid of?

Golfball The Master Speedrunner

hc that along with/thanks to her love for science and math, gb rly rly loves games and frequently decodes them to analyze the code and will work out all game bugs on her own. she wants to make a game but doesnt want to work on a whole story, so she instead makes weird lil games with no plot. she sometimes codes ridiculously hard games in her free time that only she and around 2 other people have ever been able to beat. she does speedruns all the time and tries to find as many minor glitches or bugs she can use to clip through entire areas. its really weird to watch her speedruns because everything is super quick and everything is ridiculously perfectly done

I’m on a golfball obsession today, dont mind me

4 and Golf Ball!

good morning <3

reblog dont just like please!

What’s even funnier is that all of them are in my system XD

Based off a joke comic me and my sis made

Bakunawa Character Design. Just wanted to draw a Phillippine Mythological creature