Okay, I Can Take Photographs And Do Tracings Of Them.

One thing that I had to learn after my fundamentalist upbringing Is that it's not always healthy to forgive people. We shouldn't always turn the other cheek, And we shouldn't love our enemies.

I think, maybe, it can be inspiring to hear someone asserting their own identity and their self-worth. A sense of identity and self-worth are the basic psychological needs that I am working on.

∅ Hi, I'm Blue! ∅ I drew my first self-portrait! Don't I look fabulous?

I am sorry that I have trouble finding interesting things to say. The words just are not there. I try to think of words and there is nothing. I had to forget about my past. I have no stories to tell. I feel like I have a blank or empty personality. I am still figuring out who I am. Daily Affirmation: My name is Blue, and I am a new person.

Thank you!

Hi, I'm Blue! I started a similar art project, to draw the word "Blue" over and over in different ways. You're a much better artist than I am. I like worms and bugs, too. It's fun to watch worms wriggle. My request for a worm is, I'd like a blue worm. Thanks!

123, blue worm

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So, as an agender nonbinary person, I usually try to avoid gendered language. I chose two staves, "Men" and "Bass", initially, to describe a trio to be performed by myself. These are the options the program provides. "Bass" is already gender-neutral. But I thought it would be more gender-neutral to describe the two higher voices as "Low Voices" instead of "Men." So that's what I did.

Ugh, the lyrics that I wrote are so bad. I'm done trying to write lyrics. Vocals don't have to have words. I have to push through this mental fog and try to actually make good music. Waking up from deep depression is so hard, but it is possible. Mental effort will help to clear the fog away.

Thank you. Yes, I REALLY do need to affirm my new name. I still have to use my old name in real life. I need to keep reinforcing my new name by using it here, so that my new sense of identity is not extinguished. So I started an art therapy project to draw my new name in different ways.

I am too depressed to do anything, and my thoughts are troubled by paranoia. However, I feel more stable than I did yesterday. Daily Affirmation: My name is Blue, and feeling bad does not make me a bad person.

Okay, lyrics for the song are done, I think. The next step is writing out the sheet music. I have tried to keep the problem as simple as possible, But I am not recording any music today. That was silly. I have to rehearse the music first until performing it is automatic. I don't get to skip work just because I have talent.

Give me your energy, internet friends. It is so hard to push through the depression and do anything. I'm just gonna borrow your energy for a minute; I'll give it right back.