One Thing That I Had To Learn After My Fundamentalist Upbringing Is That It's Not Always Healthy To Forgive

I might be going crazy, but I think I'm going to try panhandling tomorrow. Doing gigs and odd jobs is too stressful for me. I'm not homeless, but I can't work and my disability aid is months away. I haven't done panhandling before, and I am rather terrified. But I am going to wear a face mask, a hat, and sunglasses, which will help with the feeling of embarrassment. Wish me luck.

Happy midnight! The old day is gone, and good riddance to it. This is a new day! And every day can be the start of a new era.

∅ Hi, I'm Blue! ∅ Here are some hearts and diamonds for my new Tumblr friends :)

Self-love is important. I am a good person and I deserve to be loved and respected.

I tried to quit nicotine again yesterday. Cue the instability and mental screaming. I couldn't do it. I bought some more nicotine. Panhandling annoys the conservatives, and it will pay for my nicotine. I really need to get out there and panhandle. The worst thing that could happen is a mugger tries to kill me and take my money. I am a giant. I have never been mugged before. The first person who tries to mug me gets to find out what it's like to have all their joints dislocated one by one. But that probably won't happen. I'll take a picture of the panhandling spot and post a tracing this evening.

My self-esteem was based on my job But it seems I am too mentally-disabled to work I guess my self-esteem is based on my art hobby now

Let Bert do his thing. He got flow.

i’m losing my mind

You know, I really hate my community a lot. It felt good to cause a public nuisance by panhandling at an intersection for a couple of hours. I hope that I caused a lot of annoyance for a lot of people. I didn't make any money, but that's not the point. My relationship with my community is now one where I go around asking as many people as possible for money, to express my displeasure. I hope everyone who drove past me at that intersection gets a flat tire. Screw you, everybody in my hometown. Screw all of you and give me money!

∅ Hello, I'm Blue! ∅ I put the letters in different quadrants this time. I'm so clever!

∅ Hi, my name is Blue! ∅ I drew my first Blue! Aren't you proud of me?

I am too depressed to do anything, and my thoughts are troubled by paranoia. However, I feel more stable than I did yesterday. Daily Affirmation: My name is Blue, and feeling bad does not make me a bad person.