I Hate Being Sick So Much

i hate this, I don't want to start over

i am freezing right now, why is the cafeteria so cold

sometimes I just imagine cutting my lip, like dragging the blade across my lower lip. i don't know why, I just do and I'm very very tempted to try it.

i love how I tell him how I'm more suicidal again recently (I hate the 20th/19th of January) and what does that fuck do? "oh..."

and proceeds to forget about it.

man I just don't fucking matter and everyone continually proves it.

what an unlovable thing i’ve become.

“whats your plan b?” - suicide

My ideal body is covered in scars but apparently that’s not an acceptable body goal

2nd degree burns again but this time its from a sunburn. it fucking hurts because this time its blisters unlike a few years ago when the er doctors just cut away the skin (I casually set my hand on fire)

i have posted too much today, I'm going to rot away until the 25th or unless something happens