I Have Posted Too Much Today, I'm Going To Rot Away Until The 25th Or Unless Something Happens

i don't think you get just how much I need A back. i needy my lover back.. I need him to come back. i need to feel okay again. i need him.

i don't wanna speak, I don't wanna do any form of communication, I don't wanna type or write, I don't wanna talk. i don't wanna move. i don't wanna do anything.

again.

again.

again.

i just want to not exist, just wanna lay and rot, just wanna die.

came back just to leave again

it's a never ending cycle

and I really couldn't care.

haha sorry for the late reply, i was busy thinking of all the reasons why i should kms aha.

I swear so much has happened these last 3 days that nothing feels real, and it's not even bad stuff, just very eventful days and it's leaving me very floaty and confused

it feels like I haven't stopped to take a break or take in anything fully

i have an itch at the back of my throat only a shotgun can scratch

i am freezing right now, why is the cafeteria so cold

feeling like blocking everyone but that just feels like too much of a hassle and questions to answer so I'm just going to go off the grid again without telling anyone

we are all born to die right? so is it wrong of me to speed up the process?