Best 30-40 Ish Minutes Of This Week

cutting myself back up sounds absolutely great right now

my range of emotions go from “it’s scary how much i feel” to “it’s scary how much i don’t feel”

mind is being vaguely religious again

i come back after a fucking week and no "what happens "are you okay" or anything from him. fucking bullshit. maybe I should leave again. I'm so tired, upset with everything and everyone. I don't know why I bother with anything.

came back just to leave again

it's a never ending cycle

and I really couldn't care.

i wasn't even aware of that and now I'm very terrified for my account lmao-

i dont know how to ask for help without feeling like a burden

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today's wonderful. my chest fucking hurts like I cant breath but I'm breathing fine. I'm so fucking pissed at everything. i wanna throw hands at a teacher, I swear she's trying to fail me now, I wanna skip this stupid concert, I wanna yell at the director and how she's doing a shit job at teaching, I don't understand this math assignment and I have an A in math so I should understand but I don't, I don't want to stay till the bus I want to go home, its been three months since I've heard from A, I wanna fucking mess up my body and cut everywhere, music is not blocking out anything. FUCK THIS SHIT.

i wish he didn't go to bed at 8 (7 my time) cause now I'm just lonely and bored.