It Was Always You, Your The One Who Always Ran Through My Mind That Year, All You Pain Would Tear My

We got married last February btw, we're free from so many things now and we're doing our best with our current issues. But y'all, we're doing it! Just because things seem impossible now doesn't mean life won't find a silly way to give you the love you deserve. 💖

“I need you so much…

I just want to curl my fingers in the hem of your shirt and bury myself in you…

But that’s hers to do…

Not mine…

You’ll never be mine…

To need…

Especially not the way I need you.”

- My Heart’s Thoughts

You know that quote? The one that says you know its over when your more in love with the memories than with the person standing in front of you? That quote bugged me a lot when we were together. It was over quickly but I held on for you. It’s been months since I left because it hurt me too much, and yet, I continue to hold on

My Hearts Thoughts

“You know when you love someone. It hums through every inch of your body. It makes you smile and laugh and cry. It makes you feel alive, so alive, like nothing can ever touch you. You just feel love.”

— Love / Life

“My friends had always warned me about boys with that mad glint in their eyes, but this was exactly what drew me in. Your passion. The fire that sparked underneath your skin when you talked about something you loved. Your desire to explore, to see as much of this world as you could. To be free, in a way. To escape. It was contagious and intoxicating. I got high on your view of the world and drunk on your stories. But I’d known what you were all along. You were a liar, just like me. It takes one to know one. But what has knowing a punch was about to be thrown ever done to soften the blow? It doesn’t make goodbye any easier to bear. I saw it coming from miles away and it still hurt. It’s funny, isn’t it? How we’re told things aren’t good for us and we still give them a go, because sometimes our hope and our wish to prove everyone wrong outweigh caution. And sometimes going the wrong way is the right thing to do, because we learn to open our eyes to what we could not see before.”

— right mistakes / n.j.

I like the night. Without the dark, we’d never see the stars.

Stephenie Meyer (via lifeofquotations)

#nocturnallifestyle

“No one has ever made you feel this way, how I am loving you now: remember, remember because nobody else remembers. I remember, I do. Imagine for example, how we tread the pavements with your leather shoes, when we cross the bridge when you suddenly hum a song you have heard from nearby folks. It is quite so lovely how you do it. You do it in your own way, that I am moonstruck, as if the moonbeam is coming from your voice, that spontaneous illumination with your movements, your hands that are vital to your nails– transparent, colorless, like spring water in the brooks. If it is with you, these memories, arise, gently opening my heart to take you in– and you will eat me whole, because I feel so small, so small that I am melting, melting and caramelized. We are here, we are here, and nothing has escaped between us, as if the earth and sky meets halfway to give us space: the momentary pause of this liquid ether we hold in our hands, the palpitation in your chest, that is, how I know, time stand still.”

— Chuck Akot, from The Color of Charcoal and Other Essays, IF THE EARTH AND SKY MEETS HALFWAY 

Do you ever,,, drink tea,, and the honey just like SHINES and you feel like you're drinking literal sunlight??? Like it's a little warm and a bit sweet and it almost tastes like you're a little cat laying by the window with the sunshine warming you gently ...

Does anyone know what I mean ..?

What I say: “I’m fine” What I mean: “My life is fine. I’m not. I’m dead. You were the light in my eyes, the warmth that gave me hope. Now I’m without you, pretending I’m good and almost believing it, but your not here, so I’m not good. I’m not fine.”

My Hearts Thoughts

tbh you seem like you were crafted out of fate and neglect

Love is about holding each other up, I can't even stand on my own. Get away from me.

- My Hearts Thoughts