Finding Calm In The 5-7-5 Of It All

when youre in a fandom that is known for being fucking annoying and youre ashamed of it but you still like the thing

the last of the eclipse haikus. from 4/8/24. clearly this day was very inspiring to me.

this is the first image i've created with deep dream generator. i like it so far! it took a few generations to get to this one but i like how it turned out.

The Shape of Ideas

I hope to see you there

Lost.

Navigating our emotions can be disorienting.

One moment passes at the blink of an eye while others seem to linger.

For better or worse being lost is inherently a state of exploration.

I’m finding my way, whatever that may be.

I hope to see you there.

since the jwst is on everyone's minds right now, i want to take a second to remember voyager i, our little interstellar probe that could. it's out past the sun's reach now, traveling away from us at nearly 40,000 mph. and it carries with it the "golden record".

we knew when we sent it that it would eventually leave the solar system, and would someday -- many, many years in the future -- find another star or solar system. eventually. the laws of physics demand it.

and so we put a record of ourselves with it. just in case -- in the highly unlikely, but still possible, event that it happened upon a world with intelligent life that could understand it. our message in a bottle, cast out into the endless sea of space.

we recorded our voices, in many languages. we recorded the sounds of wild animals, of insects, of water rushing. we recorded brainwaves.

ann druyan's brainwaves, in fact. an hour of them, as she thought of all kinds of things.

she and carl sagan worked on this project together, and over the course of their work, they fell in love.

she took the time, during the recordings, to think of him, and how she felt about him.

so that love -- not just earth's existence, or its sounds, or human voices, but love -- would be sent out in our message, cast out into the ocean of space, in the distant hope that someday, somewhere, something would see it and hear us, and know us, and know how we feel.

even if voyager i never finds another life in the universe, even if the golden record is never played, i think it's important that we sent it anyway. what it says about us as a people, our hope and our optimism and our faith and our love -- we cast this all out into the stars.

"dare to cast thy bread upon the sea," indeed.

talk soon

4/24/22

i wrote this one after getting off the phone with an old friend

the signs as ridiculous things alexander the great did according to plutarch

aries: once cried because there were so many worlds to conquer and he hadn't even managed to conquer one

taurus: (when nobody could tame the horse bucephalus and the horse was ordered away) kept talking about how bucephalus was a wonderful horse and they were losing a beautiful creature by taking him away over and over until finally his father let him try to tame the horse

gemini: slept with his copy of the iliad under his pillow

cancer: treated the conquered persians well after he drove king darius to flight because, in his words, darius was his enemy, not persia

leo: would get pissy whenever news of one of his father's great victories would come because he was worried his father wouldn't leave any conquering for him to do

virgo: had a habit of quoting poetry and plays and even did so in terrible situations such as when his father was killed or he was wounded in battle

libra: had a great distaste for athletes and would set up all sorts of competitions for poets and musicians and hunters while pointedly not awarding prizes for more athletic competitions

scorpio: once got mad at a guy and drunkenly threw a cup at him, then made fun of his father when his father was too drunk to do anything about it

saggitarius: traveled so quickly along the coast of pamphylia as to make a legend of himself and then played it off as if it were nothing special

capricorn: slept late on the day when he was supposed to meet darius in battle, and when questioned as to why he was sleeping as if he had already won, smiled and said that he was already victorious for finally getting to go into battle with darius rather than having to chase darius all over the place

aquarius: so admired diogenes the cynic that when diogenes was a dick to him he said that if he were not alexander, he would be diogenes

pisces: after a night of drinking would sleep usually until midday and sometimes even slept the entire day

Tryptophan’s first ever ep, A Deep Breath, is now out on all streaming platforms! Stream it, add it to your playlists! Link in bio! I feel so incredibly lucky to be playing and making music with some of my best friends in the world. Here’s a little album description I wrote: a deep breath, to us, is a chance to stop and calm our nerves, whether it be at the bar you frequent where they always forget your name, when you are waiting for happiness to return, or when you can't quite seem to heal. however, a deep breath is also a moment of gratitude. a moment to take into consideration the small things that make us human and make our lives meaningful. a grassy day in june, a paper coffee cup, and a gentle rustle in the leaves. https://www.instagram.com/p/CY_4LgkFnAL/?utm_medium=tumblr

worthy               4/1/21

worthy of goodness

is learned in time and self trust

is learned in healing