Only .5kg Away From My GW, And I Actually Think I’m Gonna Reach It This Time Considering Besides The

My legs absolutely disgust me.

On another happier note though THE BINGE PASSED THROUGH ME AND IM DOWN TO 51kg AGAIN AMEN HALLELUJAH

I can’t wait for the day I don’t have a muffin top while wearing my favourite jeans

I hate myself so much I don’t feel like I’m good enough I need to be working harder, I feel like I’m so far behind and I can’t do anything right and I feel so alone.

I just finished having the worst binge episode of my life. I’ve gone from 51.9kg to 56kg in the span of 2 days, consumed more than 10,000 calories, 3k at least in the past hour.

It was so disgusting, I sat on the floor shoving food down my throat, throwing up then continuing eating. It spilled everywhere, ice cream all though my carpet, all through my clothes. I tried to purge it out but nothig came up but drool. I sat in that, the drool, leftover throw up and food for what felt like 30 minutes. My stomach hurts, it looks disgusting and I’ve lost my thigh gap.

I was 2 weeks binge free, and now I’ve gone and messed it all up. I don’t even know what to do. My only plan is to take all my laxatives, walk until my legs give out, and cut myself.

I’m never eating again.

My tight pants feel a little looser than the last time I wore them, even though my fatass binged last night and now I’m all bloated.

The binge urges have been hitting hard lately, thankfully I haven’t fully given into them but it’s been causing me to slack off and eat more than planned.

Im praying so hard to keep my restraint tonight when I get home from work, and for this weekend since I’m having a sleepover.

Next week I’m locking in so hard I’ve only got 2 shifts so I’m gonna try liquid fast as many days as I physically can so I can try speed run my goal of reaching 50kg by the end of this month.

I’m so disappointed in myself, my goal was to get to 50kg by the end of this month and now it’s just to get back to where I was.

I’m praying with every little bit of faith I have left that I lose enough weight from this week long fast to get back to 51kg.

I’m so pathetic I can’t believe I’m crying over bread, my mum chucked it out without telling me so now I can’t have what I was planning to eat and I can’t eat any other type of bread and I can’t eat past 3:30 (literally right this minute) so now my whole plans changed. I’m not even hungry but I have work and I always eat before work and now I can’t and everything feels so out of control.

I think my scales broken or something cause I weighed myself this morning and it said I’m 51.8kg but istg I look fatter than I did a couple days ago when I weighed the same amount before I binged.

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