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TW: SUICIDE, VIOLENCE

i want to die. i am so tired of everything. im tired of waking up every morning, just to feel like shit. im tired of having this body. im tired of being myself. im tired of going to school, and im not fucking ready to get a job in the future. i am so tired of every little thing this world has brought upon me. i want to scream. scream until every little thought in my brain leaves. and i want to kick myself until my face caves in. punch myself until my whole head is bleeding. stab myself, until my heart stops. bash my head into a wall, until my brain cant handle it anymore and shuts down. i want to scratch and cut at my skin until its covered with bright red. i want to destroy myself. beat myself until theres nothing left. i have cried, and cried, and cried, and cried. but now, i cant get anything out of my eyes. i just have this glossy look, and i just feel dead. i cant tell if im even human anymore. the way that people treat me, and see me. they see a human girl, a normal human girl. i see a monster, a person who deserves to die. and im happy that i will some day.

oh, to be a big fluffy black wolf sitting in my s/o's lap, my giant fluffy tail reaching and thump-thump-thumping the floor in great happiness <333

im about to watch prisoners!!! wish me luck :)

IMPORTANT

guys, i might go back to the mental hospital again. im still mentally unstable, and su1c1dal. i went back in april, and i have slightly improved, but still unstable, as ive said. i also have self hatred, and i really need to get away from life. my family not supporting my gender and sexuality, and my therapist not supporting my gender identity has been pulling me apart, piece by piece. im tired of everything, and i just need some help. if i dont post anything for awhile, then it means that ive been admitted to the hospital. im really sorry about this, i just need some help.

TW: mention of blood and s/h

mmm eating mac and cheese while staring at my bloody arms from self harm isnt life so great

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my opinion on "Little Miss Sunshine"

i will go ahead and say that this is one of my favorite movies ever. i really connected to the characters (especially dwayne, since i kin him, and uncle frank, since i too have been hospitalized for the same reasons and mentally unstable), and felt every emotion they went through. i really love the message of the movie, that small victories matter in a hyper competitive world that says only big victories matter. dwaynes meltdown really hit home for me, as someone who gets very dedicated to goals, and when i dont mean those goals, my whole world falls apart. and when i mean that my whole world falls apart, i mean it. and when i get angry and sad, i say things i dont mean, i scream and cry, i get violent. but anyways, the dance scene is fuckin amazing. i love how they all dont give a fuck (and i also love the metalhead that claps for them). anyways, out of ten (ten being the best one being the worst) i would give this a ten. (sorry that this post was just a bunch of stuff about dwayne lmao)