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You've heard of Fun With Dick and Jane, now get ready for
suffering with Gansey and Blue
I watched some Harry Potter movies recently, so….
WHAT IS TO LOVE? you think this is it. when you crown him king with his halo dazzling against the blackness of the stars because they, of course, they are dimmed against him. he outshines them all. this is love. WHAT IS TO LOVE? you think this is it. you hollow out his thighs and worship his mouth and surrender to his army. you build a temple out of the prayers you have whispered to him against the breathless warmth of his lips and you kneel. you kneel. this is love. WHAT IS TO LOVE? you think this is it. this scrambling of limbs and waking together in the morning, falling asleep at night with your arm dangling over his sun-stroked (for the sun, even the sun loves him– how could it not?) torso, tracing the dimples of his back with the pins affixed, haphazardly, to your palm. you scar him with needles and he kills you with knives. this is love. WHAT IS TO LOVE? you think this is it. the boldness he has inspired, the boldness he regrets. the calluses on your palm, the calluses he carries in his chest. the fraying leather you don, the shining steel he was born in. you love the idea of one last supernova, you taste the idea of going down in storm and glory on your tongue, a phoenix in the fire, of matching his brilliance for the first and the last time. you know with dread and you know with terrible clarity and you know with the unerring confidence of a boy who knows he has nothing to lose. all you can lose is him. all you can lose is him. and you are saving him, you are, you are saving him from drowning in his own blood. you think that, as you become him and soak up his fire and swallow his flames, that this is it. this is love.
you would burn the world down and build it up brick by brick for him // s.w. (via bluesergente)
So we have a lot of ‘Sirius is beautiful and my word does he know it, his hair is his favourite thing and he revels in the glory of his own splendour’.
But I’m just laughing at the idea of a completely oblivious Sirius who is too busy being hyperactive to ever pay any real attention to what he looks like in the mirror- I mean the boy brushes his teeth sat on the counter chatting rapid fire to the others (much to ‘Fuck Mornings, Fuck You, Fuck Everything’ Remus’s ire), or bouncing around the dorm flinging stuff in his bag. He doesn’t ever really brush his hair- there’s a charm to do that, and then he doesn’t actually have to watch what he’s doing because who has time to actually look at their hair? And it all gets in his fucking face anyway- he keeps it long partially because his mother claims it looks unruly and partially because he just can’t be fucked getting it cut, but one evening in the common room he’s tucking it behind his ears to do his Transfiguration for the 7th time in quarter of an hour and angrily says he’s just going to chop it all off, and there are literally about 15 people around the room (including Remus) who just go ‘NO!’ and then look really awkward but he can not cut it- just that casual elegant way it falls into his eyes and it’s all wavy and silky and so so so pretty, and Lily comes to the aid of Remus like ‘Well Muggle mythology says there was this lion called Sampson, and when they cut off his mane he lost his power. So you shouldn’t cut it off- it’s unlucky. Here, have a hairband.’ and he thinks it’s very odd behaviour but like Ok, fine, people are weird.
And he knows he’s charming because he charms people all the time, and he’s a massive flirt but that’s just because he likes people and it makes him happy to talk to people in a way that makes them feel good about themselves, and it makes him happy to see the smiles and bitten lips and slight flushes that say they’re flattered because it’s nice to make people feel good (except Snape, obviously), and if it means he can worm his way out of detention or get drinks for him and the lads at The Three Broomsticks then so much the better, but he just does not understand why not everyone finds it as easy as he does? Like he tells Peter to get the next round in, tells him what to say to Rosie to get her to forget they’re 16, and Pete comes back really dejected like ‘I said what you told me and it didn’t work’. And Sirius is really confused by this like ‘What, but you said the exact same thing I just said?’
And really why do girls giggle so much? Do they do that all the time? Why? At least Evans is normal, but some of the others actually freak him out a bit, and truth be told sometimes the blokes are no better. And it becomes a massive inside thing, especially amongst the Gryffindors, like ‘Someone should tell him he’s a fucking adonis.’ ‘What? No way! His ego’s just fine as is- don’t inflate it any more.’ ‘But he’s so pretty it’s just wrong for him not to realise.’ ‘No! If you tell him, maybe he’ll turn really picky…’ ‘You do realise he is so picky already that he has literally never had a girlfriend?’ ‘Oh come on, he’s been pining after Remus Lupin for years!’
And it’s just something that’s never really occurred to him- to be bothered about what he looks like. Maybe it’s so many years of an abusive home being looked at like he’s dirt, but he’s got a remarkable resistance and ignorance towards the way people look at him, good or bad. And it’s only really Remus who breaks past that. Because he’s got such eerily perceptive eyes, it’s just like he’s looking right into your soul, and it’s sort of uncomfortable and it makes his skin go all crawly but he loves it- it’s a sort of adrenaline rush to feel so totally exposed, and he feels like Remus likes what he sees when he looks at him like that. He feels valued and important and special, like the way it makes him smile to make other people feel, only so much more intense, and when, eventually, Remus is brushing that bloody fucking hair out of his eyes and down his cheek and says he’s beautiful, he feels like maybe he is. And it’s got absolutely nothing to do with the way he looks in the mirror.
Lucky Blue Smith in Interview magazine
Ph: Guy Lowndes Style: Anda & Masha
Can you imagine all the upperclassmen sitting around talking about Neil? Exchanging all the little things they learned about them that day?
like
Matt slamming into the girls dorm hissing, “he hates vegetables, he told this to me, he hates vegetables but he loves fruit.” And all the girls gasp.
“He sent me a TT A TT emoji from his English class.” Renee says. She’s been saving this information until just this moment when they’re all together. She’d seen it in the middle of her tutor session and delicately touched her fingers to her mouth.
“Nicky taught him that.” Matt snaps his fingers and points at her, excited that he knows another thing.
“He hates his English class, it bores him to tears but he said it’d be useful.” Dan says.
“Isn’t he taking a speech class or something? Maybe it’s for interviews?” Allison says, because being pulled into The Great Neil Josten Mystery is honestly the best thing to happen in weeks. The first time she laughed since, well, ya know, was when Neil ate a beet for the first time in the cafeteria and immediately stuck his tongue out far enough for the beet to fall off.
"What could his english class be useful for? What could he mean. Does he want to be a writer? Does he like books? What’s this about?“ Matt paces around the room and they just spend hours breaking down everything they know about their new fox.
Until the fox in question comes in to hang out with them before his practices with Kevin. And their heads just snap to him like “NEIL.”
And it startles him every time.
like i know rich people live on a completely different realm of existence than me but how can a 14/15/16 year old kid with ptsd and a probable anxiety disorder be permitted by his own parents to just… roam the continents of the world… essentially by himself… next to no supervision… what’s up with that… “bye tiny son see ya next christmas don’t die” like ?
"#and now i'm thinking about the fic#where ronan and gansey-on-fire#accidentally get married" Now you clearly need to write that!
I nominate anyone else to write it! Which is what I told allthroughoursplendor. And then she told me I was no fun, which is accurate!
But if I WAS writing it Adam and Blue would mostly find this hilarious, since neither of them were even thinking about getting married so it’s not like it changes their immediate plans, and it would change literally nothing about Gansey and Ronan’s relationship. Because seriously. Gansey and Ronan the two-headed creature. Gansey and Ronan of the “this is precisely why I didn’t want to have a baby with you.” Like, Gansey was always going to be the first person to the hospital/jail/moving van rental place anyway. Just now he can do all of the shit he was doing for Ronan before with an added legal benefit.
You know, until Helen and/or Declan is just like ‘seriously you guys, the Gansey parents are displeased and your taxes are going to be fucked and this is not cute or funny, no Helen stop laughing, it’s really not funny.’ Helen thinks it’s kind of funny.
Adam’s mostly like, “WE LEFT YOU ALONE FOR A WEEK?”
And Blue chimes in with, “YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO GO CAMPING, WHY WERE YOU EVEN IN VEGAS?”
And Ronan says, “Camping got boring, Vegas had better food.”
Gansey sniffs and just says, “the Grand Canyon was a thing of splendor Ronan, I don’t know what’s wrong with you. We didn’t even get to take a donkey into the bottom.”
Blue rolls her eyes. “At least being married hasn’t changed you into people who aren’t contrary assholes.”
“The coyotes were making Chainsaw nervous.”
“The lack of A/C was making you nervous, more like,” Adam says, because he has heard Ronan whine about the heat in his apartment SO MANY TIMES.
Ronan gives him his best shit eating grin.
“That’s gotta be a five hour drive,” Blue says.
“Three hours, fifty minutes,” Ronan breaks in.
Blue huffs. “Why can’t you just do whims like the rest of us? Maybe get a different haircut or paint your nails something fancy?”
“What are you saying about my hair?” Gansey asks.
At the same time Ronan says “My nails are already fucking fancy enough. Plus I let Noah paint them black that one time and it took forever to get that shit off.”
And that’s when Adam starts laughing because holy shit their boyfriends are the most ridiculous people on the fucking planet and that’s the only explanation. “Let me see it.”
“You okay being my mistress then?” Ronan pulls a thin gold band out of his pocket and tosses it at Adam who catches it mid-air and turns it over.
“Mistress,” Adam says, and giggles in spite of himself. “It sounds so clandestine and exciting. Not at all like I have to put up with your socks on my fucking pillow.”
“My socks are a gift and so are the feet that go in them.”
“Gansey, make your husband behave,” Blue says, just trying it out. She finds this is also hilarious and joins Adam in the giggling.
“I still don’t want to have a baby with you,” Gansey says with fake misery, just to make sure it stands.
“That’s what the mistress is for. Right, Parrish?”
Adam closes his fist around the ring and punches Ronan lightly in the shoulder.
And that’s how Ronan and Gansey are married for a whole two weeks or something before older heads prevail and they have it annulled on the grounds it was never consummated. Ronan chimes in that he consummated it many times, just with someone else. Blue says that that’s not what consummated means. Adam says nothing. He just rolls his eyes a hundred times, because seriously you guys. Why can’t we ever doing anything the way normal people do it? How do we always find ourselves in these situations? You guys, seriously.
i can’t get adam parrish: spontaneous sleeper off my mind like…..
adam routinely falling asleep on gansey’s shoulder whenever he sits shotgun in the pig
ronan being put on ‘crash watch’ during latin because everone knows that adam hates sleeping in class but sometimes it just happens
(crash watch includes taking adam’s notes, waking him up ~gently~, and being a good boyf)
adam and persephone having naps in cabeswater after he finishes his training for the day
sometimes blue encourages adam to sleep when they hang out. usually he ends up sprawled over her lap and snoring loudly as she watches sitcoms, and usually orla or persephone document it in the form of like 60 pictures
blue had one printed and taped to her wall
noah and adam staying up late and talking and talking until they end up cuddled on adam’s bed (adam is lil’ spoon ofc)
adam sleeping in the hondayota during his breaks
ronan and adam staying up studying for finals and adam eventually slumping over and crashing on ronan’s lap (ronan’s face is so red google earth can see him through the roof of st. agnes)
sometimes i just go through the shit i highlight to cheer myself up because im so fucking hilarious.
Don’t mind me, I’m just going to go lay face-down on the floor and think about Neil’s insistence on thoughtful navigation of Andrew’s post-abuse boundaries.
adam’s kisses are always reflect exactly what he feels. no jokes, no bullshit. when he kisses, he is trying to say something with it from the very moment he begins to lean in. to adam kisses are one of the many ways he can express what he’s feeling towards certain people. with blue, he was never able to say all of the things he felt, nor could he convey them through a kiss. sometimes he regrets it, other times he’s a bit glad he didn’t have the chance to let blue completely see into him that way. with ronan it was so much different. with ronan, adam is completely unable to hold back. he’s speaking a thousand words per second with each kiss and ronan, a master of all languages understands it all.
ronan’s kisses are softer than anticipated. ronan is a boy that shines from miles away without even trying to, a true child of the moon in the fact that not all the beauty in him is due to the light of those surrounding him, but they do illuminate him in ways he couldn’t achieve on his own. this is not a well known fact unless you are one of his close friends, so when adam and ronan kiss for the first time, adam isn’t completely surprised. he knows ronan more than ronan thinks he does, but he is still taken aback by the way ronan melted into him, easily accepting and taking all adam had to give. in ronan’s opinion there was no room for him to put up walls when it was between him and adam, adam and him. and though ronan did not have any secrets to share through kisses the way adam did, their kisses were still very much a conversation. adam would pour words into every kiss “i need you, i need this, we need each other” and ronan would press back, his arms around adam’s neck, his hips pressed into adam’s, and the way he’d bite down on adam’s lip, everything was an answer. every move was a thousand “yeses” spilling back into adam.
The houses snap chat stories
Gryffindor: The outdoors, running in the park, going to the gym, hanging out with friends, road trips.
Ravenclaw: Libraries, cup of tea and their latest novel, museums and galleries, out of focus pictures of the night sky.
Hufflepuff: Freshly baked cake, movie night with friends, cute cats/dogs spotted on the street, music festivals.
Slytherin: Half faced selfies, hot coffee and cigarettes, books, daily picture of their cat/dog, bed hair, the clock showing that they are awake at 3 am.
why almost everyone consider that Ronan is passive?? can u explain it pls i'm just trying to get this shit right (also bless u n ur hcs)
aaaaa ok. so. like ronan is into adam (so. so into adam) and he has been for so so long and he hasnt acted on it. and hes not planning to act on it. it hasnt even occurred to him that adam might reciprocate his feelings? like, he hasnt even had that thought, that adam could ever– he does nice things for adam and he doesnt even expect any acknowledgment or anything? or repayment? its not bc hes hoping adam will like him back or whatever, hes actually so far gone for him that he doesnt care if adam likes him back???? because he never will, ronans reconciled with that, adam doesnt like him like that and its fine ??? he doesnt care ??
hmm also i feel like, to me anyway, theres definitely this ~double side~ thing about ronan’s character, i.e. that he looks like bad news / tough guy / punk, u know? he drinks and he drives recklessly and he fucks with danger on the daily. so youd sort of expect him to be dominant or whatever? but i read this whole side of his character as a sort of facade and like a wall hes built around himself to not get hurt? bc the world fucks you up – if u show emotions or are vulnerable or anything youll get wrecked? like, ronan’s facade of having no feelings is actually him trying to deal with the fact that he has so many feelings. like, fuck off, he feels everything he feels so much. but hes been hurt enough bc of that so he tries to shut it down and act cool or whatever? eh, so u get the idea hes like. dominant, yeah. but um, hes not.
also he is super super inexperienced ok he doesnt understand the concept of casual relationships At All ??? and hes rly rly gone for adam he just wants to make him happy so maybe that plays a role as well? like he puts himself second and adam first so like. idk lets adam do with him what he wants sounds sort of harsh but ?? yeah
gansey giving blue a mint leaf to chew on any time he wants to kiss her. blue accepting it, a part of her realizes this is the way gansey kisses her. when blue runs her tongue across her teeth well after she has disposed of the mint leaf she feels a small thrill from the after taste. the dull taste of mint is what she imagines gansey’s tongue would taste like. she wonders if she’ll ever be able to kiss him as long as the taste lingers in her mouth. she counted 6 hours. will she ever be able to monopolize gansey’s time for an entire 6 hours with her lips pressed against his?
ronan chewing on the leather bands around his wrist when ever he wants to taste adam. adam doesn’t know, and ronan will not be the one to tell him. though with the way ronan looks at adam when he’s toying with a band between his teeth, he wouldn’t be surprised if adam hasn’t picked up on it already. he’ll continue doing it anyway, it’s his own guilty pleasure.
ronan and blue up in the middle of the night, staring at their respective ceilings, and thinking, “this is it, this is the closest i’ll ever get.”
look this is really dumb but noah and ronan totally do that thing where they point to random stuff that they think abstractly reminds them of their friends and inform them “that’s you”
like gansey knocks a bowl of cereal onto the floor and ronan points at it and turns to adam “that’s you” or noah sees two squirrels fighting and points like “that’s you guys” to blue and ronan
gansey tries to fit in with the cool kids but he doesn’t get the point so he just points to really pretty flowers in cabeswater like “adam that’s you” and adam’s blushing just “gansey pls you’re embarrassing me in front of our friends” or he uses it to awkwardly flirt with blue like gansey: *pointing to the sun* blue that’s you bc you’re bright and painful to look at
the best parts of the tdt outtakes:
when it’s ronan’s turn to take out the trash he takes the bag to kavinsky’s place and dumps garbage all over his lawn and/or car
actual puppy richard campbell gansey iii hoping that blue will notice he’s giving consideration to adam’s work scedule; blue not noticing because she’s too busy fixing her hair
“why can’t you be like you used to be?” / “i don’t know”
gansey, ronan, and noah deciding that the dead nightmare-bird-man thing was too gross to deal with without first showing it to blue and getting the Blue Sargent Stamp of Approval on the fact that it’s gross as hell
ronan looking at jesse dittley’s yard and seeing that all the random debris had been repurposed for flowers and beauty and recognizing that as a sign that blue had been there, how sweet is that
“i was unaware kavinsky was familiar with the nuances of the united states postal service” gansey u are being blackmailed right now pls act like it
ronan quoting ovid at an inappropriate time; adam recognizing it, being “furious” and probably turned on
“ronan,” he’d said, voice tragic, already blaming himself, making it about them and not ronan, “you damn fool”
the entirety of the last scene, which i’m not going to touch with my dirty hands
in conclusion: see you all in hell bc i’m there now
literally do not ever think about ronan who hasn’t laughed truly in years giggling against adam parrish’s lips i repeat do Not
[1] it's getting cold outside. it's has snowed way too much and the gang are literally stuck @ monmouth because it's just much to dangerous to drive home with the amount of snow that has fallen and continues to fall. i dont even know where i'm going with this. i just imagine huge cuddle puddles on gansey's bed, copious amounts of hot chocolate being consumed, noah being banished for a bit cause HE'S mAKING IT COLD! a lot of poking and "who did that's?", sappy platonic love confessions
[2] “i love you all so much i could kiss you” everyone halfheartedly wiggles away from gansey cheek kisses. what a sap. they love him too. adam and blue fall asleep in the cuddles first. gansey and ronan don’t bother continuing much of a conversation after that. they watch the snow fall from the windows until their eyes are too heavy to keep open. Noah makes sure they all have covers on them so they don’t get sick. he loves them so much.
this is so dang cute gdi
I don’t know, my favorite was always witch weather. That moment that in a gust of wind or in the rumbling sky or at the edge of a fog bank where suddenly, you feel different. A restlessness, a sense of longing for a place that does not exist. I don’t know if anyone else has felt the electric tense changing of that moment. It calls the magic to your skin. For a moment, you feel ancient and powerful and lonely, as if you forgot something important. Witch weather. For some reason, in that wild instant: you remember you are alive, and that means some part of you belongs to the everlasting.
Ok but what if Adam became like a Disney princess, like animals are oddly attracted to him. From pets just really liking him to flocks of birds following him around and that insistent with the bear, anyway the gang loves it. Noah has an army of bunnies, Gansey and Ronan are training some of the strays and blue is very fond of one of the cats and Adam is just exasperated by the whole thing. and Ronan starts calling Adam princess and he wants to hate it but loves it. I think about this too much
this is so gorgeous :’)
adam parrish: i am so busy all of the time i have a partial scholarship and three jobs
adam parrish: also im emotionally exhausted all the time, from living in an abusive home and my self-image facing off against my survival instincts
adam parrish: but sure, i'd love to spend time looking for a dead welsh king
adam parrish: and i totally have the time to pursue a relationship
adam parrish:
adam parrish:
adam parrish:
adam parrish: tbh being a sentient forest's magician isn't that big of a commitment
THE RAVEN GIRLS AU: In that moment, Blue was a little in love with all of them. Their magic. Their quest. Their awfulness and strangeness. Her raven girls.