Alone:

A quote from Lang Leav’s book Love and Misadventure. ‪#‎tbt‬ na agad because ‪#‎Lullabies‬ is already out and I still don’t have a copy. Huhu

Dreaming of summertime and watching the sunset by the ocean

The story of us:

I’ve been single for over two years now and I haven’t been fussed about getting into a relationship at all. People constantly ask why I am still single, there is not answer just simply because I wasn’t bothered by the fact that I was single, I am happy and I don’t need someone to make me happy because really only I can make myself happy. 

Recently someone i vaguely knew as a child walked into my life, it was very un-expecting and I had no intentions on getting into a relationship. He fooled me as it was Aprils fool, I instantly found myself smiling at the situation because it was so funny. He made me laugh without even knowing even when I was rejected as it was a joke. This moment was the beginning on a journey I didn’t plan.

I obviously had expectations to the person I would want to make a life with, hence why I’ve been single and haven’t let a soul into my life. I’ve always wanted someone who I could openly be myself with, someone who knew my whole life journey, someone who understood my beliefs and values without judgements, someone who had a gentle soul but with strong moralities, someone my family would love, someone not only attractive on the outside but also on the inside. But most of all, I wanted someone who I could potentially spend the rest of my life with. This is why it makes it hard for me because how do you know its the right one? Does the right one even exist?  

I can honestly admit that I’ve never felt love. What is even love? Love really has no meaning because to me love is everything. I wonder where this journey will take us... perhaps I might find the love of my life? 

Open your mind. You will be amazed at what you learn. Listen to your heart. You will be amazed at what you already know. 🌻🌾🌳🍃🌞

Food:

Under Single Fin (forgot the name of restaurant) Our first Balinese meal was to die for. I am so obsessed with Nasi Goreng and getting to eat it authentically is what I’ve always imagined to do. In this aspect, authenticity is what we all should do and aim for; imitations aren’t always 100% right on the spot and won’t satisfy.

Although restaurants may serve food to our standard, myself personally feel in love with the street food and little fast food restaurants along the side of the road. For about $1.50-$2, you can get delicious fried rice, noodles and vegetables that will melt in your mouth. Some may feel uncomfortable with street food but let me tell you, I am still alive and didn't get sick once from street food.

Playing in the canola field #canolafield #hippie #gypsy #happy #yoga #calm #relax

Where to now?

You know that saying 'when one door closes, another opens'? Well I'm in this predicament except without an open door of opportunity, not just yet, and don't know when. So I'm just going with the flow. Living within the usual routine. Work, home, see friends, eat, sleep, repeat. The idea of moving on from the last chapter I can't grasp. Maybe I'm just afraid to actually grow up and start making a living. I kind of don't want to yet. The thought of waking up every morning and going to work really is unpleasant. I want to go into the world and grow up this way. I don't know why people go to uni and get into the work field straight away. I'm the total opposite. I just finished my degree and I don't want to work. It's not because I won't enjoy the work, it's because I don't want to start working as of yet, I feel like this may take away the opportunity for me to be gypsie (a person who moves from one place to another). I don't think there's anything wrong with this pathway. The best way to grow up physically, mentally and intellectually I believe is through the interactions with people of different cultures, to be in an unusual environment and to fully seek the unknown. This will be the new door open to me and I will happily walk through it.

Mantra

I search to be completely human; to feel, to give, to talk, to laugh, to get lost, to be found, to dance, to love; to just be so human

Oh Miranda stop it

Yoga is like music: the rhythm of the body, the melody of the mind, and the harmony of the soul create the symphony of life.

-B.K.S. Iyengar