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Why I love you

I love you for so many reasons Big and small All of them are wonderful I love you for all the special qualities That make you one of a kind The only one in the world for me I love you for the things you do for me That bring such special meaning to my life I love you for the silent times When your eyes and arms tell me all I need to know I love you just because I do Because now In the deepest part of my heart A place where nothing was before There is love

Let it be... Ever get bother by what someone does, what they say and how they treat you? And you just bottle it all up because you just don't want to cause any conflicts? The only way I can deal with this is to just let it be and to let it go. If someone really cares, if that person really knows you they will know how to treat you, if they low how to treat you, they will treat you right. I guess it's just a matter of how to respond to the situation. Being a sensitive person, my feelings get hurt easily and I am always self aware. That is me. I don't expect everyone to be like me, and if everyone was like me, this world would be full of sookie la las. I find pleasure in writing and having a vent. It's my way of processing my annoyance with certain people and events that affect me. Best advice to myself, whatever happens happens. Just let it be. You yourself be the person to decide how you will let it affect you.

Love and stress: Multitasking doesn't come easy, unless you're not aware that you are multitasking. I have found myself in a predicament that involves being childishly in love and staying focused to get through the last few weeks of university. I'm not here complaining about life, but to talk about how I feel and how I am managing this stage of my life. This stage of my life is actually the topping to a bitter dessert. I've been studying ongoing and 5 years later, I am literally coming to the end of my schooling years. In about two weeks I am officially done and can start looking for a proper job. But lately I know that I have been slacking with prioritizing uni with love. When you're in love, all that you want to do is spend every breathing second with your companion. No matter the hours and hours spent together, it just isn't enough. I could lay in bed all day without a single thought of having to get my assessments done, I could stare at his face without getting sore from smiling from happiness, I could listen to him talk for hours without being afraid to get sick of his voice. It feels like paradise with every eye contact and I honestly don't think I could ever get sick of studying his expressions. In the other hand, I am quiet aware of the fact that I keep pushing aside work that will determine whether I will walk away as a teacher or not. I am aware that I may be enjoying the love life a little to much. I am aware that all my assesments are piling up, and they need to get done as soon as possible otherwise I will become an owl. I am aware of it all and I am somewhat stressed about it, but the advantage for me is that I am quiet a chiller when it comes to meeting deadlines. I find myself work better under pressure, knowing that I need to get it done. That is how I deal with it. I've gotten through the past 5 years of uni with this attitude and this performance. If I had done it wrong, I wouldn't be here today... So I must be doing it right... In my own way. Loving him has been the best thing that's happened to me since I bought my first ever car, which was a huge step into my pathway to becoming an independent young woman. I know that my work needs to be done, I am quiet informed of it, but being in love is just so much more fun. I will get my work done eventually.

“Nawww.. Summa, you are the best girl I ve met over my past 24 years. I have never had this kind of relationship b4. The only closest woman in my life ever was my mum. Now you are the second person. I no ur stressed about placement. I feel your sadness due 2 ur sister going to departure and of course ur parent’s disapproval. But you know what, take this as a test. And take me as a your fellow study partner, we ll get through this hardship together and believe in your heart that we will have a really strong unbreakable bond. Life is not always for the most fastest, smartest and gifted. Life is about finding coping mechanisms to adapt to new challenges. Hence we become the most dominant species on earth. Also I am sincerely sorry for the relationship mishaps between you and your older sisters. They dearly love you a lot and it is one of my biggest no go zone to get in between family relationships. Please know that I can not change anything regarding my race, culture and traditions. Stay hopeful and keep the faith my beautiful girl. You will always be in my heart for as long as the sun rises and the moon laminates. Enjoy the time you have your family especially your Saki, you are in a time were hardship is prevailing ur wits but ill be by your side. I will be ur savior, lover and a guide. Enjoy today with new motives and forget wats been said and done. We only live once and we only live in the present. I love you dearly my Summa. Ill catch you around yeh!”

The story of us:

I’ve been single for over two years now and I haven’t been fussed about getting into a relationship at all. People constantly ask why I am still single, there is not answer just simply because I wasn’t bothered by the fact that I was single, I am happy and I don’t need someone to make me happy because really only I can make myself happy. 

Recently someone i vaguely knew as a child walked into my life, it was very un-expecting and I had no intentions on getting into a relationship. He fooled me as it was Aprils fool, I instantly found myself smiling at the situation because it was so funny. He made me laugh without even knowing even when I was rejected as it was a joke. This moment was the beginning on a journey I didn’t plan.

I obviously had expectations to the person I would want to make a life with, hence why I’ve been single and haven’t let a soul into my life. I’ve always wanted someone who I could openly be myself with, someone who knew my whole life journey, someone who understood my beliefs and values without judgements, someone who had a gentle soul but with strong moralities, someone my family would love, someone not only attractive on the outside but also on the inside. But most of all, I wanted someone who I could potentially spend the rest of my life with. This is why it makes it hard for me because how do you know its the right one? Does the right one even exist?  

I can honestly admit that I’ve never felt love. What is even love? Love really has no meaning because to me love is everything. I wonder where this journey will take us... perhaps I might find the love of my life? 

I think I understand now why so many artists create out of a place of sadness. Pain is one of the most powerful emotions a soul can feel, and when it holds hands with love, it is intoxicating and overwhelming to the point that such small hearts must project some of that pain into art, music or poetry, or be consumed by it. We can only relieve ourselves of a fraction of that pain though. If we got rid of all of it we would be nothing. Absent. Sometimes our pain, just like our happiness, defines us

Z.M.   (via wordsnquotes)

So beautifully written

Set up camp on the front step of each moment and always say ‘yes’ to the present moment.

I’ve met and crossed paths with many inspirational people, i have also stayed friends with few of my high school friends, all these people will forever be my long-life friends. As we age and mature, I’ve learnt to grow gracefully and gratefully alongside people you can laugh with. 

Over the long weekend, we set up camp on the front step of a river bank, each moment along the rive with these people were a memorable one. Friends who bring out the best in you should be cherished, nothing in this world is more perfect than surrounding yourself with people you are able to be yourself with and together love to watch the world go by. Being unconscious of the terrible situations that are happening around us and the world. The horrible human acts are closed off from exposure and for a short time, the escape into the wilderness escorted by good people is indispensable.  

Moral of this story; take a walk away from the busy life into the nurturing space of mother natures arms. Enjoy the disagreements, laughter, tears, stories and connections that come when you share a long history with the close friends. Be grateful for all that was, all that is, and all that is to come. 

Mantra

I search to be completely human; to feel, to give, to talk, to laugh, to get lost, to be found, to dance, to love; to just be so human

And I realize that no matter where I am, whether in a little room full of thought, or in this endless universe of stars and mountains, it’s all in my mind.

Lonesome Traveler (Jack Kerouac)

Hotel: Obviously each to their own will find a shelter that best suits them. These are the places I stayed at and I’m glad I stayed at these places as I felt like a princess.

The Aston - Uluwatu

Monday morning we get up and enjoy our buffet breakfast at the Aston. This hotel is new and has only been around for two years. It’s quiet luxurious and modern. Great view of the coastline and in the far distance is Kuta and Seminyak. For two nights here, the Ashton is very affordable ($130 per night); which includes breakfast and endless Wi-Fi. If you want to stay away from the big touristy location, Uluwatu is a great escape. Depending on your bargaining skills (mine sucks) you can go to other places quiet cheap as the location is still quiet central still.

Villa Kalisat - Ubud

The things I would do to back to Villa Kalisat!! This location is magical. Entwine with the mountain and palm tree jungle, this villa is on the edge giving you a 180degree view of what is in front you. The Villa itself makes you feel like your in a Buddist dream and definitely feels like one of them postcard advertisement you see about the Bali villas. At also an affordable price ($150 per night), which includes breakfast and Wi-Fi, you get to relax and embrace the beautiful surrounding. At the bottom of the mountain is a river, if you ask the workers nicely, someone will take you to the bottom and you can enjoy a swim looking up into the mountains. Feeling nostalgic thinking back to it.  

 Astanya Kunti – Seminyak

This apartment was average. It did meet our requirement, as we wanted a kitchen to cook our own meal. The four of us had this massive two-room apartment to ourself. Our room was a fair bit away from the pool so we spent most our time locked in our room under the air conditioner, as we couldn’t be bothered with the 3 mins trip to the pool. For four people, this accommodation was really affordable, highly recommended it for families with little kids or groups.

Food:

Under Single Fin (forgot the name of restaurant) Our first Balinese meal was to die for. I am so obsessed with Nasi Goreng and getting to eat it authentically is what I’ve always imagined to do. In this aspect, authenticity is what we all should do and aim for; imitations aren’t always 100% right on the spot and won’t satisfy.

Although restaurants may serve food to our standard, myself personally feel in love with the street food and little fast food restaurants along the side of the road. For about $1.50-$2, you can get delicious fried rice, noodles and vegetables that will melt in your mouth. Some may feel uncomfortable with street food but let me tell you, I am still alive and didn't get sick once from street food.

The Rock Bar is locate at Asanya Resort, Although we didn’t stay at this resort we still wanted to see the one and only Rock Bar. A $15.00 taxi ride from our hotel got us to the Rock Bar, the line was ridiculously long and fortunately the weather wasn’t on our side. We ended up getting one cocktail (price ranges from $13-$20) and than got forced to leave as there was no under cover area for us to stay dry and sheltered.  

Single Fin and  Badang Badand Beach - Uluwatu

We came here with no plans aside from accommodation and notknowing much about the landscape/landmark of Bali. Using instagram as a guide to see the pretty places, we get a taxi (he ripped us off $20 for a 10 mins ride) to Single Fin and the surroundings. We were greeted by the locals with many endless smiles, some spoke to us wanting to know what nationality we were and overall they were just such beautiful and genuine people. We basically spent our whole day around Single Fin, enjoying the ocean view and surfers catching big waves around the cliff. We than headed to Badung Badung beach, which was a calmer beach/ocean with many market stalls full of beautiful and vibrant coloured materials.

Flying over South Australia and the Northern Territory was so hypnotic. My fear for flying was excluded from my thought as I starred intently outside the window. 

Bali Retreat

Bali has never really been a location I've wanted to see. I've been to Thailand and assumed that Bali would be similar; hot, packed, dirty, beggars, annoying street markets and people ripping you off. But wow was I shocked!  And yes to an extent Bali was similar to Thailand in relations to the weather, shops and street markers. Early January was my first trip to Bali, during this time of year is their wet season (but still hot as hell). It was a trip more focused on exploring Bali, relaxing and pampering rather than the party destination scene (which most people assume Bali is), but I did go to a few bars and enjoyed a few bevys... or two.  

This post is more a reflection in combination with some recommendations for many beautiful places I stumbled across while in Bali.

We landed Saturday midnight at Denpasar airport. The minute you walk out of the plane, the heat and humidity hits you in the face. This time of year is the wet season and because it’s such a hot country, the rain makes it dry and sticky.

"Some kind of misery makes you hate the world, but some kind makes you hate yourself"

Summa Tun

Movement of life

I get really giddied up when I think about the people we meet in life. The way the universe/god places people in our path. The connections we share and when we are in sync with another being, this is so mind blowing. These people will leave a footprint in our heart, these important people can either stay in our life or they leave in the physical realm. But it doesn't matter that they leave because being able to live in the moment and accepting that circumstances may chance will leave you in a peaceful state of mind. They will always be there in your heart, because they helped form your heart. There’s no getting over that. 

Recipe for creation:

I wondered through the internet to find a nice Balinese salad recipe (I am heading over to Bali soon), I stumbled across a salad called the 'seasonal salad', and instantly I fell in love with the name, so creatively simple. The name justifies for the salad and the best thing about this is that you can put every edible vegetable you want into a bowl. And that was the recipe.  It's super healthy and just what I need for my summer body diet.

I tweaked the recipe a little and made an Asian dressing to go with the theme. Here is my version for the seasonal salad called 'Summa's Seasonal Salad'

Ingredients

Green cabbage

Tomato

Radish

Carrot

Lebanese cucumber

Bean sprout (ready to eat)

Potato (boiled)

Egg (boiled)

Prawns (optional)

Coriander (for garnish)

Dressing

Lime

Fish sauce

Soy sauce

Palm sugar

1 hot chilli

1 garlic

Method:

Chop or cut up the vegetable they way you want it. Put it into a bowl. Mix it all together. Pour the dressing over it.

We are not in high school anymore!

High school is one of the greatest milestone of our teen life. We experience what life is fully made of; to make decisions that resulted in serious consequences, to take risks, to explore our boundaries, to find our weaknesses and strengths, to fall in love, to lie and keep secrets, and to find ourselves in the midst of it all. But most of all, in high school, we make life long friends... or do we?

Its been four years since I finished high school, I can honestly say that I have definitely made a few life long friends, some I even met from primary school. The purpose of this post is look into a bigger picture of letting go and moving on, and  I'll be using my high school group or 'possie' as a metaphor.

Having a big group of friends is awesome, you look fearful and the sense of belonging is something not many get. To keep the group alive, there would be on the regular occasion a group get together. The first year or two was really good and fun, the momentum of catching up and seeing everyone again was ecstatic. But four year later and the spirit is kind of gone, and I think that it's totally fine. We are now young adults, we have a different pathway and they may not meet. We enjoy activities others may disagree with. We have individual beliefs values that we live by and others find difficult to understand. We are not in high school anymore, we are grown up and have our own life journey. When we have these catch ups, the group seems divided and the vibe is just uncomfortably awkward, this is due to past beefs, fragile friendships,  personality clashes and ultimately a different way of life.

Personally, I think moving on and leaving behind a stage of our life is fine. Acknowledging and being thankful for the inevitable is all that can be done now. It's not forgetting because that is impossible, its about accepting that sometimes things wont always be the same. Time  changes people and we just have to deal with it, just like the transition after high school.

Where to now?

You know that saying 'when one door closes, another opens'? Well I'm in this predicament except without an open door of opportunity, not just yet, and don't know when. So I'm just going with the flow. Living within the usual routine. Work, home, see friends, eat, sleep, repeat. The idea of moving on from the last chapter I can't grasp. Maybe I'm just afraid to actually grow up and start making a living. I kind of don't want to yet. The thought of waking up every morning and going to work really is unpleasant. I want to go into the world and grow up this way. I don't know why people go to uni and get into the work field straight away. I'm the total opposite. I just finished my degree and I don't want to work. It's not because I won't enjoy the work, it's because I don't want to start working as of yet, I feel like this may take away the opportunity for me to be gypsie (a person who moves from one place to another). I don't think there's anything wrong with this pathway. The best way to grow up physically, mentally and intellectually I believe is through the interactions with people of different cultures, to be in an unusual environment and to fully seek the unknown. This will be the new door open to me and I will happily walk through it.

Love your imperfections is life

Body comparisons. 

Aminosity towards unknown

The other day, someone broke into my car by smashing my window. This made me furious because all my identity was gone, the thought of someone else knowing my details gave me a nightmare. Not only that but now I am left with the responsibility to get the window repaired. I was full of rage and felt like the world was against me. I wanted to do bad things and prayed that the thief had something terribly absurd happen to him/her/them. I hated the person who did this and I don’t even know the person. 

After so much anger , I realised this behaviour was something I was against. I acted like Emily Thorne from Revenge. The anger was eating up my peace. I took out my anger to the people who are closet to me. I felt so angry at everything. I cried because I was annoyed. Within a week, this behaviour needed to stop. I reflected and knew I had to accept what had happen, and move on. I realised I was being a sook. Why was I making a scene over something I could repair? People are suffering from illnesses, dying of hunger, fighting to stay alive, and I’m over here crying over a stolen wallet.

Bad things will happen but we cannot let these bad things take away our happiness. Some people are raised up with no love, all they see around them are hate and how to survive on a daily basis. I need to not cry over a materialistic item and focus on the real humanity issue.

Open your mind. You will be amazed at what you learn. Listen to your heart. You will be amazed at what you already know. 🌻🌾🌳🍃🌞

7/11 pre BYO cup. Happy international peace day ✌️

🌼🌼 Adventure time with special souls to the endless yellow field. Summer will be full of adventures I bet 😊🌼🌼

Listen to me, your body is not a temple. Temples can be destroyed and desecrated. Your body is a forest—thick canopies of maple trees and sweet scented wildflowers sprouting in the under wood. You will grow back, over and over, no matter how badly you are devastated.

Beau Taplin (via jinx—removing)

You are not a temple. You are a forest

This dress is to die for!

www.bohemiandiesel.com/photography/shoots/jewelry/ax-apple-with-asher-moss

The meaning of life is just to be alive. It’s so plain and so obvious and so simple. Yet everyone is in panic searching for the meaning of life.

I feel alive when I look in to the sky and see the clouds formation. It’s different everyday therefore I’m astonished and lively everyday.

I feel alive when I watch the sunset. The sight of a ever changing bright eccentric sky will never bore me. I’m in such an awe moment, so breath taken and at the same time, a reminder of being human mix with a feelings and emotions.

I feel alive when I’m in twine with nature, whether it’s the ocean, forest or just a local park, the sound of the wind and birds tweeting makes my heart and soul feel more alive than ever. The connection is nostalgic.

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