Aminosity Towards Unknown

We are not in high school anymore!

High school is one of the greatest milestone of our teen life. We experience what life is fully made of; to make decisions that resulted in serious consequences, to take risks, to explore our boundaries, to find our weaknesses and strengths, to fall in love, to lie and keep secrets, and to find ourselves in the midst of it all. But most of all, in high school, we make life long friends... or do we?

Its been four years since I finished high school, I can honestly say that I have definitely made a few life long friends, some I even met from primary school. The purpose of this post is look into a bigger picture of letting go and moving on, and  I'll be using my high school group or 'possie' as a metaphor.

Having a big group of friends is awesome, you look fearful and the sense of belonging is something not many get. To keep the group alive, there would be on the regular occasion a group get together. The first year or two was really good and fun, the momentum of catching up and seeing everyone again was ecstatic. But four year later and the spirit is kind of gone, and I think that it's totally fine. We are now young adults, we have a different pathway and they may not meet. We enjoy activities others may disagree with. We have individual beliefs values that we live by and others find difficult to understand. We are not in high school anymore, we are grown up and have our own life journey. When we have these catch ups, the group seems divided and the vibe is just uncomfortably awkward, this is due to past beefs, fragile friendships,  personality clashes and ultimately a different way of life.

Personally, I think moving on and leaving behind a stage of our life is fine. Acknowledging and being thankful for the inevitable is all that can be done now. It's not forgetting because that is impossible, its about accepting that sometimes things wont always be the same. Time  changes people and we just have to deal with it, just like the transition after high school.

Alone:

Don’t fall into the world’s trap where the norm is to have a false conception of love. Being alone doesn’t mean the world have fast paced ahead of you. Solitude and loneliness should be embraced, not frowned upon. The only way to understand oneself is through loneliness. Love to be alone. Love the quietness. Love that you have no one but yourself to push you through. Just because all the people you know have a partner, it doesn’t mean you need a partner too. Be unique. Yes it gets lonely at times, yes seeing couples together makes me jealous, but at the end of the day I am not gonna be with someone just for the sake of fitting in with the rest of my world of people dating. Fight the desert road alone, it’ll be a dry and dreadful road but once you conquer it, you’ll find that the desert road provided you you with the strength and courage to love yourself even more. For being brave and strong from the luring liquid of influences you didn’t need. For not depending on another person.

Perhaps the problem isn’t the intensity of your love, but the quality of the person you are loving.

Warsan Shire (via larmoyante)

Mantra

I search to be completely human; to feel, to give, to talk, to laugh, to get lost, to be found, to dance, to love; to just be so human

7/11 pre BYO cup. Happy international peace day ✌️

Let it be... Ever get bother by what someone does, what they say and how they treat you? And you just bottle it all up because you just don't want to cause any conflicts? The only way I can deal with this is to just let it be and to let it go. If someone really cares, if that person really knows you they will know how to treat you, if they low how to treat you, they will treat you right. I guess it's just a matter of how to respond to the situation. Being a sensitive person, my feelings get hurt easily and I am always self aware. That is me. I don't expect everyone to be like me, and if everyone was like me, this world would be full of sookie la las. I find pleasure in writing and having a vent. It's my way of processing my annoyance with certain people and events that affect me. Best advice to myself, whatever happens happens. Just let it be. You yourself be the person to decide how you will let it affect you.

I think I understand now why so many artists create out of a place of sadness. Pain is one of the most powerful emotions a soul can feel, and when it holds hands with love, it is intoxicating and overwhelming to the point that such small hearts must project some of that pain into art, music or poetry, or be consumed by it. We can only relieve ourselves of a fraction of that pain though. If we got rid of all of it we would be nothing. Absent. Sometimes our pain, just like our happiness, defines us

Z.M.   (via wordsnquotes)

So beautifully written

What you think, you create.  What you feel, you attract.  What you imagine, you become.

Oh Miranda stop it

Amazing

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