I Always Had This Fixation Of Staring At Windows, For Some Reason It Always Made Me Feel Comfortable,

I gotta keep the calm before the storm

I don't want less, I don't want more

Must bar the windows and the doors

To keep me safe, to keep me warm

Yeah, my life is what I'm fighting for

Can't part the sea, can't reach the shore

And my voice becomes the driving force

I won't let this pull me overboard.

God, keep my head above water

Don't let me drown, it gets harder

I'll meet you there at the altar

As I fall down to my knees

Don't let me drown, drown, drown

Don't let me, don't let me, don't let me drown

So pull me up from down below

'Cause I'm underneath the undertow

Come dry me off and hold me close

I need you now, I need you most.

And I can't see in the stormy weather

I can't seem to keep it all together

And I, I can't swim the ocean like this forever

And I can't breathe

God, keep my head above water

I lose my breath at the bottom

Come rescue me, I'll be waiting

I'm too young to fall asleep…

I wanna fly

Can you take me far away?

Give me a star to reach for

Tell me what it takes

And I'll go so high

I'll go so high

My feet won't touch the ground

Just stitch my wings

And pull the strings

I bought these dreams

That all fall down…

I love you in a way that all my thoughts are consumed by you, I love you… in a way that I long to be close to you… to see your face, to hear your voice and to touch you.

In a way that I don’t want anyone to get close to you…In a way that I wished I was the only one able to look at you. In a way you wonder, how has someone that keeps lingering in your mind…from the time you open your eyes until the last moment before you fall sleep, someone whom your heart aches for when you see them in pain or sorrow, someone who makes you feel uneasy or restless, when they care about other thing or someone other than you.

Someone who makes your heart overwhelmed with joy…when you just talk with them. That’s the someone I have in my mind… so I ask you, Am I that person to you ?

My life may not be perfect but at least I’m not attracted to men.

I love Tamagotchis

a cozy quilt

Lil orange fungi

Sometimes I feel that the world is too big for me, sometimes I feel that I don’t fit in this immensity beauty, some part of me just wants to feel it all and the other part of me wants to end and also die.

The world is beautiful and is sad too, I keep observing outside hoping to feel a certain wish of life, feeling the wind through my window, observing the birds that makes me feel that I have the chance to fly far away, the chance to hit the sky and going far from where my eyes can see.

Few days ago I was thinking about Uzumaki Naruto, a quote that I wrote on my journey book diary, it says- “ If you don't like your destiny, don't accept it. Instead, have the courage to change it the way you want it to be." This quote emphasizes the importance of actively shaping one's life and not passively accepting predetermined outcomes. It suggests that I have the domain to change my destiny and my path and create the future that I desire deep in my heart ♥️ But, is that possible that my deepest desires might happen? I keep looking outside of my window and wishing it to happen, the birds still flying….