BMO Being BMO 💙💛💚

TIRED OF LIVING.

But I know some day I'll make it out of here

Even if it takes all night or a hundred years

Need a place to hide, but I can't find one near

Wanna feel alive, outside I can't fight my fear

Isn't it lovely, all alone?

Heart made of glass, my mind of stone

Tear me to pieces, skin to bone

Hello, welcome home.

I always had this fixation of staring at windows, for some reason it always made me feel comfortable, has something genuinely very beautiful and dark between the worlds from here and there, I will never know what impact this will have on my heart.

If you arrived here, Welcome, this is Kaori Diary Journey.

I love you in a way that all my thoughts are consumed by you, I love you… in a way that I long to be close to you… to see your face, to hear your voice and to touch you.

In a way that I don’t want anyone to get close to you…In a way that I wished I was the only one able to look at you. In a way you wonder, how has someone that keeps lingering in your mind…from the time you open your eyes until the last moment before you fall sleep, someone whom your heart aches for when you see them in pain or sorrow, someone who makes you feel uneasy or restless, when they care about other thing or someone other than you.

Someone who makes your heart overwhelmed with joy…when you just talk with them. That’s the someone I have in my mind… so I ask you, Am I that person to you ?

I know you are in everything mom ❤️

Happy Mother’s Day whatever too..

loneliness

Everything is just so beautiful and so short…

Sometimes I feel that the world is too big for me, sometimes I feel that I don’t fit in this immensity beauty, some part of me just wants to feel it all and the other part of me wants to end and also die.

The world is beautiful and is sad too, I keep observing outside hoping to feel a certain wish of life, feeling the wind through my window, observing the birds that makes me feel that I have the chance to fly far away, the chance to hit the sky and going far from where my eyes can see.

Few days ago I was thinking about Uzumaki Naruto, a quote that I wrote on my journey book diary, it says- “ If you don't like your destiny, don't accept it. Instead, have the courage to change it the way you want it to be." This quote emphasizes the importance of actively shaping one's life and not passively accepting predetermined outcomes. It suggests that I have the domain to change my destiny and my path and create the future that I desire deep in my heart ♥️ But, is that possible that my deepest desires might happen? I keep looking outside of my window and wishing it to happen, the birds still flying….

I wait for her so long till I can finally see her, I miss her so much …

How lucky I am to live in the same time as you ❤️

I wanna fly

Can you take me far away?

Give me a star to reach for

Tell me what it takes

And I'll go so high

I'll go so high

My feet won't touch the ground

Just stitch my wings

And pull the strings

I bought these dreams

That all fall down…