Fuuuck Yes Dude Its Reading Too Much Into A Side Character Time

I know that some people are annoyed that authors make their main character have an interest in books but to me it’s such a love confession. I feel like it’s just part of our writing/reading culture to mention in our books that we love the feeling of books, their smell, that this is our world. This is where we go and where some of us are most alive. We write our books and we love it so much that we can‘t help but to mention how it feels to love them, how it feels to love creating and consuming the creations of others. I know it might be perceived as „authors feel obligated to write a main character who likes reading/writing“ but maybe,, maybe sometimes it’s just us being in love with what we do.

Sure, it can get boring when the only hobby possible for a character is reading and we should make sure to include one or two more interests but all in all, i think it’s something beautiful. I write in the library and it feels like I am connecting to my birth place, as a writer. I haven’t been at the library in years, i stepped into the fantasy section yesterday and for a second i was home. I usually feel a lot of anxiety in public but when i was there i barely cared about other people and how they perceive me, i was overwhelmed with joy when i was so suddenly surrounded by books, by the quiet voices of all those authors that came before, all their dreams and inner worlds collected and sorted in this place that was created for just that.

So i get it. I get why they dedicate a few paragraphs to describing the comfort of books. Why they make their characters like reading or writing. I feel like it’s not just a self-insert thing to do,,,,,

at the insane stage of character obsession where i start getting the urge to post pngs of them every five seconds like im showing ppl a picture of my stupid ass boyfriend that nobody likes but me

can you guys watch my squab for me im gonna go on my smoko

Good Omens 2 + Text Posts

things I have googled in the past days:

-percentage of homeless war veterans

-war crimes list

-propaganda definition

-triumphant synonyms

-dawn definition

-hard synonyms

-twilight definition

-straining definition

-hydration definition

-atomizer definition

-utopia definition

-modification definition

-irreversible definition

-socialist definition

-abdomen definition

Yes, writing is my full time job.

If this wasn’t my job I would always write „deffo“

being a writer is spelling disembowelment correctly on the first try but somehow always screwing up definitliely

characters have to be a little bit awful in ways that you cant defend. its good for the ecosystem. your honor he did do that. He did in fact do that

As a late diagnosed autist I will say one of the most damaging but transformative experiences I've ever had was being misdiagnosed with BPD.

Everyday my heart goes out to people with BPD.

The amount of stigma and silencing they face is astonishing and sickening.

I took DBT for years. Therapists use to turn me away because of my diagnosis.

I would be having full blown autistic meltdowns, crying for help literally - but because I was labeled as BPD ANY time I cried I was treated as manipulative and unstable.

As if the only reason I could be crying was if I was out to trick someone.

95% of the books out there with Borderline in the title are named shit like 'How to get away from a person with Borderline', 'How to stop walking on eggshells (with a person who has BPD)'

I was never allowed to feel true pain or panic or need.

That was 'attention seeking behavior', not me asking for help when a disability was literally inhibiting my ability to process emotions.

There were dozens of times where I had a full meltdown and was either threatened with institutionalization or told I was doing it for attention.

My failing relationships weren't due to a communication issue, or the inability to read social cues. No, because I was labeled borderline, my unstable relationships were my fault. Me beggong nuerotypicals to just be honest and blunt with what they meant was me pestering them for validation.

Borderline patients can't win.

And the funny thing is - I asked my therapist about autism. I told her I thought I was on the spectrum.

BPD is WILDLY misdiagnosed with those with autism and I had many clear signs.

Instead - she told me 'If you were autistic we wouldn't be able to have this conversation'. She made me go through a list of autistic traits made clearly for children, citing how I didn't fit each one.

And then she told me that me identifying with the autism community was the BPD making me search for identity to be accepted - and that I wasn't autistic, just desperate to fit in somewhere.

I didn't get diagnosed for another ten years. For ten years I avoided the autism community - feeling as if I were just a broken person who wanted to steal from people who 'really needed it'.

Because of my providers - I began to doubt my identity MORE, not less.

Ten years of thinking I was borderline and being emotionally neglected and demonized by a system meant to help me.

To this day, I still don't trust neurotypicals. Not fully.

I know I'm not borderline now - but my heart aches for them. Not for the usual stuff. But for the stigma. And the asshole doctors. And the dismissiveness and threatening and the idea of institutionalization hanging over their head.

I love Borderline people. I always will. I'm not Borderline but if you are I love you and I'm sorry.

You're not a bad person. You're not a therapists worst nightmare, you are a human with valid feelings and fears.

Borderline people I'm sorry.

i beg to sniffer