Animalistic - Blog Posts
Do you ever feel like a starving carnivore?
What do you mean?
Well, sometimes, very rarely mind you, but once in a blue moon I get into this mood where I like, feel like I wanna eat organs or some shit. Not a random person though, I'm not Jeffery Dahmer! It's like I wanna eat myself? Like I get a rage and my head gets filled with violent gore and screaming and I wanna tear flesh from bone like I'm a wild animal or a monster or something, but in a weird way at the same time I always wanna be torn apart myself, feel the pain, I desire it. I tend to eat gas station meats when I feel like that, viciously rip it with my teeth, sometimes I get cheetos or takis too and it's like I'm breaking through bones, and in a weird way, I'm not me anymore. I'm a monster tearing myself apart. I'm a ravenous creature feasting on fresh meat and chewing through bones and drinking in the viscous blood. I'm me and I'm the monster I run from, I'm the monster and the meat.
When it ends it helps, I feel better, I'm not mad anymore, the monster is fed and it can go back to it's cage for a long time before it inevitably begins to starve again.
I don't know how to get rid of the monster that desires so desperately sometimes to eat me and begs for a visceral mess of carnage. I don't think I could deny it forever no matter how hard I tried. I can delay it, I don't open that cage until I am home, but the monster won't let me rest if I don't feed it eventually, fake meat, fake blood, fake bones, for the imaginary monster. I don't know how to get rid of the desire to be torn apart by it.
Like I said, it doesn't happen often, and I never hurt anyone in reality, I don't even hurt anyone in my head, the monster eats me, I am the monster, I only eat myself. I don't know what that means though.
The best way I can describe it is feeling like a starving carnivore.
Hey! I'm back with another OC! It's actually a crack OC, so please don't take her too seriously!
🐙She's a big Tok Tok star with the nickname "Octopussy". In her toktoks she usually just dance, do challenges and interviews with random people on the street.
🐙Her quirk gives her the same abilities as octopus, therefore she can change colour, breathe underwater and her hands are basically a pair of tentacles.
🐙Octopussy is an UA drop-out. Girl was on her second year when she realised that she would rather entertain people than save them.
🐙She's a gyaru and supports every other person in this subculture.
🐙Because of Octopussy's ability to change colour of her skin she actually doesn't wear make-up and just pigment the certain areas of her body.
🐙Nobody knows her real name and she goes by "Octopussy" even in her passport.
as a corpse loves a vulture (you are the only person who has noticed i am dead) as a corpse loves a vulture (you're going to consume me and i can't let that happen) as a corpse loves a vulture (you are drawn specifically to the rotten parts of me) as a corpse loves a vulture (to be "smitten" means to be struck down)