Autistic Adult - Blog Posts

Hi guys!

I was wondering - does anyone has a recommendation on headsets for canceling the noise? I want to buy myself a pair because it's really hard to work in the office without them, but I am not sure where to even start :(

Zapraszam do udziału w moim badaniu nt przyjaźni między dorosłymi autystami!

Dzień dobry, nazywam się Emil Gałaman i jestem studentem Psychologii na Uniwersytecie Łódzkim.

Jeśli jest Panx dorosłą osobą autystyczną i ma Panx znajomych lub przyjaciół w spektrum autyzmu, serdecznie zapraszam do udziału w badaniu, które przeprowadzam w ramach mojej pracy magisterskiej, pod kierunkiem dr Eleonory Bielawskiej-Batorowicz. Badanie ma na celu poszerzenie wiedzy o przyjaźniach między dorosłymi autystami i będzie polegało na rozmowie, podczas której zadam różne pytania dotyczące Państwa przyjaźni z innymi osobami autystycznymi. Pomysł na to badanie wziął się z osobistego doświadczenia, ponieważ sam jestem autystyczny i znam wielu innych autystów. O doświadczeniach tej grupy mówi się od niedawna, a badań na ten konkretny temat właściwie nie ma, więc biorąc udział w moim badaniu mogą Państwo przyczynić się do lepszego poznania doświadczeń autystów z ich własnej perspektywy.

Zachęcam do zapisywania się na rozmowę w trybie stacjonarnym w Instytucie Psychologii Uniwersytetu Łódzkiego przy al. Rodziny Scheiblerów 2 lub w innej uzgodnionej lokalizacji na terenie Łodzi. Możliwe jest także przeprowadzenie rozmowy online przez platformy Skype, Discord lub Signal, zależnie od możliwości logistycznych i osobistego komfortu. W sprawie badania proszę pisać na adres mailowy emil.galaman@protonmail.com, dodać mnie na Discordzie (nazwa użytkownika neurohound), Skype (identyfikator live:.cid.b666e59e0114e1ed) lub Signalu (nazwa użytkownika emil_g.37). Wszystkie inne szczegóły są do uzgodnienia.

Oczywiście jeśli samx nie jesteś autystą, ale znasz kogoś, kto może być zainteresowany, to byłbym wdzięczny za podanie informacji dalej. Z góry dzięki!

>taimanin characters talk with fucking UNDERTALE HAHAHAHAHAHA tumblr is so gay xd

Introducing muses from their own blogs coming into here like. . .

“ …How did I get here?”

“Rinko-senpai! There’s some sort of goat demon here!”

“Then I shall have this demon taste my blade.”

“I’m not a demon, I’m a Boss Monster. I suggest you both put down those weapons before I burn you both.”

“You won’t even get the chance to do anything.”

“Don’t get too hasty Yukikaze.”

“ … .I’m staying out of this and being all the way back here.”

“I feel out of place.”

guess who has two thumbs and has found out he's been masking at dr's appointments :)

this dumbass right here :))

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it's becoming very apparent that i cannot live according to someone else's schedule

Hey I got this squishy stress ball, do u wanna feel it? (Autistic flirting)

Another thing pissing me off this morning is fucking allistics thinking they need to teach me "manners"

So fucking what if I said hey instead of good morning. Don't fucking lecture me over it!

I was talking to my mom and I told her that I think I might have autism and she told me that I do, and she's known about it since I was 5

And she just decided to never tell anyone, including me, about it

It apparently took three decades for her to decide that I might find this information helpful

So many things about me and my life make sense now

I really wish I had known this sooner

Overload...

One of the best things about college to me is just showing up early to get a good seat away from people and pick where I sit. I love being able to sit away from the flickering bright white lights that loom over the students, yet being able to sit away from windows and distractions that might interfere with my studies. With all these great things soon comes misery though...the seat I pick always ends up having someone trying to sit near me so I have to set my backpack on the chair next to me and sit in the corner if possible. I fear people might think I'm rude, but the noises of others clicking away on computers, talking to their neighbors, smells, and any small noises or motions they make just tend to bother my sensory issues. I have severe sensory issues due to my autism and sensory processing disorder so I go into a meltdown almost every time I show up to class. I love school and learning as it's my special interest and always has been. The ability for me to expand my knowledge in any way possible makes me happy and want to flap my hands around. I just wish people were more considerate and I didn't have to wear headphones just to exist in normal environments. School is great, yet extremely hard and I always miss classes sometimes. I tried online school, but it's hard for me to focus and stay attentive in class. I'd rather sleep through it instead which is a huge issue. I don't know, I just feel as if I need to let out some of my issues and get them off my chest in order to sit through this next class. Sorry if I come off as rude, I don't mean to. I just am struggling so much lately to just exist. I want to curl up in a ball and hide away from society until people acknowledge that those with disabilities can and will be in professional settings too so we need to make things to accommodate them.

About me

Hi y'all, I'm kat (spelled with a lowercase k on purpose) and I am an adult autistic woman who is still in her education journey as of now. Although I've been on this hellsite for awhile I thought I'd update this about me to reflect the kind of stuff I plan to post

For the record I am alright with minors interacting on this blog though I will tag posts with "aunt kat's adult topics chats" if they are nsfw or something I'd rather not the minors who follow me interact with (More under the cut)

I am a feminist and I make no qualms about discussing my beliefs around feminism on my blog due to the fact I consider this blog a space to get my thoughts out though I am always seeking to educate myself on issues that I am less familiar with. Due to the fact I am American and white i recognize that I will have gaps in my knowledge and thus I seek to empower voices that have more credence than my own on certain topics. My hope is that I will be able to compile blogs that are comfortable being listed on a post I plan to make for resources on subjects that I do not consider myself an expert on

My asks will be open to both public and anonymous questions however I will more often than not be very delayed in responding to asks so I apologize in advance to anyone who sends time sensitive asks. My dms however are closed to anyone I don’t know in real life so do not message me there because I will not respond

I’ll be slow to update this blog as of now though I’ll make a more in depth post describing what I post on this account sometime later

does anyone ever have like a thousand scenarios about a fictional character go through your head everyday? Or when you daydream about that character during a song? Or when you draw that fictional character constantly? Yeah that's me 100%

Why does a fucking muse have to come around an hour before an assignment is due and be like "here is The Perfect Idea"

I am doing laundry at 3:45 AM and I'm a bit scared of myself

I’m free. I’ve wanted to be independent for at least 14 years.

Wait, now what?

outfit and hair looks like sensory hell to me but yes we are coming

that sounds like a challenge to me

I’m just going to leave this here…

do not do any of these things pls thank you

Please don't be shitty like these three people are. The source of this post is the Twitter account of FayeFahrenheit.

That near-meltdown point when you feel like you can kinda control it and you ask yourself "am i here to make a scene or am i here to silently die inside"

it makes me kind of sad to see how many people online make fun of autism depictions in media... even the "stereotypical" ones. i often see people make fun of media with autistic characters (either canon described as autistic, or heavy implications and autistic traits) and then say its because its "inaccurate" and "stereotypical" and "overexaggerated" like... are we ignoring the fact that some autistic people do present that way?

my personal example of this is the tv show the good doctor, i watched the first couple seasons when i was like 14ish and first coming to terms with my autism diagnosis (before that point i had done everything i could to ignore it, and my mom had hidden the fact that i was diagnosed from me for a few years because she didnt want me to feel bad... i was diagnosed around age 10 and really would have benefitted from support, but never got any)

i am aware that the show doesnt have the best representation and isnt the most accurate, and i do wish the actor who played the character had been autistic, for better representation as well as promoting autistic actors... but i still loved the show, medical science is a special interest of mine and i have wanted to be a surgeon ever since i was very little, so i really liked to see a show about a topic i love that shows someone like me being successful! i was very happy!

later on i ended up going online and searching the show, all i saw were people making fun of the show and making fun of the character for autism things... all done under the "nobody actually acts like that" argument... it really did hurt me a lot, because i actually act like that. a lot of the struggles the character had are real struggles i face as an autistic person, even if the show doesnt always represent them the best

i struggle with making friends, i struggle with physical touch, i struggle with saying the "wrong" thing and not really knowing how to converse (especially in emotional situations), i am monotone, i need rigid routines, etc etc... so i was very happy to see a show with someone like me!! and it makes me sad how many people make fun of it with the excuse of "nobody is actually like that" because yes! people are! i am!

This. This is the post I need to show my family. Thank you for putting this into words.

Explaining autism to an allistic is exhausting.

Because most of the time, in my experience, they don't listen to what I'm telling them that it's a disability and that we force our square shaped selves into the circular world everyday and that slowly erodes the edges of who we are.

They're looking for hidden meanings in order to get Autistics to behave more neurotypical. They want to see us become circles.

I explained why we don't use functioning labels any more. And they will say "yes, but you do function more than some." As if it's an "Ah ha! Caught you!" moment.

I was even told today that I obviously find this all easy. Because I hold it together at work.

And I just get so tired trying to explain that I'm not "Aspie". I'm not "high functioning". I'm not "on the spectrum". I'm not "mostly neurotypical".

We're Autistic, goddamnit.

I would never be able to share this enough. We should be accepted, not prevented.

THIS.

I decided to create something that I wish I had when I first got diagnosed with autism - so here’s my comic for ASDComicTakeover! You can find out more about the project here!

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I am so glad I found this! I wish someone knew how to redirect my headbanging when I was younger (thankfully I mostly grew out of that one), or that other stims were okay; I used to be gotten onto a lot for any kind of stimming, but a few persisted to now, much to my family's annoyance.

don’t know what parent of an autistic child needs to hear this but as long as they’re not harming anyone your kid’s stimming is not a “problem behaviour”

When I made a friend at work I was literally like:

and I regret nothing 😂

-VENT-

I grew up being told to hug family I didn't want to and was low-key treated like a doll to be dressed up/act however they wanted. No input from lil ol me.

I love cuddling but get overwhelmed really easily, so it's easier to just say I don't like being touched; but that's not true! I just don't want to push someone away and hurt their feelings so I just say I don't like it. I feel intrinsically guilty at expressing boundaries, but also know that they are important and have improved on doing it anyway. Physical affection and compliments are incredibly hard for me to accept and I get nauseated whenever being told positive things. It was always a manipulative tactic (and some people in my life are still like that). Now I have a very strict touching boundary. I'm proud I can do that for myself, but I do wish I could just cuddle on the couch with someone in a platonic way, and then get away from them without it being a big deal. I'm sensitive to smell, touch, lights, and sound like a LOT. So many people have gotten butthurt about me not liking their perfume or being uncomfortable when they get in my bubble. I give good eye contact, but responding to things is tough for me. I give a lot of thumbs up like 🙂👍 and some people think it's a disrespect thing. It ain't, I swear! If I don't know how to respond, I have no issue saying that! Like "I don't know how you want me to respond" or "Very nice".

It gets tiring constantly having to justify myself to myself, let alone to other people. Like yes, I don't wanna handshake, high-five, or hug. No, I actually don't know how to keep conversing with you or respond to your joke, I'm sorry. Especially since I work with customers all day, I get a lot of backward moments bc I can't always get the tone when someone is actually upset or joking, so I do a lot of head tilts or "very nice" and "no problem" And some people do NOT like that at all, others get embarrassed on my behalf. Doesn't help that I wear a mask, but I mask less when I'm wearing it (ironic I know)

Anyway, I'm good 😂

Am I the only one who needs explicit consent to be friends? Like yeah you gave me your number and we talk all the time, but can I send you random stuff? Can I say we're friends? I'm not assuming anything, just tell me please 🥺

I feel so empty. I feel like no one will ever understand me. I'm sorry for existing.

I've begun singing lately as a way to try to rediscover joy (and learn how to unmask). Unfortunately, my shiba inu tends to be the target of such serenades. She often slowly backs away and hides, all the while looking at me with the same expression I'd expect on a peasant mother who's just discovered that her child is possessed.

Putting on shows for this unwilling audience has become the highlight of my day.

I should start a blog called "How to Do Things Wrong". People can watch I do as much research as my attention span will let me do that day and then witness my anxiety foil all my preparations.

(Sponsored by the fact that it took me an hour to fill out a form that asked me to describe me and my work.)